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the 3rd mayhem bridge

5:15am
dashed down the stairs

laptop perched in the crock of my arm

multipurpose bag slung on the shoulder.

house keys? check, car keys? check,jacket? check,

bread? yeah checked am biting into it now.

quick cleaning of my windshields to ensure maximum vision

little' care for wiping down the car, start engine, tune up music

, tupac's hell razor [/i]starts booming in, set car into reverse and am off

fast forward., entry 3rd mayhem bridge oworonshoki axis

2nd stick of cigarette and crawling at snail's speed towards the mayhem bridge

paapooon paapooon paapooon, cuts through on [i]my only God can judge me now [/i]track

this siren blaring wannabes,again don't they know the bridge is partial blocked , and we the other road users can't very well fly

by the time the sound got behind me, i was already seething and thus gave the gesture 'fly' and continued on my merry drive

after a couple of rebuffed attempts to overtake moi, and on realizing i wasn't going to bug, the car swung left rather too forcefully or in anger

gbam!followed by brakes squealing, tires screeching and horns blaring ::::time 6:10am:::::

incident: the assistant commissioner for police's entourage ran into the staff vehicle conveying the commandant 82 division Nigerian army enugu

ripple effects from the initial collision, 30cars damaged, 3shots fired and traffic buildup as far as the tollgate


effect on me: smoked the 3rd stick , listened to '[i]me and my gungirlfriend' by amaru shakur,as am parked in front of the office

life is short

love makes it worth the while

makes the days less painfull, makes the nights less cold

makes your heart thud faster

and makes this life more bearable

yes i would love her again and again

i just don't get it

why would a woman let a good man good?

ok i got that above phrase from a movie[i] why did i get married[/i]


but you get the gist sha?

why?

i am sitting at my desk totally unproductive,asking meself that question over and over again

why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why?

can someone please tell me why?

THE MOURN

am not bereaved,atleast not by the way of losing a loved one,but yet again i have lost someone,someone i would

have wanted to spend the rest of my life with,i so loved her

its being 15hours 19 mins since this loss and i find the song 'aint no sunshine when she is gone '

re-echoing within me,yes i mourn and yes i cry, does that make me less a man(frankly i care less) i have only loved

twice.thats if i can call the ist one love.before her the thought of marriage was laughable,when she came i dreamt of it everyday

------->2boys ,a girl------->house by the beach with pine tress around, a bike or two to terrorize her and the

neighborhood with and her voice to wake up to.it was connection so lovely because it wasn't planned for,it just

sprung a life of its own , spent a small fortune on calls and texts and so did she, she always said she feared the

'storm' might break us. it dint, we broke ourselves.set in certain ways , me in love and ready to scream from the

rooftops, whilst she the more cautious approach.a simple did you miss me? and the corresponding answer or

non-answer broke us up.i mourn and i bleed, funny if am right about how she feels, she would be in-mourning

too,so why couldn't she just say it? and if am wrong, then God just saved me from a loveless union(even though i

don't appreciate it)

i so want to blame her but i can't,am just tired,spent,emotionally screwed,irritable drained,sober and down


i am not asking for rejoinders, i am just writting this as a form of release----i doubt i can or would love another

temmy why?

yes love can be a bitch


emmanuel
ist august 2008

what makes you certain my last post was

my imagination at work?

girl we dont all act out movies oo

my resignation


i walk up with an arrogant gait towards him

the scorn in his face is evident,'my friend where are you going to'

he asks, me sha just pretended as if i couldn't hear him,

mr -------- would you go back to your work station now!

if it was a dog backing or a goat bleating, i acted unperturbed

the whole office had gone silent by now,waiting for the showdown

you this un serious,silly human being i would make sure you get fired for----BANG!

a perfect connect to his jaw,and for good measure i confirmed with another,then another

till it became a flurry of fists

ariblaze, ariblaze chill chill chill

were words my ears heard but my brain couldn't register

when i was satisfied, i pulled up, and told him ever so politely[b] i quit[/b]

straightened my shirt ,walk out of the office

closing the door to that chapter of my life and the resounding applause that had started out in the room

gamine


your writeup is beautiful

ok

real life beckoned

so i see, no one has had the urge to rant

all that pent up anger fit kill ooo

, lemmie go see whats happening elsewhere

a minute please

gamine

get a real house already

murder

i killed him

yes mama ssh(dont let subscribers to my book of rants hear oo)