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Christianity EtcRe: Nairaland Chicken Soup by brainhack(op):
uzuede4:
Nice story. Looking for the good in people will help us maintain healthy and loving relationships with them. when we make people around us feel comfortable irrespective of their short comings, they will also learn to treat us same way.( Matt7:12).
Learning to accept people for who they are, will help boost our self confidence as they also accept us for who we are. Love from the heart will help us apply this simple principle maintain our peace of mind.
The bolded resonated within me.

Thanks for sharing smiley
Christianity EtcRe: Nairaland Chicken Soup by brainhack(op):
P E A C E - Hillsong Young & Free


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKKd15f5XWY

There's a peace far beyond all understanding
May it ever set my heart at ease
Dare anxiety come, I'll remember that peace is a promise You keep
Peace is a promise You keep...
Science/TechnologyRe: Spacex CEO Elon Musk To Send Japanese Billionaire To The Moon On It’s New Rocket by brainhack(m):
Cocao:
There is a conspiracy.

The rich will leave the poor and move somewhere else.

It's a conspiracy or I am watching too many movies embarassed embarassed
Lool. The rich would govern the poor from the moon and turn earth to their factory/farm/waste land cheesy

watch “Altered Carbon” [TV Show].
EducationRe: Olumuyiwa Oludayo: Sex Scandal Covenant University Lecturer Chat Leak By Student by brainhack(m): 11:27am On Sep 12, 2018
HigherEd:
Dr Oludayo isn't just any lecturer, he is the Registrar.
Women likes him and he also likes women... As long as he isn't forcing anyone, i don't think it's much of a deal.
If this is true, it is very wrong. This is a married man, In a place like Covenant University; where students are sent home for a month for missing Chapel service.

If this is the registrar’s conduct, what do you expect of the mere lecturers. If you don’t see anything wrong with this.. hmm
Nairaland GeneralRe: What Is The Dumbest/craziest Thing You've Done Absent Minded? by brainhack(m): 9:38pm On Sep 10, 2018
zinnyzee:
You're laughing... It wasn't funny then.

In my head, i knew i was an idiot to have done something like that... But one voice(which i now know to be the voice of the devil) kept telling me i did the right thing.
In situations like that, I don’t believe there is a right or wrong way par se. you could have used N100 credit to call instead and spent the rest on feeding, well its the thought/gesture that is important.

Any nigeria guy that has a girlfriend like you, would be a mumu to let her go. I personally would never allow you to do things for me that would afftect you too much in terms of opportunity cost but the thought/gesture is very heart warming though, try not to lose that side of you; no matter what.
Nairaland GeneralRe: What Is The Dumbest/craziest Thing You've Done Absent Minded? by brainhack(m): 3:36pm On Sep 10, 2018
zinnyzee:
Spending my last 1k to subscribe just to wish my crush a happy birthday.... Meanwhile, hunger nearly kee me that night.
Lmao cheesy

People that make these sort of sacrifices are always exceptional though grin
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
jpphilips:
How do you expect someone to charge you handling charges on your principle and interest? did they make your principal for you? I am pretty sure there is one job I can't do and that must be customer service, sometimes when you are ignored, just know the question has K-leg.
You invested your money so its common sense to expect charges on accrued interest not your capital. AXA mansard will likely not respond because they charge neither same with FBN. The quoted rate is yours, they have taken theirs before they gave yours, so if you see 12%, that's yours it doesn't mean the market yield was 12%, its always more.
Welcome. I’m sure by now you have read all my current posts regarding this and you’re all caught-up smiley
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
beyolah:
I haven't been with them for up to a year but I sent an email and here's the response;

The rates published for the Money Market fund are net of fees and the management fee is accrued for daily and deducted before income is distributed to your account.

There are no further charges passed to your account once the net income is distributed each day.
I hope I read this right. Just to further clarify their response; if for example the published rate is 12%. It is net of fees, lets say using that rate; your income for the day is N1,000 AND then the management fee would be deducted (e.g mgt fee N15) so N985 hits your account. So you don’t notice it.

If I did read it right, then that was exactly the point my Axa-mansard friend was trying to make.

The point I wanted to bring to the notice of this house was that: doesn’t it make Axa- mansard rate a little less competitive than others. Others or Stanbic rather (thats the only account i have for now) gives you your income exactly at the rate published for the day.

Reading back this trend i noticed someone complaining that there is a little variance between the rates Axa-mansard published and what hits his account everyday (I’m guessing that is management fee).

Well i’m fine now. Thank you for this though.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
ronnyboo:
Nice one. I also check my balance almost on a daily basis. But I noticed there was no interest added yesterday Tuesday 21st August. Is this a common occurrence? Abi market no sell or what? Who else observed this?
Bro, account checking is a necessary daily ritual. There was a day over **** disappeared from my account, i just waved it off that it would come back. After some days the thing no still show. I had to call before it was rectified, apparently nobody was aware of the error. Since then I even added dated screenshot of my account which i send to my personal mail addy to the mix. My country people talk say if mad-man don beat person mama mercilessly before, if she see mechanic she go pick race.

From my observation, valuation is done only on working days. The interest for Tuesday and Wednesday (Public holidays) would be added tomorrow. Same thing applies to weekends (interest accrued for Saturday & Sunday) are added the following working day (Monday).
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m): 2:27am On Aug 22, 2018
mizGene:
I thought so too but I noticed that on the app, l
I deposited 200k for starters, the total is about 240k now but it says interest accrued is 30k .. so what's up with the difference?
You are referring to the interest showing (in smaller fonts) below the available balance - using the mobile app.

My main concern is usually my total available balance, I really don’t pay much attention to the interest being displayed below. I believe the interest it shows is for a period though (mostly likely for the current quarter, not sure). Why I believe so is because after a period mine zerorises (ie the 30k showing now as interest would turn to 0) then starts increasing again depending on how much you earn per day. From my observation the zerorisation usually happens when we enter a new quarter.

Like i said I don’t pay much attention to it, I just check my total available balance once a day sometimes just to be sure the interest accrued for the previous day was added grin
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
AbbyE:
Lol are you sure your friend actually works for them ?
Because I've had an AXAMansard account since last year April(17 months) and no separate deduction has been made
Thats all i wanted to hear cheesy

Yeah he does. 100% sure. There are GTB staffs that can’t provide simple account info such as their card rate for dollar and they go to work everyday; they don’t even know how to get the info for you if asked lol. So my first question to him was if he had a MMF account with his employer which he confirmed in affirmative.

Anyways thanks for your response. Much appreciated.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
rationalmind:
You know, you remind me of my days arguing in the religion section. What exactly qualifies as strong evidence?

If I tell you I have a mail from them and even share the mail, it's no evidence it wasn't doctored. I could simply be a marketer for them, using all the tricks in the book to bring you in

And if it's me telling you I've been with them for a year and wasn't charged, you may ask me to share my account statement for that year showing I wasn't debited. Of course even if I share, it's still no evidence, I could have doctored it.

It's good you're making your own independent enquiry. It appears it's the only thing that qualifies as evidence and not what I post here.
It is not a big matter. Sorry if you feel offended. I would have killed the matter if you said you have had an account with them for over a year or you received a mail from them or you are a staff. That passes my strong evidence test already; It doesn’t take much to satisfy my doubt but you have still on still you have failed to tell us how you got this info though.

This is not an indeterminable matter such as religion, that would result to a frivolous and never ending argument. it is as simple as black and white. Its all about the numbers here and numbers are exact and can’t tell a lie by theirself.

I honestly really don’t care to be right or wrong here, it wouldn’t add to my funds. Its just that my rationalmind didnt just see any reason for Axa-mansard to state their Annual Management fee for emphasis if their rates are already net of all* charges and fees. I’m secretly hoping you are correct though.

Some people would use the info you post here now or in the future, it wouldn’t hurt to give them basis of your conclusions would it.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
rationalmind:
Please read through the page below

https://www.nairaland.com/1912965/mutual-funds/70
rationalmind:
Mansard is also net of fees, just confirmed.

Cc: Megacontrol
you still didn’t say how you came about this info. Please do you have a mail from Axa-mansard supporting this claim or have you been investing in their MMF for over a year?

I just got off the phone with a friend that works with Axa-mansard. He stated that yes the rates published are net of charges but at some point later the Annual Management Fee (1.25%) would be deducted from your account.

He has promised to get back with an official response when work resumes because he is presently unsure whether it is deducted at a particular time of the year or when an event is triggered (eg payout).

I would be sure to relay this if he gets back to me with more info. As I stated before I won’t invest under an assumption and wouldn’t advise anybody to do so until the assumption become a fact (bring your strong evidence).
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m): 11:20pm On Aug 20, 2018
rationalmind:
This has been ironed out before now. The rates quoted are net of charges
AbbyE:
We have answered this question a lot of times , rates are net of charges.
Yes, everyone’s rate seems to be net of charges but I don’t want to assume that Axa-mansard’s “Annual Management fee” has already been charged to the rate publicized and such wont be chargable to your account at any point in time.

I wouldn’t also advise anybody to go ahead under an assumption except you are confirming this as their staff or someone that got firsthand information from them or someone that have had MMF account with Axa-mansard for over a year and they have never charged you Annual management fee.

So please just for clarity, which of the above category do you fall in.

InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
ojoh002:
Who can answer this?
When someone or a group of people are being evasive about an aspect of the thing under consideration, it is a “gaint-big” red flag for me. I even tried reaching out to Axa-mansard people regarding their MMF’s “management fee” and still did not get any answer.

If the 1.25% is chargeable on the whole account (Principal + Interest) thats a big WAWU. It makes their rates significantly less attractive compared to that of their competitors; so goodluck to them.

Anyway I have decided pitch my tent with FBN. I should be able to complete all the necessary this coming week.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
mizGene:
Hi guys, pls what exactly is Stanbic's mgt fee for MMF?
I have had Stanbic’s MMF for over 5years and I haven’t seen any deduction in my account (well apart from withdrawals i made myself).

It is logical that they offer MM instruments to us at a rate lesser than they get them. I stand to be corrected, I don’t think account management fee is charged to any account afterwards because the rates publicized are already net of management fees.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m): 12:08am On Aug 17, 2018
yak:
FBN is the worst. when u even enter any firstbank branch n mention Mutual fund they'll be looking at u like u missed road.
I remember the last time I was at one of the branches in 2015, the woman directed me to mutual benefits office adjacent them
Lmao grin grin

Well lets hope what happened in 2015 doesn’t repeat itself in 2018 cheesy

To be fair, I recently sent them a serials of emails making enquiries about their MMF; I must commend the speed at which they attended to my mails. I just hope it is not IGG (Initial Gra-Gra).
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m): 11:20pm On Aug 16, 2018
beyolah:
I have a Stanbic MMF account and Axamansard.
To be sincere, I'm enjoying Axamansard more.

*I did everything online; opening account, submitting my documents and funding my account. They also have an app.

*I've made withdrawals and I get them before 24hours.
My first withdrawal dropped in my account on the same day.
My last withdrawal request was at night, I got the money after close of work the next day
They treat withdrawal requests that come in after 1:30pm the next day

*They respond promptly to emails and I've even requested a call back, which they did. Infact, my line didn't go through so they sent an email requesting for alternate number to reach me on.

The only but so far is that when I try to top up my account through the app, they include some transaction charges. To avoid this, I use their web page, I discovered its free from the webpage .

Cc
irookie
Druss
Brainhack
Please what’s your take on Axa-mansard’s Annual management fee (1.25%). Is it on the interest accrued or it includes the principal.

1.25% of N5,000,000 = N62,500
1.25% of N10,000,000 = N125,000
1.25% of N50,000,000 = N625,000

If its includes the principle hmmm. What happens if MM instruments stays on course with this nose dive and lands between 6-8%. We would surely feel that 1.25% oo.

Anybody that has the answer should please clarify.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
irookie:
Nice debate to deliberate on

Things I look for while choosing which MMF (in no particular order)
1. Interest Rate.
2. Managers credibility (me too no wan hear "shoot bird mama fly" )
3. Management fees.
4. Easy cash out.


I plan to run 3 diff MMF along with my TB (now i have 2 stanbic and Investment one, would have opted for FBN but i get personal beef with them) STABIC dey fall my hand wella just hoping they improve.

still following this thread to first hand info from persons that has an active account with other funds manager (I don't really believe in any staff words cos my myself know how to sell my opinion to my wife grin
Exactly, if put in a particular order No. 4 (Easy cash out) is priority for me. I’d loved to invest with FBN but I found out they don’t have online redemption. I can’t be doing clerical working (Printing, filling forms, scanning, sending emails) everytime I want to withdraw.

Does Investment-one have online redemption, as they have failed to display their daily Interest rates they are not my first or second choice but “easy of cashing-out” is my priority”.

You are right about StanbicIBTC falling hand sometimes when it matters but wetin man go do for now. We still have wait and shop carefully.

Please who know if Axa-Mansard has online redemption and what is their TAT; (I would mind have a list of MMF that have online redemption access). Axa-mansard’s management fees (1.25% shocked) seems like alot though.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
enque:
Morning house.

So i thot to ask,
what's the advantage of runningbmore than 1 MF acct?
I would say it depends on what the individual has in mind. If you are fine with having just one MMF account, it shouldn’t be a bother. For me; I think I am overly protective of my hard earned money, I am not yet comfortable with seeing more than a particular amount in a single account.

For me that amount might be a particular 8 digit figure. For you it can be a particular 9 or 10 digit figure. Well I plan to open three MMF accounts in total. Once the second account gets to the target amount after some years; I would open the third.

My choices would be based on fund & fund-related information accessibility, Interest rate is secondary. I don’t just believe in putting my eggs in one basket.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
Today’s Rate
As seen on their websites

StanbicIBTC - 11.61%
AXA-Mansard - 11.89%
FBN - 12.04%
ARM - 12.3965%* (*as at 12th Aug 2018)

From the look of it, everybody’s rate has been beating StanbicIBTC’s rate back to back for several months now.

NB: I have nothing against StanbicIBTC, as at now I have just one MMF account and its with them.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m):
Nusah09:
yoU need investment-one!
kayrukky:
I will ask you to look at these MMF: ARM, Investment -one, FBN Quest and AXA Mansard, from their operation, their interest rates are not too far from each other. You can also monitor your investment online on these four.
Thanks guys. I am considering making a choice between Investment-One and AXA Mansard.

yak:
I think ARM n Mansard Rates are good for now. better than stanbic if am not mistaking
@Yak is telling no lie, some months ago while i was doing interest rate comparasion. One of the them in particular beat StanbicIBTC’s rates back to back for the period of comparasion (it was more than 6 months).

I can’t remember now whether it was ARM or AXA-Mansard. I just know the organization’s name started with an “A”.

Modified
I was unable to find current Interest rates on Investment-One’s website, Therefore I am dropping them from my choice. I like to know what I need to know without stress. I can’t start calling or sending emails to have their current Interest rate.

New consideration: Between FBN & AXA-Mansard.
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m): 9:26pm On Aug 14, 2018
Ehuatamuigunisi:
Do not encourage monopoly by discussing only one Money market operator IBTC. Other good ones with better rates abound.
Going through the trend, I was just about to mention this when I saw your post. Thank you bro.

Please guys, lets encourage competition and not over leverage on StanbicIBTC MMF. Competition is in our best interest. We are not working for StanbicIBTC.

I have hit the target amount for my savings in StanbicIBTC Money Market fund. I currently shopping for another good Money Market fund.

I haven’t gathered enough information to reach a decision. I am open to suggestions. I no fit pack money for only StanbicIBTC MMF, I no wan hear shoot bird mama fly tongue
GamingRe: Is Switching To UR Pistol Really ALWAYS Faster Than Reloading In Shooting Games? by brainhack(m):
HyDef:
Take cover and reload. I agree.

I've never switched weapons as a means to 'reload'. I impulsively reload after killing a batch of enemies, or before entering a new room, but sometimes in the thick of it, bullets run out. In those cases, I take cover, and reload.[b]

Pistols are useless in most shooters as far as I'm concerned. Well, except Wolfenstein: The Old Blood, where the stealth benefits were massive. And GTA V, where I use them to headshot. And Perfect Dark, where they were pretty freaking powerful (Magnums though).
Okay, maybe not so useless.
You got a point but I have learnt this precious lesson from 1st person shooter games. If you are under active fire with no cover never reload switch asap. Like you said a pistol can be less effective but it stalls the enemies while you seek cover for a reload.

I play 1st person shooter games on hard mode, reload is not your friend. Every second counts.
Jobs/VacanciesRe: Department Of Petroleum Resources - 2016 Graduate Trainee &experienced Hire Job by brainhack(m): 3:03pm On Jul 12, 2018
pillgist:
It still baffles me how fellow applicants like you and I came here to talk about how transparent this particular recruitment is, shouting 80% merit, probably after been bribed or given assurance of a position at DPR, dishing out stories of how Mr.Tata is a saint, only for them to vanish after they collected the APLs, mission accomplished ba? Are these the so called leaders of tomorrow?
This is Sad.
Christianity EtcRe: Nairaland Chicken Soup by brainhack(op): 4:25pm On Jun 09, 2018
zaramtips:
STOP LIVING BY CHANCE.

My landlord is a man of 40years old, he's currently confined to a wheel chair because of a fatal accident he had few months ago

Each time, I hear him groaning and mumbling in pain, he keeps saying "how can a full fleshed man like me be sitting like this all day"

I feel his pain but there's nothing I or anyone could do to help his situation. He has to be there until the day his legs gets better, if ever it will.

He's my landlord and he has other tenants who pays rent to him, he's got shops and factories where people works for him.

Though he's confined to a chair but no day passes without him putting on his gen, he doesn't drink pure water but eva water. His families are not here in Nigeria.

The kids are all schooling abroad. I thought they would all come back home since their Dad is no longer capable of working but I didn't see that happen

They are still there, school fees are still being paid, expenses are still met

How did this happen, maybe the man has a money tree inside his room or possibly he's a Ritualist

Yes I think one snake is vomiting money for him inside his room

I hope you are thinking what I'm thinking �?

Oya clap for yaself.

Now listen
There's no snake or money tree anywhere
The man just lived his youthful days intentionally, he didn't leave his life to chance

He toiled with the days of his youths to acquire the wealth his currently enjoying today. Who knows at what age this man started hustling,

You think you are still too young to start, very soon you will be 30 and just maybe you will no longer have the ability to do it anymore.

If he had been a wantrepreneur maybe by now he would have been in the streets being pushed about by one of his kids and begging for alms

What is that thing you have been willing to do but thinks the time is not right yet, there's no right time anywhere my friend. The right time is this very moment.

The only time you are sure of is this moment
Use it like its your last, make hay while the sun shines

Have it in mind that things changes and you need to prepare for this uncertainties.

#Learn
#Exhibit
#Becomemore

#Zaram #Editor #professionallogomaker #Businesscoach
Christianity EtcRe: Nairaland Chicken Soup by brainhack(op): 4:24pm On Jun 09, 2018
zaramtips:
ANGER DID IT


Anger has killed many souls
It has destroyed many businesses
It has even destroyed many valuable properties
It has destroyed marriages and good relationships
The same anger has also made so many businesses loose potential customers

A lot of people are struggling with this Life threatening Issue. Here me, until you deal with it.. You will keep rotating in a circle


Some people uses the word "Anger is a normal feeling" to justify their anger issue . Yes Anger is more than normal, it is even healthy but you know what? It is a HEALTHY ASSASSINATOR.

Some people be parading claiming CEO, Head of the house, Boss lady and all other title. You think say you be boss, Na lie o. Anger is the real boss here and until you deal with it, it will continue to boss you around


If you don't deal with it now, maybe very soon you will become a victim of those things listed above


There are just to steps to dealing with the spirit of anger

1. heal your old wounds. First of all you need to know that anger is triggered When we are reminded of our old wounds.

For instance: My previous relationship wasn’t a good one at all (Old wound) each time my Fiancé does something that reminds me of my old wounds (Previous relationships) I reacted by getting anger and trying to defend myself from a repetition of what happened to me in my previous relationship. Remember that anger is a “defense mechanism produced by our sub-conscious”


If you can't let the past go, dealing with anger would be a problem

2. work on your self confidence. People gets angry when their self esteem is being tampered with through criticism. Be confident enough to know that criticism isn’t a fact but someone’s opinion.

Do not wait until you fall a victim to those things listed above. it has the power to destroy you but then you need to authorize it first

Let your watch word be "I forgive you for you know not what you are doing"

#Learn
#Exhibit
#Becomepowerful


#Zaram #Editor #Zaramgraphics #socialpsychologist #ihelpyouunderstandyourselfandothers
InvestmentRe: Mutual Funds by brainhack(m): 2:53am On May 21, 2018
mBillz:
Top Mutual Funds in Nigeria this year so far

3rd Best Performing Fund
====================================
Name of Fund – Stanbic IBTC Aggressive Fund
Who are the Fund Managers – Stanbic IBTC Asset Management
Type of Fund – Equity-Based Fund
NAV Increase – 12.6%

2nd Best Performing Fund
====================================
Name of Fund – EDC Fixed Income Fund
Who are the Fund Managers – EDC Fund Management Ltd
Type of Fund – Fixed Income Based Fund
NAV Increase – 12.8%

Best Performing Fund
====================================
Name of Fund – Meristem Equity Market Fund
Who are the Fund Managers – Meristem Wealth Management Ltd
Type of Fund – Equity-Based Fund
NAV Increase – 17.4%



https://nairametrics.com/top-5-mutual-funds-in-nigeria-as-at-march-29-2018/
Christianity EtcRe: Nairaland Chicken Soup by brainhack(op): 8:33am On Mar 30, 2018
WHAT IS THE HARDEST LESSON YOU HAVE LEARNT IN LIFE
Author - Benhur Margoschis (Quora)

Roman and I went to the same Engineering School. He and I were in the same class.

For so many reasons, I envied him. He was richer than me. He had the attention of all the girls. He was smarter. He scored better grades.

He and I never had any personal enmity, but I envied him. Envy begot hatred. I nurtured hatred. I remained a mute hater. Whenever he smiled, it burned me within.

During the second year, he and I happened to work together for the annual day celebrations. During the preparation, there was a misunderstanding between us and I exploited the opportunity.

I stood up, walked toward him and punched him hard in his face. I was a strong man. He did not expect me to hit him. Shocked, he fell to the ground. He did not retaliate. He was trying to get back to normalcy.

He did not read my hatred. He did not feel my air of senseless hostility. He looked at me terrified and puzzled.

During the course of the year, there were a few occasions in which we crossed paths. I made use of every occasion. I did not hit him again, but I kept sending him signs that I hated him.

Gradually, he too started showing signs of resentment toward me. We exchanged stares. We scuffled whenever we got the chance.

During the final year, he and I belonged to different groups to do the project research. We worked on our projects for months together. It was the week of submission and demonstration.

I opened my locker to check my project model. It was tampered with. The day ended. My project was incomplete. I was given an extension.

At this point, the hatred I had toward him turned into a callous rage.

I itched for revenge. He was leaving the campus to go home. I had gathered some of my friends from outside. We thrashed him until he could not move. He passed out.

The issue got escalated instantaneously. The local police got involved. Both families got involved. Influential people got involved.

It ended as a nasty, awkward, and shameful incident for everyone involved.

We both graduated successfully. We went our separate ways.

I kept stalking him.

I kept checking his whereabouts. He went higher in life. He went to Singapore. He got married. A son was born.

I was observing his life closely. He bought a home. He visited the Netherlands once. He bought a Ford Mustang. He was building a great family.

At this point, though my hatred toward him had subsided, I kept stalking him for some reason. I did not hate him anymore. It was just a feeling of mild envy and vague sense of competition—who gets better in life.

Three years ago, he drowned in the sea, while his wife and baby watched from the shore. He was 25.

Pause—

The news reached me —it did not actually reach me— it cleaved my heart into pieces.

When I entered his home for the funeral, his mother stood beside his body. When she saw me, she cupped her mouth, ran toward me, screamed agonizingly, and hugged me.

She sobbed like a child. I did not console her. I just let her hug me.

“Do you see your classmate? You hit him, remember? Do you want to hit him again, Ben? Go ahead. HIT HIM!! HIT HIM” she yelled at the top of her lungs. She slapped me hard. I was scared she might explode to death.

I kept looking at his motionless body. I looked at his wife and his baby. They stood nearby, crying inconsolably. The wife was trying to console her baby. Life had just begun for them. Death had knocked the wrong door.

Under that grieving roof, I observed a massive change within me. When I saw the old mother grieving her sunshine, the hatred I had for him dug deep into me, ripped my heart out, and flew out of me, with a deafening scream.

When I saw the wife standing helplessly, all the envy I had accumulated murdered my conscience.

Deep inside my heart, I retracted all the hatred I had for him. I realized that the hatred was never a reflection of him but my inner demons.

My heart started beating faster. I did not speak, but within me, I was begging God to send my friend back to life so I could seek forgiveness. Just once.

“Please God,” I shrieked in pain. Guilt was consuming me from inside, like a gnawing worm inside a fruit.

The whole family lamented the shocking departure of a young soul. They stood in utter denial and disbelief.

I left the home, burying my trifling hatred, envy, and hostility along with my friend.

I realized how big a mistake I had been making.

There is absolutely no sense in us harboring hatred toward people. We hate people based on faith, race, status, and other things.

We fail to realize that everyone we hate is a human being, struggling to face his personal demons.

Life is way too swift and unpredictable to hate anyone. I swore not to hate anyone anymore. I will protest anything or anyone that makes me hate others.

Even if it is God, I will wrestle him.
Music/RadioRe: What Music Are You Listening To Right Now? by brainhack(m): 9:09pm On Mar 04, 2018

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szg6ADkZsg4

In Thanksgiving and Love

There is joy in my heart, it is flowing like a river.
I will praise the Lord, in thanksgiving and love.
Christianity EtcRe: Nairaland Chicken Soup by brainhack(op): 9:03pm On Mar 04, 2018

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