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Ranchhoddas:
No Job yet. I have missed some interviews because of lack of money, though I am still hoping that the ones I went for turn out right. Not really depressed, more like anxiety disorder though I deal with it by taking deep breaths and reading Bible passages (I know it's caused by lack of money though) .Absolutely not suicidal as I love my life too much and I am an incurable optimist. The only help I'd require would be a good faith loan of 40,000 or less to repay debts incurred while running my project and school clearance and solve some other problems. I'll repay as soon I get a job... I can't believe I just wrote this.

ayobase:
You story is gonna change VERY soon.
Show me a man diligent in his work....

reminiscing:
Last week,on Wednesday I almost committed suicide.Though I have been depressed for weeks now and unfortunately I woke up in the early hours of Thursday morning around past 1am and I was tempted to use a knife on myself but I knew the voice in my head wasn't the voice of God,it was the Devil.I am in 400l and I probably would graduate with a 2,1 but I am scared if failing ,I am scared of what the future holds for me........

AnalyticEngine:
Me, I graduated with 2,1 in chemical engineering and have been roaming the streets for 2yrs now. I have bought rope already, waiting for my frustration to reach its threshold. Alternatively, I can also build a simple equipment that can saturate my 64 cubic metres room with lethal concentration of carbon monoxide in a few hours. I've gat no time to waste on joblessness. I cannot continue to feed on people's hardwork. It aint my principle.

Lotil:
I wish I had the right words for you. Alas, I don't as I have bouts of depression myself. Me, I'm 32, jobless and hopeless, beautiful for nothing. I'm described as intelligent, l know I am..I know we all know our good qualities but that is nonsense when you graduate with a 2.2. There's no day l don't regret my result. The missed opportunities, shame and so on.. 99.9% of Graduate Trainee jobs are reserved for the 2.1s and 1st Class. Yearly, I watch as banks and other multinationals conduct their search for the "Best" of us. Well..if waec result counts for anything, l had distinctions in Economics, Commerce, Biology and Literature in English and 4 Cs. Yet, l went to college to waste my life!

It wasn’t even that l was partying and bed hopping with aristos. Maybe if l did that-just maybe.

You see, I lived a simple life in school. When I think about it, l wonder what the eff I was doing with my time that l failed to save the day. Financial security and independence is the most important to me, yet l did nothing to prepare for that aspect of my future.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not one to live in the past or wallow in self-pity. Just that my sibling who completed Nysc June this year is a constant reminder that I've not moved forward. She's a 2.1 graduate and still has many years ahead of her. I'm 7 years older than she. Her elder sister, my junior, has been married two years now. So I'm like, "what a wasted life".

Sometimes I look at my family and feel sorry for them. I do because it’s just a matter of time before I take my life. The only reason I haven't done it is because of my mum. Every time I see myself at the other side, a mental image of her forms before me. Then I know I can't do it. It'd ruin her. It'd finish her. I can't do that to her.
It's just for my mum. Everything is for my mum. And even though it's for her that I wouldn't take my life, it's still because of her l will eventually do it.

Because I'm her first child and I ought to have been more responsible. To be working and married. I'm 32. See, I'm not even dating. I'm guilty of a lot of things...not making money, can't take care of my family. I'm guilty of eating my mum's food and 'eating from the same plate' with my sisters. At my age? I'm 13 years older than my kid sister who is in 400 level now.
if I’m gone I wouldn’t be around to remind my mum that I failed her or that I’m a disappointment.
I'm not completely hopeless though. I still make effort. I applied for Firs and NRC and I'm not stopping there yet. I read. I wrote a test last week. But none of these can stop the throbbing pain and the only thing that can free me is death.

This isn't a cry for help. I have learnt that nobody helps you but you. And God forbids that I blame the economy. I wouldn't allow myself such weakness. I know I could have done better in school and that Pry and Secondary Education are to equip you with writing and reading skills, only that. B.Sc is the real foundation. Afterall it’s where you get the results employers want. I also know Masters/Professional Certifications are a good support. But you don't get those papers F.O.C.

I'm sorry I'm not one to light a candle for you @poster but you should know l feel somewhat better sharing my own on here.

Seun:
His major problem is depression. All the other things are just symptoms. His life is not as bad as he feels. If it was that bad he would be single.

vivalavida:
Morn bro.
I have duly registered and a form in pdf format has been sent to my mail which i have downloaded,even upgraded my adobe acrobat reader and yet i cant fill the form. They tell me the form has some security settings and this is hampering my ability to fill the form.

Must it be done with a system? Mine is faulty now but i believe my upgraded pdf reader on my phone should be capable of doing so

c767314922:
What engine oil is recommended for Porsche Cayenne? Are there other alternatives?

Tirenioluwa:
I also got an invite on the same date. I'm skeptical about attending too though they have a website. I'm wondering why the interview has to be on Saturday.

HOPE8888:
I have a provisional admission now but I am from Ondo state

kaka22:
I just received aptitude test invite from skye bank. Who is with me

Segunj8:
Ntn much, its just briefing about d bank nd positions. Urs is just to listen nd ask questions.

Samtobh:
hello pals, Please how can i access the portal for a re-pint of the form? Password is forgotten

teechudleyy:
Yes! Yes! My gmail acct is signed in on the phone

teechudleyy:
Someone pls help. My phone was stolen last year and I completely forgot about it. The new owner has refused to clear all data and refused to return it. Rather he keeps disturbing me for my passwords. I have repeatedly told him to delete everything and quit invading my files but he has refused for reasons best known to him. Please how do I deactivate that phone or clear the memory or something. He keeps bugging me and my contacts.

Please please help mee

rolexwealth:
An a graduate of Mathematic...with HSE 1,2.3 and have professional certificate Institute of Strategic Management,Nigeria...please help me out with Job that match my specialization.

Yungbitz:
My playstore does same..it doesn't connect even on wifi..just feed up..it started when my MB was about to finish and I sub for glo 3k plan
Cc Bobo65

kunzo:
seen.

HeartMender7:
I am having issues with my phone. the tecno n9 tab does not charge or power up. I think its a battery problem. I took it to carlcare in Lagos, Kaduna, and Benin and they said the product is out of stock and can't be repaired...
please what's the way forward

mfaith:
noted