A few months ago, I spent an afternoon helping out an art dealer friend at a print fair.At a table in front of his display, I sat on one side of him while his assistant sat on the other; we greeted prospective buyers as theywalked by. “Hi there!” I would say with warmth and (what I thought was) a touch of modest charm when I saw one coming. Time and again, from the men, I got a limp, dismissive “hi” in response, occasionally a nod. It wasn’t the Whistlers or the Chagalls that were diverting the art lovers’ attention; itwas my friend’s lovely assistant. She wasn’t flashy or glamorous; but she had a smooth, milky, 20-something complexion and the sweet, expectant, wide-eyed look of youth. Thirty years ago, I might have been her.
Today, however, I’m 58 and I look it, by whichI mean that I haven’t had any work done to make me appear younger. I’m trying to get down with the aging thing, to accept it—at least till I’ve decided that I can’t. Almost every morning I discover some other small reminder that I am growing older: an age spot, another wrinkle or wisp of gray in my (thinning) brows.
If you’re going through this, you already know that watching your face mature is not the most gratifying spectator sport—becauseno matter how constantly or enthusiastically you root for the home team, eventually age will win the game. Which is a good way to think about it, because the bottom line is thatthe process of aging involves a certain amount of loss. And what I discovered at thatart fair is that if you have benefited from the currency of your looks, when that currency loses its value, you can end up feeling pretty bankrupt. Entering a room of mixed company—a meeting, a party—or walking down a crowded street, I’ve learned to expect that I’ll attract a little attention. I don’t mean that people stop in their tracks, open-mouthed, and stare (as they have when I’ve walked down the street with my 6 2, striking young niece), but I’ve been banking on appreciative glances for a long time. They make me feel pretty, which makes me feel happy. Not in theway, certainly, that motherhood has made mehappy, or my work, but there is a small feeling of satisfaction attached to receiving these looks; it’s as if, at least on the face of it, I know how to do this female thing well.

So I guess it shouldn’t have been shocking to me how difficult it was to be distinctly ignored. I hadn’t been aware that the glancesI’d been accustomed to had been falling off. That afternoon, I felt as if I had been strippedof all color and was the only gray-and-white figure in a richly tinted painting. I was MarionKerby, one of the ghosts in Topper , all dressed up and nowhere to…be seen.
Becoming invisible is disconcerting enough. But I am beginning to feel obsolete differently, too, maybe more profoundly. I’m almost embarrassed to admit how much I stillmiss the fundamental, quotidian tug of a child’s needs, the grounding responsibilities of parenthood. When I was actively child-rearing, my life had a purposefulness I grieve to this day. My son, at 25, now lives away from my home and is stunningly, happily independent. Which is exactly what I’d alwaysaimed for in raising him, so I am deeply grateful. I just didn’t know that along with a joyful sense of accomplishment, I would feel, in some persistent, incontrovertible way, useless. Not pandemically useless; I work, I’m productive in the ways one has to be in orderto fall into the category of functioning adult, but the comforting sense of knowing my purpose from the moment I open my eyes in the morning has been replaced with a kind of disquiet. I have, if I’m lucky, a third of my life left. How am I going to spend it so that I feel the fulfillment I felt in the previous third? What can I do that matters?
And here is where the issues of being ignored and feeling obsolete converge. The art fair men—unconsciously, surely—disregarded me in part because I’m no longer fertile, unable to provide them with proof that they are still capable of reproducing. The emotional impact of having it so ungraciously pointed out that I have outlived my reproductive value was like having a bucket of cold water thrown at my face—or, rather, a cold grave opened before me. Because that means, in a Darwinian sense at least, I’m over.
Gentlemen, I feel your pain.
The thing is, though my production line has shut down, the factory is still very much open.And I believe there is more work to be done before it closes for good.
The psychologist Erik Erikson suggests that there are many ways to express what he calls“generativity”—the need to produce something that contributes to the bettermentof society, which not only helps others but makes us feel more content as we get older. That will be my focus as I march, largely invisible, into my future.
I can tell you this: Even if you don’t see me, you will know that I am here.
http://coolpenny./2013/06/12/what-it-feels-like-to-stop-getting-noticed/

This should hit front page.

This should be moved to the back page

Ok, even if u succeeded in making urself look younger at 60yrs, let's see u a 70!

See? it's useless trying to fight it. You have used ur time, accept it's others' turn. U an enjoy ur moment, u av less time left.

If you want to feel better, carry your daughter along. She would bring the attention that you want