Once upon a time I was a committed good guy , I never cheated on any girl I was in a relationship with . However about a year ago I did cheat . After then I lost both of them . I wasn't caught , just somehow lost em both .

Last year for the first time in my life , I had different relations with 3 women at the same time . Only one of them knew of the existence of the other two.

I absolutely felt like shit after then because I know better .

These days I ask myself what I need in a woman ? My first and foremost criteria was music , especially rap music . However all the girls I have been with or encountered that listen to same type of music as me ( e.g WU tang clan ) have turned out to be negative outcomes .

As I grow older I ask that I want someone who is better than me in every sense of the word . e.g . maths , money , wisdom etc .

My issue is this : do we really know what we want in relationships ?

Because you can find the characteristics you want in a person ,but then there's a whole lot of bullshit that comes with it , be it his or her family , personal goals , religion , indiosyncracies .