LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

yo boss
I know exactly what your going through because im going through same| please disregard irrelevant comments from shallow minded individuals. ...
Well, i manage by problems by using anti-anxiety meds n all...i do smoke weed alot tho
Im not suggesting you do same, buh thats jus how i manage mine
And also you need a lover...i mean a girl whos real n truly cares about you. ...love depletes depression
Buh boss...steady grind...
Na money naim kill depression pass
Trust me when i say i completely understand how you feel...

You are self diagnosing. Don't mind the people saying you need a girl. You don't right now till you have some control over your life. Otherwise you will risk ridicule and a girl dumping you which will hurt badly. You also need to find out what started the depression, face and overcome that demon. I think all you have is OCD and Depression... the depression is making you think you have other things because it has gone untreated for so long. You can overcome depression. As for the OCD, You may have to take time to practice getting out of it with a psychiatric specialist. Life is not perfect, we are not all the same. Just always remember to give yourself a break and laugh at your flaws. We are all flawed one way or the other.

Bro my name is Christian unegbu and I have been in almost exactly the same shoes as you,I have been taking to different pastors and churches for deliverances but to no avail,at a time I wanted to attempt suicide but thank God I didn't,God lead me to the Lagos State university teaching hospital in Ikeja were am currently admitted as a per time patient at behavioural disorder unit ,on my first visit to the clinic I was shocked to see I was the only one going through chronic depression,anxiety disorders,mood disorders and a whole lot of other symptoms as even men in suits and tie are amongst us.I have currently been placed on drugs that is helping me live a normal life thanks to God. I would advise you to come to the hospital as there you would surely get a cure for your ailment.or calle if you need more assistance 08123162871..goodluck

Two things

Start writing. Write and write and write.

Get professional help ASAP.

introvertme:


Are you saying Africans no fi get wetin d guy list there?

Or na only oyibo de get am?

all of them? na only him waka come?

he has self diagnosed himself from when he was five years of age? how?

someone is saying he thinks hes autistic [autism requires medical diagnosis, and is characterized by impaired communication and social skills]

then that he has an ever present "inner ocd voice" - do you know what OCD is? obssessive compulsive disorder. like a person going downstairs 20 times to check if he has locked the door.

then he says he's bipolar
that means hes manic depressive. sometimes he's high , sometimes he's slow
then he claims chronic depression which means hes always low

he claims he's suicidal but is afraid it will be painful [when there are sleeping pills that can be bought from any roadside chemist]
he says he has ADHD [A chronic condition including attention difficulty, hyperactivity and impulsiveness]

breaking it down like this, it is clear this is just another ediat troll

a quick google search for psychiatrists in PH

https://www.vconnect.com/rivers-port_harcourt/list-of-psychiatry-vendors-search_s49214
http://www.medpages.info/sf/index.php?page=person&personcode=252771&keywords=&keywords=Psychiatrist,Nigeria,Rivers,Port-harcourt
https://www.linkedin.com/in/obo-awaa-3780a325/
https://medpages.info/sf/index.php?page=person&personcode=254162

how hard is that? what was the op expecting to find on nairaland, in its present condition? if this was nairaland of five years ago, he would have met more people who would have shut him down immediately.

Bro ...know you are not alone . Secondly know you are one of the few gifts to the world ...I am similar to what you have described yourself but I don't ever see it as a form of mental disorder...instead I rather see it as an advancement in evolution ....I can undoubtedly say without meeting you that you have a very creative mind also you can or have serious interest in drawing painting music or making films or animation ...if I am right look at it like this, some people are born with big dicks while others small warn like dicks...now those with big dicks have an advantage but if they don't know how to use it and grow up among worm dicked freinds who make fun of his big dick, he might just kill himself ......to put this in perspective ...you have a mind that is like a V12 engine crammed into a 96 corrola. ...it makes you feel odd but ... embrace your uniqueness and watch you Glo...since your mind takes you to fantasy world's then find a way to write a video game or something ...it will be freaking dope . I myself am a film maker , a 3d animator and also a tutor living a comfortable life with a wife and two kids ...who are geniuses too so my brother ... evolution happens constantly nor go think say nah kolo you dey kolo.

try as much as possible to avoid thinking.
do hard labour like going out for building job at site (not because of money though)

Have you seen a psychotherapist?

Hades2016:
God will help you ....

Is that all u can say? God will come down to cure the person's ailment abi? That how the Sheeples are being deceived.

Hit the gym bro, it's the best therapy for depression and the other sicknesses you listed

Get a girlfriend and have sex regularly you ll forget about every fantasy above all believe in God

Does anybody know where i can get adderall in Nigeria please?

What of I and you and all our psycho kinds are the sane and stable humans...?... I mean we might be the only sane living kinds in the midst of all these insane humans.... YES THAT IS HOW I SEE IT... stupid humans evolved faster cos they are voilent

oyb:


your only disease is mental hypochondria with a dose of attention seeking

go and face your books and stop making up fancy excuses for your academic failures.

this is not your village where you can wow illiterates with big words

OK, I self diagnosed because the symptoms i experience matches the disorders i listed out... but I'm not an attention seeker... Seriously, gaining attention scares me... Also, i'm not making excuses for my academic failures... during a semester, I always try to force myself to read but my mind never seems to focus and I feel no motivation... it's only when I see the exam timetable then i feel motivated a bit... but even by that period I still can't focus... still, i have never had a carry over until my final year when my symptoms worsened... i wish i could face my books without these problems...

Abeg , go away ! That’s how they will be misleading people with religion ! Religion has its place medicine has its place - have you ever taken your car to your pastor to fix carburetor with prayer ? Abegi shift one side .

Damilare6293:
Jesus can fix all these things......i am a testimony. all things are possible to anyone who believes....

Inbox me anyway. There’s a lot more I can do for you than you’ll get on an open Nigerian forum.

Im a psychiatric Nurse. I can help you. You can call me on this number 08161171107

Chat me up on whatsapp let's talk bro 08104884177

I spoke few days ago about life issues, we have a several other issues in our society. Let us have a chat 08076750300 WhatsApp

He needs a trained therapist! God gave people brains to train as therapists so they can heal others ! God would not have bothered if he wanted to be healing people directly .

DianaJ:
Nawa ooo bros Satan carry sit,sit well for ur life its only God that can help u,accept him as ur lord and personal saviour he will do all things he will break all breakables in your life,u will be made new like a new born seriously take my advise and make d devil a lair

Probz:
You can’t have depression and bipolar disorder at the same time because one’s part of the other.

Are these self-diagnosed?

All his mental issues seem self diagnosed. He even said he is 'autistic'

oyb:


all of them? na only him waka come?

he has self diagnosed himself from when he was five years of age? how?

someone is saying he thinks hes autistic [autism requires medical diagnosis, and is characterized by impaired communication and social skills]

then that he has an ever present "inner ocd voice" - do you know what OCD is? obssessive compulsive disorder. like a person going downstairs 20 times to check if he has locked the door.

then he says he's bipolar
that means hes manic depressive. sometimes he's high , sometimes he's slow
then he claims chronic depression which means hes always low

he claims he's suicidal but is afraid it will be painful [when there are sleeping pills that can be bought from any roadside chemist]
he says he has ADHD [A chronic condition including attention difficulty, hyperactivity and impulsiveness]

breaking it down like this, it is clear this is just another ediat troll

a quick google search for psychiatrists in PH

https://www.vconnect.com/rivers-port_harcourt/list-of-psychiatry-vendors-search_s49214
http://www.medpages.info/sf/index.php?page=person&personcode=252771&keywords=&keywords=Psychiatrist,Nigeria,Rivers,Port-harcourt
https://www.linkedin.com/in/obo-awaa-3780a325/
https://medpages.info/sf/index.php?page=person&personcode=254162

how hard is that? what was the op expecting to find on nairaland, in its present condition? if this was nairaland of five years ago, he would have met more people who would have shut him down immediately.

You really don't have to comment especially if you have nothing to say. He tried to put those experiences in words but those feelings far outweigh the words. If you've not experienced such you can't really understand what it's like.

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

I am working on something related to OCD. You seem to also have Tourrette syndrome.....right. Will like to talk to you.....your help is nigh

Like someone rightly asked, are all these self diagnosed (ofcourse with the almighty Google)? I see all these people talking about socialising, getting a babe & all, no doubt good suggestions but please sir, what you need is to do is to see a qualified Psychiatrist preferrably in a Psychiatry hospital (they have a holistic way of patient management). If you are in Southwestern Nigeria, there's one in Yaba, Lagos & Neuropsychiatry Hospital Aro, Abeokuta, Ogun state. I think there is one in the East (Enugu or Anambra, not really sure). Also, some Teaching Hospitals have Psychiatry Departments you could visit.
Meanwhile, forget all the rubbish people say about Nigeria not having proper facilities for Mental Health issues, maybe we dont but even the afflicted people dont use the few we have because of 'stigma' (which i understand maybe cos of our society) but do not hesitate to seek proper care from the right people (Doctors! Not religious leaders & herbalist). God be with you.

sistaj:

This is a very terrible and insensitive to say to a person who is suffering.you are pathetic and a sorry excuse for a human being. I pray you find peace and love which you clearly lack.you should have been taught that if you have nothing good to say to someone then say nothing.Also strive to get better educated on issues.It is the only way to save your dark soul. God help you.

Somebody just said this about me yesternight and on Nairaland. I do not care about your opinion!
"Thank you....you 're the real MVP"

nigeriancritic1:
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LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

Honestly I think I can relate with you. I never knew the name of the disorder, but I can tell you I have felt the same way you feel. The only this I used to explain to my parents is, "I can't just feel myself, I feel I am not real, alive or sort".

But recently I started reading a book called Destined to Reign by Joseph Prince and honestly I am getting over alot of evil thoughts within me. I know you said you don't believe in Christianity any longer but I want you to give this book a try. If you need the soft copy I can email it to you.

God still cares man. Never loose hope.

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

call dz no 08033303932. im sure hes gonna help u out. hes one of dose doing a big movement to help those with mental depression. Goodluck

queenfav:
So you diagnosed yourself of all this? Nice one!

I self diagnosed... so it's probably inaccurate...

victorazyvictor:

All these only you, you be Satan?

You, you be satan papa... Insensitive animals littered every where!!

jerryunit48:
Eya

Guy abeg no yab me but did Mugabe really state this ?

ihustler:
Op, I will like to ask you what thing you actually enjoy doing very much.

Have you identified it/them?

Music most espicailly... (Alternative, old and unpopular music mostly)... Gaming (i don't have a gaming rig but i enjoy the ones i play on my laptop)...