"God of mercy and compassion, look with pity upon me........."

i'm currently singing some sorrowful songs usually used during the station of the cross [to evoke mercy]. I lost my joy about 3 years ago. Looking at the current situation of things, it seems all hope is lost.

I have some rhetorical questions to ask...........

I used to be healthy and strong. Energetic and full of life. But now, my life is no longer in my hands. I suffer relapses every now and then. I can't work effectively because i'm paralysed by a tough illness. Everyday is a battle to hold on. I wish i can afford proper treatment. Constant headache, nausea, throat discomfort, loss of balance, difficulty excreting, chest pain etc. How do i smile again when life is suffocating me?

Sorry.............

Be strong bro.. Better days are coming

EmergencyCase:
I used to be healthy and strong. Energetic and full of life. But now, my life is no longer in my hands. I suffer relapses every now and then. I can't work effectively because i'm paralysed by a tough illness. Everyday is a battle to hold on. Constant headache, nausea, throat discomfort, loss of balance, difficulty excreting, chest pain etc. How do i smile again when life is suffocating me?

AIDS?

To think my intuition and brilliance will be in vain. I had everything working in my favour until now. I was always amongst the top 2 best right from primary school. At the university, i distinguished myself with my contributions. I remember one time after a 4-unit course, our law lecturer came into the class and asked: "who's tunde balogun [pseudonym]?" I got up to answer my name. "your write up was brilliant. Only you got an A" she added.

I felt honoured. The whole class clapped for me. Other lecturers took note of me. Now, all that was of no use. i didn't graduate. Hmmm.... I could bet i would have been the best. Health and finance issues held me back.

It really hurts that over four years invested in the higher institution accounted for nothing. I envy those with even 3rd class now [at least they finished].

How do you expect me to feel? Happy? Surely, no!

Tears-inducing story..it's well

with prayers all things are possible

Only you

My unfortunate state coincided with the period when my parents are not doing well financially. I got back home 2 years ago to find out that mumsi had packed out of a 3-bedroom flat to a self-contain. She retired with her source of income dried up. Dad is no where to be found, probably due to insolvency. Healthy meals are a rarity now. Mainly potato with palm oil.

Hmm... I missed the good old days we ate rice and chicken often at will. Mama doesn't even know i'm really sick. She feels i'm a brat who just likes lying down without doing enough chores.

Is it not proper the way i'm keeping things secret in order not to make her sad like me?

Bro, calm down, get yourself together and hustle. No be you go first get problem

Actually this is not the first time i am seeing your topic, and others are just of the same prints.

So much Sadness in your heart, guess you choose to find solace here.


You will be ok.

you aint the first and wont be the last to have such problems. I can tell you to be more prayerful, positive, quit negative habits and so on but all these posts you have must be filled with them already. So it is left for you to decide what you gonna use your 2 hands, legs, eyes, brain, heart and your life for...The fact remains so many people have used a lot less to achieve great things.

No.

ZoeyJ:
Sorry.............

k. Thanks for sharing in my story

Donwizbro:
Be strong bro.. Better days are coming

hopefully....

Obinnau:
AIDS?

i can't really tell but my problems started with my throat

IFEOLUWAKRIZ:
Tears-inducing story..it's well

amen. I have to believe so.

Saff

You again? Attention seeker.

N0favors:
Saff

heyy

Saff:
heyy

just showing you another of your friend's thread lol

N0favors:
just showing you another of your friend's thread lol

I’ve completely lost hope for the man lol. There’s no hope

EmergencyCase:
To think my intuition and brilliance will be in vain. I had everything working in my favour until now. I was always amongst the top 2 best right from primary school. At the university, i distinguished myself with my contributions. I remember one time after a 4-unit course, our law lecturer came into the class and asked: "who's tunde balogun [pseudonym]?" I got up to answer my name. "your write up was brilliant. Only you got an A" she added.

I felt honoured. The whole class clapped for me. Other lecturers took note of me. Now, all that was of no use. i didn't graduate. Hmmm.... I could bet i would have been the best. Health and finance issues held me back.

It really hurts that over four years invested in the higher institution accounted for nothing. I envy those with even 3rd class now [at least they finished].

How do you expect me to feel? Happy? Surely, no!

My brother about 60% of Nigerians can relate to your problem at one point or the other... It's because of this kind of situation that made me to see this world as a playing ground...I don't take life much serious because in which ever situation one must die either gruesomely or jejely... This life can be funny, my mentality in my university days is quiet different from my present mentalities... Life tought me different things entirely from what i used to beleive when I was conveniently under my parent... I used to think life is an easy going journey but reverse is obviously the case... OMO I have seen the rich that used to oppress us as poor that we were but now a pitiable poor person. This man doesn't greet anyone in the street back then because every one else in the community was poor. But now, Life has tought him the virtues in humility. He is now as humble as anything. What we are saying is that which ever progressive situation we find ourselves is a function of privilege... I am saying all these to let you know that you are not the only one in this kind of situation, there are many outside in worst situation even than yours. My brother, don't put unnecessary pressure on your self, don't ever think you ought to have been this you ought to have been that, don't compare your self to anyone else, the more you do all these the more u get your self hurt... Forget taking life much serious, do things with your best ability as it comes your way, create a close contact with your God and always be positively hopeful for better days... Having done all these, my brother you have done your best... maybe when you get to heaven you can now have a clear understanding of why you were not among the previledged... God will surely see you through...ameeen

Fesomu:
Bro, calm down, get yourself together and hustle. No be you go first get problem

hmmm... You didn't read through the lines

wyqay:
with prayers all things are possible

i wish. that's why i went to church today after a long time. I long for answers

EmergencyCase:
i wish. that's why i went to church today after a long time. I long for answers

Can you come to UCTH for checks?

Nasri100:
Only you

yea. Some are even worse off in the ghetto where i live

TIDDOLL:
Actually this is not the first time i am seeing your topic, and others are just of the same prints.

So much Sadness in your heart, guess you choose to find solace here.


You will be ok.

thanks for understanding. Many people don't know writing here helps me tackle depression

mars123:
you aint the first and wont be the last to have such problems. I can tell you to be more prayerful, positive, quit negative habits and so on but all these posts you have must be filled with them already. So it is left for you to decide what you gonna use your 2 hands, legs, eyes, brain, heart and your life for...The fact remains so many people have used a lot less to achieve great things.

my threads are cathartic

tayooluwole:


My brother about 60% of Nigerians can relate to your problem at one point or the other... It's because of this kind of situation that made me to see this world as a playing ground...I don't take life much serious because in which ever situation one must die either gruesomely or jejely... This life can be funny, my mentality in my university days is quiet different from my present mentalities... Life tought me different things entirely from what i used to beleive when I was conveniently under my parent... I used to think life is an easy going journey but reverse is obviously the case... OMO I have seen the rich that used to oppress us as poor that we were but now a pitiable poor person. This man doesn't greet anyone in the street back then because every one else in the community was poor. But now, Life has tought him the virtues in humility. He is now as humble as anything. What we are saying is that which ever progressive situation we find ourselves is a function of privilege... I am saying all these to let you know that you are not the only one in this kind of situation, there are many outside in worst situation even than yours. My brother, don't put unnecessary pressure on your self, don't ever think you ought to have been this you ought to have been that, don't compare your self to anyone else, the more you do all these the more u get your self hurt... Forget taking life much serious, do things with your best ability as it comes your way, create a close contact with your God and always be positively hopeful for better days... Having done all these, my brother you have done your best... maybe when you get to heaven you can now have a clear understanding of why you were not among the previledged... God will surely see you through...ameeen

hmm... Inspirational. Life's a teacher. I would have pulled through if it's just brokeness i'm experiencing. Sickness alongside is making my life more miserable

androidroot:
Can you come to The UCTH for checks?

free?