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Health / Re: I Might Have A Personality Disorder. I Don't Know What To Do. by Chiefqueenn(f): 12:17pm On Aug 05, 2019 |
Tradernaija:Do you want to help me? |
Health / I Might Have A Personality Disorder. I Don't Know What To Do. by Chiefqueenn(f): 7:12am On Aug 05, 2019 |
I'm a very antisocial person. I literally avoid talking to people because I don't like talking. In fact, I can only can express myself properly in writing. But I found out that when I meet people I like, I find myself trying to please them. I get to know them, understand their personality and find out what their likes and dislikes are and try to become the type of person that they can trust. I force my self to be 'flawless' for other people. Its like a hobby, or a mission. I can't help it . The problem is, I found out that they tend to get attached to me and I hate when that happens because I get tired of people real quick. Keep making yourself too available and I start getting irritated. I become cold, short tempered and sometimes I can be mean because I don't what you around anymore. When people get real close to me, they start to seem...pathetic (I'm sorry) to me. Its really affecting my relationship with people. About three years ago when I was seventeen ( I was in secondary school), I had this 'friend'. She was soft hearted and kind of fragile and didn't have many friends. I befriended her and for some time we were cool. Later I didn't want to hang out with her anymore because... Well, she always wanted to hang out with me. She confronted me when I stopped talking to her as usual, she was apologising( for nothing in particular) because she thought she had hurt me, her eyes were teary. I was sad but I was angry at the same time because I couldn't get why a human being would be so dependent on another human bein. She was too weak to me. I wanted to say I was sorry, that I was wrong for the way I treated her but I dead ass looked this girl in the eye and walked away. I felt bad but I hoped she would stay away. That was when I first realized I had a problem because a part of me hated me, another part of me hated her. It was like a crisis in my head. I wanted to stay friends but I wished she was tougher Fast forward to three years later. I'm in the university now and I have new friends but I still like to isolate myself because I get bored of them and I don't want to be around them sometimes. Those nasty things we say to each other start sounding disgusting to me. Its so bad I'm not able to say "I love you", or " I miss you" when they said it to me. My new roommate is also a very picky person but I got to know her and now she's real close to me( perhaps too close). I'm already worn out. The other day she noticed a change in my attitude and she asked me if I was angry. I snapped and yelled ; " you keep calling me and its annoying!" She only wanted to talk. I was so embarrassed at my self. Its worse with men. I never take guys who approach me or text me first seriously. I tend to be more attracted to people who give me little or no attention because I feel they are 'stronger' or 'tougher' emotionally and I won't take advantage of them (easily). If these people eventually soften up, or fall for me, I'm out. I can't remember a time when I wasn't like this. When I was younger my mum used to scold me a lot because people kept complaining to her that I dont socialize. Most times I just hate being around people and if I am, I try to maintain a low profile but I get the most attention because everyone wants to know why that mysterious girls leaves her friends to sit at the back and never talks to anyone. It's not just people, its everything in general. I'm a 200l student. The other day I was telling a colleague that I was bored of life, that I wouldn't want to work in a hospital in the future. She asked me what I would do if I dropped out. I told her I didn't want to have a job because "I don't know if I can wake up to do the same thing everyday". Everything bores me eventually. I feel like a narcissist. I'm also very straightforward. I tell people how I feel about them even though it hurts them because I've always believed that my feelings come first ( I'm not sure if that's a good thing anymore). I've tried talking to people, nobody seems to understand. Im tired of breaking good relationships simply because I lose interest in people. I feel like I have different personalities and I become a different person each time one of them dominates. |
Religion / Re: The Traitors Of Christianity by Chiefqueenn(f): 9:14am On Aug 04, 2019 |
Did God tell you all this through WhatsApp? 3 Likes |
Romance / Re: Does Being Muscular Really Attract Ladies To A Man? by Chiefqueenn(f): 11:37pm On Aug 03, 2019 |
Ewwwwwwwwwww |
Celebrities / Re: Tekno Responsible For Conveying Unclad Girls In A Transparent Truck In Lekki by Chiefqueenn(f): 11:30pm On Aug 03, 2019 |
That kain music video for road. Kids could be on that road too 33 Likes 2 Shares |
Celebrities / Re: Kanye West Is Now A Born–Again Christian - Nicki Minaj by Chiefqueenn(f): 7:32pm On Aug 01, 2019 |
I watched a service kanye put together with this amazing choir and many celebrities like Sia. It was awesome. Its on YouTube. 5 Likes |
Celebrities / Re: Kanye West Is Now A Born–Again Christian - Nicki Minaj by Chiefqueenn(f): 7:30pm On Aug 01, 2019 |
simonlee:Why don't you worry about your self first. You think you're better? Hell to the no. Typical Naija 'Christian' |
Crime / Re: Man Commits Suicide In Front Of A Trailer In Ibadan by Chiefqueenn(f): 11:33pm On Jul 30, 2019 |
adecz:Won't waste my time exchanging words with a man. You're under me. |
Celebrities / Re: Teni Shares Cute Throwback Photo by Chiefqueenn(f): 11:09pm On Jul 30, 2019 |
tfash96:I didn't say being fat is good. I'm correcting your statement. Its not how 'normal ladies' should look, rather its how 'healthy people' ( men included) should look. Fat people are normal too. You're welcome. |
Crime / Re: Man Commits Suicide In Front Of A Trailer In Ibadan by Chiefqueenn(f): 11:01pm On Jul 30, 2019 |
adecz:You're such a fool. If you didn't know what to say, maybe you shouldn't have come back at all. Bastard. |
Celebrities / Re: Teni Shares Cute Throwback Photo by Chiefqueenn(f): 10:52pm On Jul 30, 2019 |
tfash96:You mean: "this is how *healthy ladies and men* should look..." 2 Likes |
Celebrities / Re: Oboy Siki: I Have Slept With 2500 Ladies by Chiefqueenn(f): 10:16pm On Jul 30, 2019 |
Praktikals:And your point is? |
Celebrities / Re: Oboy Siki: I Have Slept With 2500 Ladies by Chiefqueenn(f): 10:15pm On Jul 30, 2019 |
Cioccolata:One man sleeps with 2500 girls, girls are cheap One girl sleeps with 2500 men, girls are cheap. You're a sexist clout chasing. 1 Like |
Crime / Re: Man Commits Suicide In Front Of A Trailer In Ibadan by Chiefqueenn(f): 9:57pm On Jul 30, 2019 |
adecz:Its your mum who is a nitwit. Monkey. |
Celebrities / Re: Timi Dakolo And Wife, Busola Working Out Together At The Gym (Photos) by Chiefqueenn(f): 4:00pm On Jul 29, 2019 |
Cover your nipples |
Crime / Re: Man Commits Suicide In Front Of A Trailer In Ibadan by Chiefqueenn(f): 2:07pm On Jul 29, 2019 |
adecz:Hanging himself would have been a better option, huh? Smh |
Crime / Re: Man Commits Suicide In Front Of A Trailer In Ibadan by Chiefqueenn(f): 2:04pm On Jul 29, 2019 |
qualityGod:Gosh you're evil. I don't know how some of you can just pick up your phones and write rubbish for clout. God forbid. |
Family / Re: Is It Okay For My Mum To Send Money And Food To My Married Sister ?? by Chiefqueenn(f): 12:17pm On Jul 29, 2019 |
Techfave:For me its not wrong as long as the man is not pretending to be financially unstable. After all, she would do the same thing for your mum. But the man should also try to get assistance from his own family. 3 Likes |
Health / Re: Lady Delivers Conjoined Twins In Benue(photos) by Chiefqueenn(f): 6:35pm On Jul 28, 2019 |
Pastor's reaction though. Lol |
Food / Re: NAFDAC Warns Nigerians On Consumption Of Animal Hides And Skin (ponmo) As Food by Chiefqueenn(f): 2:05pm On Jul 28, 2019 |
Rubicon67:I think he meant that a large number of Nigerians that love to eat ponmo will not like the news, not like he meant to insult. |
Crime / Re: Woman Attacks A Man Who Sexually Harassed Her Inside A Bus by Chiefqueenn(f): 1:17am On Jul 28, 2019 |
Jabioro:Very immature and irritating. You say you're a father? 1 Like |
Education / Re: WAEC Result: Meaning Of Held, Witheld, Outstanding And Others by Chiefqueenn(f): 4:59pm On Jul 27, 2019 |
dotunbidemi:Hmm. Are they paying you people? |
TV/Movies / Re: BBNaija: Twitter Users Slam Tacha For "Having Beauty Without Brains" by Chiefqueenn(f): 2:41pm On Jul 27, 2019 |
Joshmodest:Its the same with boys, bro. |
Celebrities / Re: Dj Cuppy Steps Out In Gorgeous Owambe Outfit by Chiefqueenn(f): 6:11pm On Jul 26, 2019 |
Looking at this picture you'd see that iPhone is better than Samsung. Fine girl. 1 Like |
Romance / Re: My Ex- Girlfriend Harbours Bitterness Towards Me. by Chiefqueenn(f): 1:05am On Jul 25, 2019 |
Charleys:What's doing you? 3 Likes |
Celebrities / Re: Burna Boy's Performance On Jimmy Kimmel Late Night Show (Photos) by Chiefqueenn(f): 12:44pm On Jul 24, 2019 |
Nbote:YESSSS |
Crime / Re: I’ve Just Opened Yahoo Mail To Be A Yahoo Boy Like You – Man Tells Blogger by Chiefqueenn(f): 12:36pm On Jul 24, 2019 |
Whatsittoyah:Use chrome na |
Crime / Re: 43-Year-Old Widower Impregnates His 13-Year-Old Daughter by Chiefqueenn(f): 6:27pm On Jul 22, 2019 |
Take him to a police station |
Romance / Re: Top 5 Rare Values Most Nigerian Guys Are Gradually Losing by Chiefqueenn(f): 6:05pm On Jul 22, 2019 |
CosmicPhoenix:Keep your fvck 18 Likes 1 Share |
Romance / Re: South African Man Heartbroken As His Girlfriend Gets Married To Another Man by Chiefqueenn(f): 7:46am On Jul 22, 2019 |
People don't get that it was a joke 2 Likes 1 Share |
Romance / Re: South African Man Heartbroken As His Girlfriend Gets Married To Another Man by Chiefqueenn(f): 7:45am On Jul 22, 2019 |
fasho01:It was a joke. |
Romance / Re: South African Man Heartbroken As His Girlfriend Gets Married To Another Man by Chiefqueenn(f): 7:44am On Jul 22, 2019 |
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