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Day 6 - clean

Day 5 - clean

God works in miraculous ways for his children. I was billed to remit 3k today to customers. I had nothing on me and they had already approached the office

Luckily, persons came who wanted a new account and brought the total I needed. I was able to rob Peter to pay Paul. Hopefully I continue like that (swapping funds) till pay day, and clear it all

Day 4 - 11/5/22

Clean

Trying to use not more than 350 (at most) a day for food. At times, overspending and using people's money, puts me in a precarious situation where I get to gamble.

ROUTINE

- Trek to work
Morning food - small bread and akara (150) free water from water dispenser

Evening food - small beans and garri (150) fetch a can of water home (from water dispenser) to soak garri

Day 3 - 10/5/22


Clean

Day 2 - clean

To show how bad I need this change, there was a heavy downfall. People took shade at the big bet9ja shop nearby. I didn't want to take chances. I stood far off where the rain got to me.

On day one (Sunday 8/5/22), I trekked down to a Mallam's shop to charge my phone (50 naira). I had to forego the comfort of sitting in a betshop to charge my phone and watch football matches.

UgoEvans:
My brother nah fasting and prayer go fit help you..All this one you dey do nah bobo
Go and cry to God

hmm ok. Do you have a strong man of God you recommend?

True

UgoEvans:
You can also try leaving Nigeria and start life in a nearby country...even if it's just for few years where you won't see bet shops...

Wow. Can you help out with this new life/fresh start?

Blablamalala:

. I tremble at every footstep that passes the compound. Please borrow me 17k to pay back 20k. So I settle my debt. You can do JuJu sef in case I don't pay back. My pay comes 24th of every month

I have been able to escape through the back door, pretending as if I want to urinate. It's only a matter of time before they come to my house. Some of the gamblers there are from my street

Bluezy13:
Whenever I see a thread with ChildOfDoom attached to it, it amuse me.

I don't know why

please don't give up on me. They have refused to take my excuse this time. Please proffer solution for me. I might end up losing my phone today

Karleb:
What you need is therapy.

Hmm. What have I not tried. Pastor has prayed for me. I need a companion I think. Being narcissistic or in solitude is not helping matters. Please which therapy? My type shouldn't be working or made to see money. Gradually running out of excuses. There's no one available to beg for financial help again. Almost every one is fed up. Jail is imminent

FalseProphet1:
What you need is spiritual cleansing, without spiritual cleansing I see you going back to your vomit (betting and masturbation) regardless of how many days you try to abstain.

You'd find yourself struggling with the wind.

This I have seen.

please I am interested. Where is the Venue for the cleansing? I lost again. Currently held down as I try to use my influence as a banker (showing my id card) to find a way out. I played 17k credit. I am begging and lieing I earn 120k monthly. Promising to pay back by month end with interest. My pay is just 45k and my accumulated debt should be large by now

Please save me

Day one - clean

I will update the house daily on my progress. God helping me and your support guys, I can win this 'war'.

Trying not to be desperate, being able to let go of past losses, avoiding those who gamble and trying not to use people's money that puts me in a difficult situation of betting 'to recover' are things to avoid

Fellow gamblers can join me on this. Together we can. It's now or never. It shouldn't be a case of 'till death do us path'

So I observed it's 239 days to the end of the year. About seven and half months left. I will try fervently to abstain from bet9ja (at all lost). Every other addiction is trivial and hasn't done me much harm.

Though I will suffer in the process. Time to avoid entering a bet shop for any reason. My phone always charged will be affected. Watching free football matches will be affected. The few friends I have in the betshop in this new place will be affected.

I guess I will spend most of my time sleeping, reading and getting to know my neighbours. It could be worse if I don't stop. Knowing that getting jailed with no way out (claustrophobic), stripped and made to sleep on a cold floor and sodomised in the process is enough to deter me. I noticed a place far off where abokis charge phone 50 naira for people.

Cryinfreeman:
ChildOfDoom: The reason you don't have any sense is because poverty have not rewind your brain. You don't know what suffering is that is why you have become a problem to your own self.

You have cap - you have no head to wear it.

I do suffer sir, anytime I lose all on me. Its not a life I am happy about. Losing has a way of regulating my excesses. I am now extra focused to hide my mess and remain on the job. Tonight now, just garri I drank. I also get to trek to work henceforth from now till month end (by waking very early), till help comes from somewhere

Things I could have easily bought with the money:

An office bag (I use paper bag to the office)

A power bank (This would have stopped my going to betshop to charge my phone)

Food for 10 days (The balance would have sustained me for the next ten days)

If only I can turn the hands of time

PattyMike:
Oloribu ni o.

Hmm I guess I deserve it

Going to face my fears today

CAPSLOCKED:
YOU'RE MY IDOL SIR.

hmm the sarcasm

I have lost sleep. Please help me

Nyascobar1414:
Woow...
NIgga

boss. My condition is messy

hectorr:
Nobody holy pass.

I made a mistake saying I am not that bad. I am actually useless. I feel downcast and distraught. Money I had kept all through the holidays.

God punish the person that invented transfer. What excuse do I have this time around. No where to run too. To think my clothes are tattered and nothing in my room (just a bad-looking foam). I should have bought the needful


Please I need someone in Edo state I can stay with to discipline me, keep me company and help me manage my finances. I seriously lack self-control

Lord!!! How do I sleep. If only I could know before hand how it would feel like if I lost money. My nature of job must make me hold money. And bet9ja shops have proliferated round the town. I am finished

azraeljaheel:
My nicca in the trenched


Anticipating your write up

Updated...

I am in big trouble tomorrow. I just lost 21k I was keeping in my account to give to customers tomorrow. Virtual oo. God save me.

New resolution : Not visiting betshops for any reason again

Please someone give me loan

As long as I am not dead, arrested or decapitated, I have reasons to forge on. Keep hoping for the best. One step at a time now. For whatever addiction I have now, I am practising self-control. I have seen someone with lot of wealth lose it to addiction to cocaine

Total elimination in this polluted world of desperation is herculean. A little of masturbation, a little of gambling, a little of carbonated drinks etc is what I pursue. We all are trapped with one addiction or the other. We all need to moderate them to get out of it Alive

Even though I have been addicted to bet9ja for about 7 years now (I just played real Madrid to qualify 4.65 odd for 1000 naira). I am not that bad. At least my situation is not as bad as one who sold his car to gamble or who lost his marriage because of betting addiction. One went as far as using the money meant for his dad's coffin to gamble on virtual. I have seen someone use 2 million naira on a 2 odd game that failed. The highest I lost at once was 250k (federal government COVID-19 relief loan).

Even though I am a chronic masturbator and now have erection issues. Mere smiling of a lady or shaking hands with her can make me hard (irregular erection). It's still not that bad. At least I don't get to break any one's heart. I am not guilty of raping anyone or making her steal from her parents (like the guy that made his girl steal from the mum's shop and give to him). I do not fear std or responsibility from impregnating someone

Even though my dad married at 22. He left to stand on his own at age 19. At age 30, the foundation in which I stand is shaky, but it's not that bad. There are some worse off. Some stabbed or killed a loved one. All I did was make them worry. At least I still got to graduate after a long time away from school. I am doing a white-collar job even though I have a lot of debts to pay for the next ten months. Some who graduated on time with a good record are still struggling to get jobs.

Deepsight danidani adonis86 ntipro you can drop your advice on this abandoned thread. My mails not working

Abba114:
childOfdoom what about your pedophilia do u have control over it now

not a paedophile o. Just that i am mainly attracted to low-budget ladies. Be on low cut or all-back weaving and tattered or fairly-used clothes and I am turned on. I get this feeling they are the type in my league I can afford due to my impecunious state. For those with expensive clothing, I can only fantasize from afar but timorous when they come close

JoviaIJune:
how far? Your mail dey active?
I wan make we reason

pirogee76@gmail.com

MarryWhiteasap:
The ones that are mad and psycho gets married at a snap you wey be spoilt brat go dey assume. Woman go still enter create a miserable atmosphere for you, na you go cry me a river when her long cobra twist don ruin your life.
Women are Powerful in households

hmm. Which woman case bad reach me. Me that will wake up early in the morning. Without praying, laundry, bathing or brushing, we go and camp in a bet shop all through. The only positive thing is, I get my phone charged, watch TV and see my companions (fellow losers) to chat with