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Always get married early in the morning. That way, if it doesn't work out, you haven't wasted a whole day

I lay on my pillow
Tossin and turnin
I can't believe
What I'm seein
In my dreams.

You betrayed me
Three times over
Though I never
Saw it comin
Somethin felt out of place.

You was my friend,
You was my sista,
No one could ever conceive
The depths of our relationship
But you threw it all away.

And all I can say
Is why?
Who was there for you
When your peeps closed the door,
It was me, waitin in the rain.

Who fed your mind
With positive words
While depression
Wanted to swallow
You up like the ocean.

Nights you cried
I wiped your eyes
Till I had no paper
Left to dry them,
And had to use my shirt.

When your kids
Were hungry
I fed them
And when they were cold,
I held them.

What have I done
To deserve this knife
That you so
Deceitfully drove
Into my back?

My sista
My friend
Why did this union
Have to end
On such a sad note.

I thought I meant
More to you
Than just another
Person out to hurt you
But I guess I was mistaken.

There was nothing
I wouldn't do for you
Cause you meant
The world to me
This shitt is real.

I can't explain
The pain this knife
Has caused me,
There is no one person
Who can remove it, but you.

I can't breathe sometimes
Tryin to figure out
Your intentions
Behind the kaos
You so carelessly created.

And yet I still
Love you
As this knife stays
Pierced to my soul,
Waiting for you to remove it.

Forgiveness is given
To those deserving of it
But who am to say
That maybe, just maybe
Deep inside you are sorry.

I wish to forgive you,
But this knife
Is beginning to rust
As it sinks deeper
Into my back.

Can you understand me?
Do you even care?
Was it meant to be this way?
Are we destined to live as enemies?
I want my sister back, but does she want me?

I never would have known
That the one I trusted the most
Would be the one I would
Be forced to hate
And wish harm and bad fortune.

Is life treatin you better now
That I am gone?
Are the friends you chose to keep
True to you
Like I was?

Will they sacrifice
Their homes
To prove their
Loyalty to you,
Or are they all fakes and fonies?

I'll let you
Think about it,
Let it sink in,
And maybe you might
Realize that you were dead wrong.

I can admit I was wrong
To seek revenge,
But I was lost and confused
At the thought of you
Ever hurting me.

So what's it gonna be?
Who will make the next move?
I wanna say I miss you,
But really,
What is that gonna prove?

Do you wanna stop
This madness?
Are we ever gonna
Be friends again?
I don't have the answer, do you?

© hazeleyez2000

Some say the glass is half full, some say the glass is half empty. I say “Are you gonna drink that?”

I hope this don't fall on deaf ears. Next time email me privately rather than posting my message publicly

Excellent Poem and loving it