Op. I can see a lot people have been telling you to do this and that. I will encourage you to feel worthy.... how will you make that happen.? Learn a lucrative skill , like programming or stuff you can catch up easily.

Design your life , even if you are broke, you will see potential in yourself like a Rich guy. Because of your skill.

Take advantage of your parent who are still available to finance you. Tell yourself. NEVER GIVE UP.

@YoungandDepress,
At first, you're suffering from analysis paralysis and it's wrecking you. A chronic symptom of over thinking and depression. Forgive yourself and move on.

Thank God you realise before it's too late, your awareness will initiate your transformation. I know what it means to be a brilliant folk, always aiming higher more than where you currently are.

However, you need to pull yourself up. It's all in your hands to do the needful or rather gets stucked in your head analysing the past that doesn't exist.
Do a google search about those aged below 23 who have died, you will be surprised. Think of genuine reason to be grateful.

If you never fell a victim of addiction, you would still be broke at one point in time... everyone faces challenges at one point in time.....an average person you meet on the road has a story.

What you need now is brand new life loaded with soothing energy to guide your ways. That's where peace of mind comes from.

The worst thing that could ever happen to a man is wallowing in a state of confusion . Many become drug addicts and drunkards owing to this.

You really need to retain God in your knowledge, don't mind those naysayers. You're not doing God any favour, as you will enjoy 100% of the benefits morally, emotionally, psychologically, productively e.t.c google audio messages of renowned men of God, listen to them, you will be refreshed with new energy to start afresh with great focus.

Lastly, the best revenge to yourself and those you've failed is massive success. Do away with what you can't control.

After forgiving yourself, think of what you love most. Is it music, tech, skill, studying e.t.c just pick it up and focus all your energy on it like your whole life depended on it. It's your story.... you have to be successful to make your story interesting and inspiring to doubters. Else, the world doesn't care of it and you will hate Yourself even more.

Self reflection and personal meditation are forms of gift, use them well. Wrong friends can send you back to square one.

Never compare!!! Focus on your life and be appreciative.

It's in your hand, the world doesn't care.

U have taken the right step by voicing out. I will like to talk to u asap

YoungandDepress:

I know the sins of my past are catching up with me. Karma is hitting me from all directions.
I see my mates riding nice cars, living in their rented apartment, I cry.

Most of my classmates I finished secondary school with are now responsible graduates and here I am, stuck in 200level.

I see them in the street and I hide myself in shame and disgrace because I can't answer the catching up questions.

I still ask 500 naira from my parents just to go out.

I stayed through out the month of June without earning even one thousand naira by myself.

Sometimes I curse the day I was born and why I came through a mid level family and not a rich family.

God has abandoned me. I can't remember the last time I prayed. Not that I even care now.
I am turning into an atheist because of my frustrations.

Sometimes I think why not just die and end it all, I mean we are all going to die one day so what is the point, but then I think of my family and the shame it will bring upon them and at the same time I think what if I die and heaven and hell is real. It's funny how the thought of hell keeps me going and trying to do good with my life when I don't really believe in God anymore.


Safe to say, my suicidal tendencies are very low to non existent but I hope I have the courage to keep pushing. I hope one day, I just don't loose it completely.

Even my phone I am using to type this has a damaged screen which I'm half managing but it is what it is, I have no funds to fix it and no relative to help.

I mean I'm just here watching the days go by, taking evening walks around the neighborhood and thinking how my life would have been if I didn't mess it up or did all these happen to me so I can be a testimony to others if life decides to smile on me?
I have no idea.

I'M JUST A YOUNG, BROKE, MISERABLE AND DEPRESSED MAN.

I PRAY MY SOUL FINDS THE PEACE THAT IT DESPERATELY SEEKS.


I just wanted to table my emotions here and vent out all the frustrations in my head because I have no one to talk deep with me. I hope to find little relief and seek solace in the peace of others.

Hello

I am really sorry that you feeling depressed and got anxiety

But I would to assure you that you not alone and keep having faith and beleive me when i say no matter what you think of education its still be best way out of the poverty lie in nigeria

But without talking to much if you got instagram add me on Swansrecordsnstion

And send me private message and i can see how to assist you no matter how small

But i will say never drop out of school because there are so much opportunity coming up in foreign countries and your only advantage is education

Hope you stay strong and focus

Remember life is not a competition amongd your peers

Depression is real! As I am talking to you now gan is with depression.

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

my guy you are still young, and you have a long way to go. Don't get yourself depress man. All these things u complained u are lacking virtually everyone in this country lack those things. The fact that u hate God is what I don't like.
You are nothing without God. So you need HIM to succeed in life and to overcome all these life challenges.
Just be focus, prayerful and believe in yourself and in God. And all these things you are complaining of would be a thing of the past l.
Shalom

omobacyprus:
If you have any digital skill whatsoever hit me up, I'll get you an approved Upwork account for free. That can start you up.

Stop the comparison. This life na race. It's society that's making you think that way. It's good for them today does not mean it won't still be better for you.

You don't understand. He is not lacking what to do, heck, I consider he is not lacking a means to survive. He is lacking a a destination to arrive at, a target to aim at, a reality check. His life is organised around the need for making superfast money to satisfy a material craving(unknown) that no regular job or tasking will fulfill.

He needs to be demotivated in that direction and redirected around the value syatem that ends with reward for innovation, skill, risk and effort....and starts with quest for quality education. His lifes' compass is malfunctioning.

YoungandDepress:

I know the sins of my past are catching up with me. Karma is hitting me from all directions.
I see my mates riding nice cars, living in their rented apartment, I cry.

Most of my classmates I finished secondary school with are now responsible graduates and here I am, stuck in 200level.

I see them in the street and I hide myself in shame and disgrace because I can't answer the catching up questions.

I still ask 500 naira from my parents just to go out.

I stayed through out the month of June without earning even one thousand naira by myself.

Sometimes I curse the day I was born and why I came through a mid level family and not a rich family.

God has abandoned me. I can't remember the last time I prayed. Not that I even care now.
I am turning into an atheist because of my frustrations.

Sometimes I think why not just die and end it all, I mean we are all going to die one day so what is the point, but then I think of my family and the shame it will bring upon them and at the same time I think what if I die and heaven and hell is real. It's funny how the thought of hell keeps me going and trying to do good with my life when I don't really believe in God anymore.


Safe to say, my suicidal tendencies are very low to non existent but I hope I have the courage to keep pushing. I hope one day, I just don't loose it completely.

Even my phone I am using to type this has a damaged screen which I'm half managing but it is what it is, I have no funds to fix it and no relative to help.

I mean I'm just here watching the days go by, taking evening walks around the neighborhood and thinking how my life would have been if I didn't mess it up or did all these happen to me so I can be a testimony to others if life decides to smile on me?
I have no idea.

I'M JUST A YOUNG, BROKE, MISERABLE AND DEPRESSED MAN.

I PRAY MY SOUL FINDS THE PEACE THAT IT DESPERATELY SEEKS.


I just wanted to table my emotions here and vent out all the frustrations in my head because I have no one to talk deep with me. I hope to find little relief and seek solace in the peace of others.

My Brother..
Life isn't Easy For anyone at all..
Most Ppl U see are Just Packaging themselves N Hoping for a Better Tomorrow..Which Happens Most Times..Just Do Ur Best...Learn a whole Lots Of Things Now..Pray To GOD..Yes Go Back To Prayer..It Helps.. N Never Ever Give Up..It always Gets Better ..
It always Does

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

And you came to NL for pampering??

You are a man. Pick up yourself. Life is not a Sprint.
If you are focused, you will get there.
Don't stop believing in yourself!

Happy now?

you're not miserable neither are you useless, the only reason you're were you are now is because. 1. you lived your life on the fast lane in the quest for quick money therefore leadin you to excessive gambling. 2. you try to live like others thus lost focus of your original self and abandoned your dreams. There Are More To Your Life Style Than You've Said, But Lets Leave That Aside. Cursin GOD Will only Add More Salt To Your Injury As His Sovereignty Cannot Be Determined By Human, Accept Yourself The Way You Are, Accept That You Failed But Never Call Or Accept That You're A Failure. Gather Yourself And Start All Over Again and I Assure You, you'll See Differences. You're Too Young To Conclude on Yourself. #Neverthinksuicide. Shalom

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

OP, you need to take it easy on yourself and let go of your past and move on. I think your mindset is one of the things affecting you. Thank God you have a parent that are supportive and believe in you. you just have to believe in yourself, be optimistic and be prayerful. everything will turn out well.

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

Your problem is simple , #comparison#
The best way to destroy your life is to keep on comparing yourself with others especially when you think they are better than you. Whereas, your age mates are also in the prisons, hospitals, mortuaries.
At 23 you are still very very young to do things with your life. All you need is to invest in your life and believe in yourself. Nobody is pressing your button! ! Lack of self esteem and comparison is eating you up. Many made it at the age of 30 some 40, 50 but here you are , being 23(full of life) and you are talking about depression? I graduated 2014 and no job till date. I left my uncle's home in 2019 almost at the age of 31 but I am full of life and hope that there's a better tomorrow. On the aspect of worshipping God, you don't do God a service when you worship Him. Rather , the benefit is all yours. Before your forefathers were born, He has been God. He does not need us to be God , He's forever God...God all by Himself. But He rewards those who diligently seek Him. He has blessed me so much !! Stop talking about your past, we all make mistakes in life , as long as we got life , we can still be better. Hope is a virtue , adopt it

23? you fresh kpa.. 23 na when life dey start!

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

I wish I commented first. I have been there. Just start hustling and your life will get better. You will meet new people, make better friends, more money. This is nothing new, for a lot of men like us, nothing is given to us, we must build our lives out of nothing.

I felt this deep in my heart , i almost cried, beg ur parents so u can learn graphic drawing and computer , and keep urself busy. I wish i could give u a big hug, u are not too old to be in 200l , all fingers are not equal ,, what has happened has happened, the past is the past ,, look towards the future with HOPE that things will get better. Just hv that thought that it would surely be better it would only take little time .. drop ur number, let me send you card

So many depress people full nairaland. No wonder

I just knew more sob stories will come after that boy who posted about laborer work received plenty "I sent a dm, let me send you something."

Take it easy on yourself dude. no be ur own bad pass. at 23 u can stil take charge of ur life . but first of all you need to draw close to God first. his words say come unto me all ye that labour and heavy laden and i wil give you rest. also stop comparing yourself with your mates becos no be who first start race dey always win race. peace be unto yo BROTHER

You were young, that's all that happened to you..

The good thing is, you now feel a sense of responsibility...

But understand this, At some point in our youthful lives, we've all made regrettable mistakes, we regret certain actions... But the reality is, that's all in the past...never blame God for the little misfortunes...how fast you graduate has nothing to do with how fast you succeed... Bro, concentrate on your academics and have a purpose for living...life is strange... Just do your best and believe in God...

micfoley:
My brother , take it easy o. Believe me, no matter how bad your story is, people are going through worse. Some people have offered to speak to you, please take up their offer.


Most importantly, please find your way back to Christ. The most striking thing about your write up is that there is no peace in your heart. I may not know much about Christianity, but I know from experience that your heart will no longer be troubled once you find Jesus.


May God bless you as you rediscover yourself in Him

You are right plus he needs the right people in his life.

As much as I can relate to your story,I feel yours is even better than mine.What are the solutions you need?1-You need to start talking to your elder brother who you said is quite okay.2-Try and be engaged with something:If you're bright,coaching a subject you're good at will help.3-Mend your ways with God too.I am telling you mine is more pathetic and I am still managing to live.

When there is life there is hope. Don't give up on your life because life has not given up on you.

At 23, you are very young. A bright future awaits. No need to despair over the errors of the past. It's time to move on.

Kudos to your parents that forgave you. You disappointed them the first time by dropping out of school, but don't disappoint them a second time by doing something nasty in the situation you have found yourself.

It is good that you went back school, now in 200L. That alone is progress. I will beg you to follow through till you graduate and make your parents proud again.

Despite all you have said about God, He remains the only One that can transform your life. Believe it or not, He still loves you. And wants to help if you ask Him to.

God's love is available for you to take if you put your faith in Jesus Christ. Just ask Jesus in to your heart, ask Him to help you, because you can't help yourself.

There is a reason you are alive. There is a reason God brought you to earth. You can't find that reason outside of God.

Since school is not open yet, find something useful to do with your time. Help your parents. Talk with your siblings. Away with suicide thoughts.

Find a job around your house to bridge the gap. Volunteer if you have to...being idle contributes to personal misery.

Don't be ashamed before your old classmates who have moved higher than you. It's a matter of time you will level up too and even surpass their achievements in life. (Hiding from them makes the matter worse. And you can't even hide forever).

Lastly, forgive your self of the past mistakes and look ahead to a better future. Accepting the love and forgiveness of Jesus Christ into your life will make it easier to do so.

God loves you and He still has a plan for you. Embrace it.

At 23, I can say it's not too late looking at Nigeria context. Many wished they had a deep thought about their life at this age. You can still salvage whatever is left of you at the moment and in 5 years time you will be proud you took the decision

Remember the best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago, the next best time is now. So act now

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

Believe me even if you had money and a gf and anything you feel will give you happiness... Believe me friend, you will still feel miserable.

I was and I'm still in your shoes except for "I am very comfortable financially but I still feel lonely in it all even with a gf"

Solution: I dunno maybe start own family.
Cause: a lonely childhood that teaches you, you do not need friends.


GL bro... I hope you get better

So nairalanders have sense like this......... It's beautiful to see that we are becoming fully aware of the level of depression in this country, with all the hardship going going on. A couple of years ago trolls would have come out to insult and make fun of this guy. My guy I was in the same ship 2years ago and mine landed me in a psychiatric hospital but I came out stronger and better. You will be fine. Don't overthink things to much. And don't be a loner, that helps to breed suicidal thoughts. Trust me people have or had it worse than you (me included)

YoungandDepress:
My story is quite a sad and long one.
I wish I could write it all out. My life has been a terrible mess.
Where did it go wrong for me, I have no idea.

I am writing with so much emotion, my heart is full and heavy.
Life is bitter.

I am a 23 years old guy.
My life all started to go in the negative direction when I gained admission at age 16.
A 16 years old boy in the university, so much freedom and exposure.
I messed up my life, I became addicted to bet9ja virtual gambling I lost focus, Gambling killed me, I started failing exams, at the end I dropped out without my parents Knowing, but the truth came out when I was supposed to graduate, I could not hide it anymore. I told them the truth, my parents forgave me like the prodigal son.

They still believed in me especially my mom, she keeps reminding me of how intelligent I used to be.

Well I'm not here to talk about my past life but here to talk about how it is still affecting me today.

Ever since I started university all over again, I have been miserable and frustrated. Nothing has been working in my favour. I'm currently now in 200level hoping to graduate before 25.
All my mates I started with have done their NYSC.

I'm still stuck in the same stage.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I'm young, broke and depressed. I get irritated over little things. I feel disgust at how I uselessed my youthful life. How gambling destroyed me.

By the grace of whichever god exists, I am no longer addicted to gambling. I have quit the addiction for almost a year now but nothing changed, I still feel miserable. I hate having people around me even my family members including my mom.

I have no true friends. Nobody checks on me, nobody calls me.

At this age, I can't boast of having 500 naira in my account.
I'm broke and miserable.

I have started hating God and question my belief in God. I hate Sunday's. I hate hearing about God, I don't blame God for my troubles but I'm angry at the fact that despite my parents being dedicated Christians, things are not working well in my family.
My elder ones are graduates, but no solid job yet.

Only my eldest brother who is doing quite well now and I thank God for his life but we don't talk. I can't remember the last time I called him on phone. They don't hate me, I hate myself.
I have disappointed them a lot.


I just lost the last #1000 I had in my life today and I cried. The money fell out my pocket when I went to get something.

At 23 years, I have no idea what I will do with my future.
I still live with my parents and I have never rented an apartment of my own even in school.

What is wrong with me, why am I miserable?

I have no good clothes. My clothes are all worn out.
I have nothing doing, i live off my parents.

Since schools were shut down, I have been at home doing nothing.
Completely broke, damaged and miserable.

Can my life be any better. What do I do. I am depressed.
I keep asking myself these questions but there
Seem to be no answer.

You need to realise that your story is better than most ppl... If you can be this sober and think about life at 23, I really applaud you. There are men that have no purpose or bearing at 45 years. They are still living anyhow in there fathers house

YoungandDepress:

Thanks, I just sent you a mail.

Na that ur elder brother I dey blame. Atleast he has seen it all, he supposed to be the one checking U and draw U closer to himself. Please, tried and forget ur pass and forgive urself and draw more closely to God and ur family members.
It would shocked U urs truly at 33 is also trying to find his feet with nothing to show of but still believe life na jeje. Just chill, relax and take a deep breath, believe it shall be well with you.
Cheers.

No be only you dey the bus Oga


You don't know even if you will be wealthy like Otedola or rich like oga mechanic

Brotherly, one day, everything will be clear like a seaway. We should just be concerned for now about adding value to oneself for now

True, there are myriads that have made it at 22 but you didn't know the kind of paddling they undertook years ago or plans their parent orchestrated for them.

Let's move at our own pace and maybe, with enough value, we would strike gold.

My brother, please calm down, I know things might be so frustrating to you right now but you have to calm your nerves and you have to start thing of how you can make the dirty situation positive for yourself... This life is so beautiful and you have to see the beauty... Do things you love to do, start dreaming again and I tell you something... They will come to you freely without stressing it

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Bro,
I am 47 Years and think I am in a position to advise you. One thing I realized after all these years is that finishing school early does not give any long term advantage in life. Most of us who could have gone to do our masters and even doctorate degrees thought we needed to make money like everyone else and jumped out of school.

You need to actually pray more and get closer to God not farther away. Ask the holy spirit to help you turn things around and stop thinking time has passed you by because that is not true at all. At 23, you have your whole life ahead of you. I just got my doctorate degree a month ago showing you that it is never too late to achieve something. Would have been nice if I got it at 28 or 30 but life goes on.

By the way, I can replace your lost #1000 if you drop your account number.