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i gave my whole life to you

and today my life is a mess, startin from rock bottom to build it up

i can achieve all i want with hard work so im happy

but my mother is dead and always will be, i miss her sooooooo much

im bitter and angry

help

Divorce is their portion ijn

Me too I don't believe in God anymore

Despite all my begging and everything she still died of cancer

My enemies r happy

I'm bitter

I served God my whole life and was a born again Christian even to the point being a virgin age 24

Yet my mother has died now

But a girl I know lives in sin and has a baby out of wedlock yet her mom is alive

How can I be a Christian and this calamity happen to me. My enemies are laughing at me

educated to masters level (will one day do PHD in 30s)

beautiful

has money, own apartment

great career

great personality

strong spiritual life

great relationships (fam, friends etc)

beautiful personality

lives best life i.e. travels, can cook etc


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i have been carrying last my whole life since age 17

i want to change and become this woman above

how can i stop carrying last?
here is my story, have you heard worse ?

What did I do to deserve this life?

With tears streaming down my face, I write this-

I was once a young girl with a bright future, whos only plan was to become someone in life and for myself and my family to be alive, healthy and successful

Yet I am 24 today and all my plans have failed

My mother has died of cancer

Not even half a year later, my dad is now ill but not serious illness.

My brother is disabled with autism

My younger brother is fine, thank God

me? I have emotional health problems, but I am mentally/physically healthy. I am a university drop out, I have just got a job but it is low paying and I survive on government assistance. I am poor, I have poor relationships and I am struggling in my education - behind on deadlines. All my goals and dreams have failed and I am angry sad and bitter. I have lost faith in God completely and can not even pray anymore

I look around at people who were athiests, and who called themselves christians but did not follow God at all unlike me who was not perfect, but I was God fearing to the point I am still a virgin age 24

yet i look at their lives and see blessings whereas my life is full of problems

look at kylie jenner, does she know God? yet look at her blessed with a child, her parents alive, her extended family, money, fame and so much more
not only her, many more examples

I look at myself and I sincerely ask...

what did I gain from being a christian?

i feel like the universe is out to destroy me and wants me dead,

what is all this problem?

i am thinking of joining mountain of fire deliverance programme but then i look at others who do not even know God or have nor stepped into mountain of fire church yet their life is fine

what do i do? this is too much

i have stopped going to school for 3 weeks, and i do not like socialising i am so ashamed of myself and my life... my enemies are laughing at me , me who was the one that was most likely to be a success when we left school... it is me who everyone is pitying, i am disgraced.

darkenkach:
Want about crime? It pays.

i want to start ashawo business but i dont know how

i feel God hates me everything i try fail why does he bless otherds and curse me

me who once had a bright future

now im 24
uni drop out
jobless (working poor job)
no friends
ugly
mother dead
and so unhappy

whilst my enemies are progressing past me, those who were not focused when we were younger are doing great whilst im a failure

im so ashamed of my life

help

for me mostly people

now i am using 2018 to work on myself find myself by 30 june

then july august - decide my relationships

so that from sept onwards only good relationship not people wey go hold me back

What did I do to deserve this life?

With tears streaming down my face, I write this-

I was once a young girl with a bright future, whos only plan was to become someone in life and for myself and my family to be alive, healthy and successful

Yet I am 24 today and all my plans have failed

My mother has died of cancer

Not even half a year later, my dad is now ill but not serious illness.

My brother is disabled with autism

My younger brother is fine, thank God

me? I have emotional health problems, but I am mentally/physically healthy. I am a university drop out, I have just got a job but it is low paying and I survive on government assistance. I am poor, I have poor relationships and I am struggling in my education - behind on deadlines. All my goals and dreams have failed and I am angry sad and bitter. I have lost faith in God completely and can not even pray anymore

I look around at people who were athiests, and who called themselves christians but did not follow God at all unlike me who was not perfect, but I was God fearing to the point I am still a virgin age 24

yet i look at their lives and see blessings whereas my life is full of problems

look at kylie jenner, does she know God? yet look at her blessed with a child, her parents alive, her extended family, money, fame and so much more
not only her, many more examples

I look at myself and I sincerely ask...

what did I gain from being a christian?

i feel like the universe is out to destroy me and wants me dead,

what is all this problem?

i am thinking of joining mountain of fire deliverance programme but then i look at others who do not even know God or have nor stepped into mountain of fire church yet their life is fine

what do i do? this is too much

i have stopped going to school for 3 weeks, and i do not like socialising i am so ashamed of myself and my life... my enemies are laughing at me , me who was the one that was most likely to be a success when we left school... it is me who everyone is pitying, i am disgraced.

are your parents still alive?

Davedgr8:


Yours is even better.. It's just fvcked.. Me, life has raped me

OP, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.. It will pass, and u'll be fine.

Muzik then was ma theraphy.. What u need now is some good muzik(motivational songs).. I can help u wit some playlist if u need 'em ..

Mummyjoy:
My dear Jesus makes the difference. I lost my mum when I was almost due for delivery, I was planning for her to come and stay with me before and after birth as the case may be. She was not sick, the next thing I heard was that she slumped and died without saying goodbye. Believe me, ask the Lord Jesus to come into your heart and cleanse you from sin, ask the Holy Spirit to empower you above those suicidal thoughts, you will see the difference. Start praying for his touch upon your Dad, if you are sincere, I'll join you, I'm sure God Almighty will hear us

Ok

thank you

but please, tell me

why did God allow her to die

is that not a shame on your mother?

are her enemies not laughing at her?

Ok

thank you

but please, tell me

why did God allow him to die

is that not a shame on your father?

are his enemies not laughing at him?

Originakalokalo:
There are numerous worst situations.

Mother and father dead, no sibling, no relation, nothing.

Trust me, there are worst cases.


My Dad died on his way from church, after a program in the church, he was a Pastor.

That doesn't stop God from being God.

Retrace your steps.


Go to the mountain of fire Deliverance instead of committing Sucide.

BEFORE you go for this,

1. Retrace your steps. Look back at your life.

2. Ask God for mercy and Get your faith back.

If you do Deliverance hundreds of times, without your faith IT IS USELESS.

3. Ask God to guide you.My younger brother works with WHO by God's favor ONLY.

He is a higher institution dropout.

We that have finished everything are still asking God to help us through.


You are not limited by ANYTHING or any cricumstances IF YOU DON'T LIMIT YOUR GOD.


If you commit Sucide, you go to Hell.

You are a Christian , that will make your purnishment worst in hell.


Stay with God.

hopefulLandlord:
why do you keep creating monickers just to post the same thing or similar again and again?

im broken

JULIE1925:
Life is being unfair to everyone no matter how rich or poor u are..#FACT

If I will tell u my whole story, im sure u will say ur life is way better than me ...
Just don't give up. All u need right now is one friend that will be there for u thru hell & heaven...

Life ain't easy. But once u fight back and aim for ur goal , ONE AT A TIME... i promise u, u will overcome everything...GOOD LUCK.

please tell me your story

are your parents alive

im grieving for real

so sad

hopefulLandlord:
Is OP just a troll, throwing scam format or just grieving for real?

https://www.nairaland.com/4219872/why-god-abandoned-me

https://www.nairaland.com/4054800/why-life-awful-im-ashamed#60460269

https://www.nairaland.com/4219258/did-kill-own-mother#63048768

https://www.nairaland.com/4223303/why-did-god-let-mum

https://www.nairaland.com/4217188/im-verge-suicide

Mummyjoy:
My dear, I understand how you feel, but do you know that some where raised in the orphanage yet they grew up to overcome there limitations. I'm introducing you to the Lord Jesus Christ, he's the only one that makes the difference if you are sincere. Believe me the powers that want you to commit suicide will take you to hell, a place of no return.remember eternity is forever

your parents are alive arent they?

thats why you are talking like this

Mummyjoy:
Suicide is never an option, b/c it's not the end of the problem but a beginning of a life of sorrow and regrets in eternity. If you sincerely ask the Lord Jesus to cleanse you from sin and give you a new life I'm sure he will, and when next those suicide thoughts come you command them to leave in Jesus name. [b]Remember there are people that have gone through worst situations an[/b]d yet they are living. For more you can call me.08036133340

what worst situation can there be if your mother is dead

What did I do to deserve this life?

With tears streaming down my face, I write this-

I was once a young girl with a bright future, whos only plan was to become someone in life and for myself and my family to be alive, healthy and successful

Yet I am 24 today and all my plans have failed

My mother has died of cancer

Not even half a year later, my dad is now ill - i am unsure what but he seems to have symptoms of throat cancer as he keeps coughing and and he needs to always clear his throat, also has some ear pain. He had to have antibiotics for a month, but the problem is still there and he is now going to hospital today

My brother is disabled with autism

My younger brother is fine, thank God

me? I have emotional health problems, but I am mentally/physically healthy. I am a university drop out, I have just got a job but it is low paying and I survive on government assistance. I am poor, I have poor relationships and I am struggling in my education - behind on deadlines. All my goals and dreams have failed and I am angry sad and bitter. I have lost faith in God completely and can not even pray anymore

I look around at people who were athiests, and who called themselves christians but did not follow God at all unlike me who was not perfect, but I was God fearing to the point I am still a virgin age 24

yet i look at their lives and see blessings whereas my life is full of problems

look at kylie jenner, does she know God? yet look at her blessed with a child, her parents alive, her extended family, money, fame and so much more
not only her, many more examples

I look at myself and I sincerely ask...

what did I gain from being a christian?

i feel like the universe is out to destroy me and wants me dead,

what is all this problem?

i am thinking of joining mountain of fire deliverance programme but then i look at others who do not even know God or have nor stepped into mountain of fire church yet their life is fine

what do i do? this is too much

i have stopped going to school for 3 weeks, and i do not like socialising i am so ashamed of myself and my life... my enemies are laughing at me , me who was the one that was most likely to be a success when we left school... it is me who everyone is pitying, i am disgraced.

nifemi25:
No matter what you are going through always remember someone somewhere is striving hard to have the life you have. Suicide is never the best option.

someone is striving to have their mother dead and their dad ill? and to be a uni drop out~?

ok
i have emailed now

danolorunmo:
Hello dear. Please kindly send a mail so we can talk. danolorunmo@zoho.com

What did I do to deserve this life?

With tears streaming down my face, I write this-

I was once a young girl with a bright future, whos only plan was to become someone in life and for myself and my family to be alive, healthy and successful

Yet I am 24 today and all my plans have failed

My mother has died of cancer

Not even half a year later, my dad is now ill - i am unsure what but he seems to have symptoms of throat cancer as he keeps coughing and and he needs to always clear his throat, also has some ear pain. He had to have antibiotics for a month, but the problem is still there and he is now going to hospital today

My brother is disabled with autism

My younger brother is fine, thank God

me? I have emotional health problems, but I am mentally/physically healthy. I am a university drop out, I have just got a job but it is low paying and I survive on government assistance. I am poor, I have poor relationships and I am struggling in my education - behind on deadlines. All my goals and dreams have failed and I am angry sad and bitter. I have lost faith in God completely and can not even pray anymore

I look around at people who were athiests, and who called themselves christians but did not follow God at all unlike me who was not perfect, but I was God fearing to the point I am still a virgin age 24

yet i look at their lives and see blessings whereas my life is full of problems

look at kylie jenner, does she know God? yet look at her blessed with a child, her parents alive, her extended family, money, fame and so much more
not only her, many more examples

I look at myself and I sincerely ask...

what did I gain from being a christian?

i feel like the universe is out to destroy me and wants me dead,

what is all this problem?

i am thinking of joining mountain of fire deliverance programme but then i look at others who do not even know God or have nor stepped into mountain of fire church yet their life is fine

what do i do? this is too much

i have stopped going to school for 3 weeks, and i do not like socialising i am so ashamed of myself and my life... my enemies are laughing at me , me who was the one that was most likely to be a success when we left school... it is me who everyone is pitying, i am disgraced.

What did I do to deserve this life?

With tears streaming down my face, I write this-

I was once a young girl with a bright future, whos only plan was to become someone in life and for myself and my family to be alive, healthy and successful

Yet I am 24 today and all my plans have failed

My mother has died of cancer

Not even half a year later, my dad is now ill - i am unsure what but he seems to have symptoms of throat cancer as he keeps coughing and and he needs to always clear his throat, also has some ear pain. He had to have antibiotics for a month, but the problem is still there and he is now going to hospital today

My brother is disabled with autism

My younger brother is fine, thank God

me? I have emotional health problems, but I am mentally/physically healthy. I am a university drop out, I have just got a job but it is low paying and I survive on government assistance. I am poor, I have poor relationships and I am struggling in my education - behind on deadlines. All my goals and dreams have failed and I am angry sad and bitter. I have lost faith in God completely and can not even pray anymore

I look around at people who were athiests, and who called themselves christians but did not follow God at all unlike me who was not perfect, but I was God fearing to the point I am still a virgin age 24

yet i look at their lives and see blessings whereas my life is full of problems

look at kylie jenner, does she know God? yet look at her blessed with a child, her parents alive, her extended family, money, fame and so much more
not only her, many more examples

I look at myself and I sincerely ask...

what did I gain from being a christian?

i feel like the universe is out to destroy me and wants me dead,

what is all this problem?

i am thinking of joining mountain of fire deliverance programme but then i look at others who do not even know God or have nor stepped into mountain of fire church yet their life is fine

what do i do? this is too much

i have stopped going to school for 3 weeks, and i do not like socialising i am so ashamed of myself and my life... my enemies are laughing at me , me who was the one that was most likely to be a success when we left school... it is me who everyone is pitying, i am disgraced.

sunshineG:
even if you are a lady
This is not the right place to post such nonsense pictures.

Can't you ask your girl friends or boy friend ehn ?

NO I don't want them to know so can u give me Honest opinion pls