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Pray4meJC:
For privacy reasons, I'm an old nairaland member.

About 22 / 23 years ago, a classmate in secondary school lured us into the act of masturbation. Few days later, I started practicing the act and eventually ejaculated after tough stimulation lasting almost two hours. It got to a point I was almost getting addicted doing the unclean act.

Thereafter I graduated to pornography when internet was just starting in Nigeria.
I went further to committing adultery and fornication in the heart rather than with the body by peeping on girls and women having their bathe all to fulfill my lustful eyes. I even watched couple have sex by peeping.

Even though I have stopped and repented from these like 12 years back, I still find myself struggling with other bigger problems called wet dreams, unusual erections and wormlike vibrations in my body and sometimes body freezing at night for 30 seconds to 1 minute.

These wet dreams occurred 2 - 3 times in a week and repeat same in like manner every week compulsorily throughout the year and go on and on the following year. I have gone for several dry fasting and prayer deliverance to no avail.

I don't see myself having sex in the dream when these wet dreams occurred. Sometimes, when the wet dream is about happening I'm conscious and try screaming the name or blood of Jesus but it seems am just very powerless and before I know it, semen has spilled out and I will remain like that. Sleep is distorted and all efforts to sleep is impossible.

Sometimes, when I go to bed early by 8PM and I get caught up by wet dreams by 9:30PM, it means sleep for that night is gone completely. I sleep maximum 2 hours daily because this stuff has messed my mind and life up.

Whenever I lie down to sleep, different uninvited thoughts start forcing themselves on my brain both those that happened today and the ones of years ago. I always try deflecting them by replacing them with bible quote or singing praise to God in my head.

I woke up since 2:30 am today with a wet burser soaked in semen and started typing this because I couldn't no longer sleep. Afternoon sleep is very impossible for me as it has never worked for even 1 minute

I'm greatly troubled and worried because I read my bible and pray before going to bed. I dream about my former schools etc.

As I speak, this stuff has rendered me financially devastated with millions in debt. Could not obtain university admission 19 years ago, brain can't simulate, not married, no kids. Very recently this year my health (details withheld due to family members who might find this posts) is suffering as I can't do anything to earn a living as I easily sored tired in the heart.

PS: At night, every day for all these years, uncontrollable strong erections will suddenly start building up whether I put up underwear or not and I think this is more than the 'morning erections ' science talks about. This is pure spiritual manipulation for me. Same thing happens when I get close to some females whether matured or underage, stupid uncontrollable strong erections suddenly pop up without any sexual thoughts whatsoever to these innocent females. Unfortunately, these arousal is also a problem because it inhibits low self esteem, shame and quick withdrawal from whatever discuss I'm having to avoid the bulge being noticed.

Lastly, a year before I got myself ensnared in all these evil activities, I was already developing memory loss and a single headache that almost took my life prior to all these. The headache can be best described as "sawchain and hammer " tearing the skull to pieces and lasted for hours and resistance to drugs. That was the first and last time I experienced such and any other for that matter.

Where do I go from here? Depression is real when solutions are being defiled.

I just want to encourage you to hold onto God stronger than anything else, sell yourself out totally to Him, that is the only solution to your problem. I passed this same thing you are passing through, even worse, but God delivered me and gave me victory over them.

Let me tell you a bit of my story: I used to watch porn a lot, and I also used to be a chronic womanizer, I masturbated anytime the thought came into my head. In 2009 I started having strong wet dreams, anytime I closed my eyes I would see different women coming to make love to me, I wake up to see myself wet. These women came in different form and shapes, it got to a point that even without these women coming, I would still wake up and see myself wet. Later on it started affecting my finances. That year I travelled to the US for business, because I was into car business. I invested more than 60 thousand dollars in importing cars, the cars arrived safely, and as they were being conveyed from the port to the city in a convoy, some armed robbers gave them a chase and some of the cars fell into a ditch and got damaged. And some of the cars, while bringing them down to the East they were siezed by the Customs on the highway, they alleged that the clearing agents I used did not follow the right channel in clearing those cars legally, and that was how all my investment went down the drain. I went down to zero financially in a very short period that I could hardly eat 3 times in a month.

I started having acute insomnia, I could longer sleep, I passed more than seven year without experiencing what it means to sleep at night.
I was having serious nightmares, I was seeing myself eating in the dream, I was seeing myself roaming around naked, I was being attacked by different types of demonic beings, I was having dreams that I could not have words to explain. Nobody around me could understand me. The thoughts of suicide were very strong, but I resisted them. My relationship with my then fiancé who I intended to get married to ended.

When all these things were happening I had already stopped masturbating, even when the thoughts came I resisted them. I deleted all the pornographic materials at my disposal. I started watching Emmanuel TV. As these demons caused me insomnia that I could not sleep at nights, I decided to be using those nights as nights of warfare prayers. I started fasting during the day and did vigil during the nights. I told the devil; you see, as you have taken away my sleep, I will use those sleepless night to battle you and your kingdom in prayers, and that was exactly what I did. I fasted everyday and did vigil for more than 7 years non stop.

To cut the story short, at last God gave me victory over them, I no longer have those types of dreams, and the Lord has restored all that I lost. financially I am now better than before and I am now married to a beautiful wife with 2 beautiful and wonderful kids.

What the devil thought he could use to destroy me actually drew me closer to God, right now now my relationship with God is stronger than ever.
So my brother, I use my testimony to encourage you to fight on and never relent as long as Jesus is fighting by your side, your victory is sure.

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Desperation will kill all these selfish politicians... They will keep on jumping from one party to the other for their selfish interest. It's time the mases should rise and stand against them.

Buhari should send the military to that place, they need it very much. His home state is on fire but he chose to authorize another dispatch of military battalion to the South East. We know his motive.

Mine is 20 years, that's since 2001

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smartasuen:
Igbo Amaka to the world mehn!

Sh wouldn't have been given that opportunity if she had been living Nigeria because of the tribe she came from. Tribe goes before competency in Nigeria

Congratulations to her!! To be frank if it was in Nigerian army, she'll never dream of getting to such height. Let's be truthful to ourselves Nigeria is really holding the Igbos down.

WoW: Nigerian, Col Amanda Azubuike Becomes Highest-Ranking Female In US Military

Col Amanda, currently the Chief, Public Affairs and Spokesman for the U.S. Southern Command is rewarded for her exceptional traits of brilliance and strength in the discharge of her duties.

She has served as a Public affairs professional with more than 15 years of experience leading strategic communications planning and execution, media relations, crisis communication, internal and external stakeholder relations, and international affairs.

Currently, the Communications Director and principal public affairs advisor for an organization that oversees military operations in twenty-eight countries throughout Central America, South America and the Caribbean, PushNews writes.

She Supports the Commander’s communications objectives and public outreach efforts through traditional and social media as she prepares and conducts media engagements, communications strategy for the command’s current and future operations. Responsible for planning, developing, monitoring and executing public affairs outreach and communication programs to build and maintain public trust and support for U.S. Southern Command.

With Amanda’s exalted position she is also responsible for collaborating and synchronizing with communicators at all levels of DoD, the interagency and U.S. embassies in the region. Provide guidance to subordinate commands and maintain oversight of public affairs manning, training and logistics.

We say thumbs up to her on her elevation as a senior officer. See less

#MattersArising

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Idamond:
life is full of roses when you understand the keys

Please, I don't understand the writeup that he once visited a lion's den in South Africa. Can you kindly explain?

sthar:
My husband and I have not had the best relationship. The past two years has been really tough for us, we've had to struggle to make this marriage work. Although we have two kids, My husband talks down on me all the time.

He calls me an ordinary female, a useless creation and believes he owns me. He believes women should not have a freewill and are properties to their husbands. He calls himself my Alpha and omega. I sometimes wish he would hit Me rather than say all sorts to me.
Last week he started as usual. He called me names and Went on to talk about how he would teach me a lesson someday. I really don't know what came over me. I slapped him.

I s.wear it wasn't intentional, I didn't mean to hit him. I thought he would hit me back but he did not. It's been a whole week and he acts like nothing happened. He goes about playing with the kids , he greets me and makes sure we have food to eat too , but it is so unlike him.


My husband always reports to my parents. He tells them everything I do wrong and they always end up calling a meeting. But this time he's silent , he doesn't want sex too which Is so unlike him. I don't know what to do , I feel like he's planning to hurt me really big. I want to call my parents but everyone would blame me. How do I tell the world I slapped my husband?

The slap just reset his brain... That was what was needed to bring the needed change in your marriage. He'll never talk to you like he used to again.

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Something is not measuring up here... How can 9.30 kilograms of cocaine worth over N2.7 billion?.

Where there is injustice, there will never be peace.... It's time we start telling ourselves the truth without being bias. I thank the reps for this one.

The Senate and House of Representatives Joint Committees on Land and Marine Transport on Thursday protested against the proposal of the Minister of Transport, Chibuike Ameachi, to construct a standard gauge for the Kano-Maradi rail line while an old narrow gauge was planned for other parts of Nigeria.

The lawmakers became angry when Amaechi presented the 2022 budget proposal of his ministry before the Joint National Assembly Committee.

While presenting the budget, Amaechi said, “The construction of Kaduna-Kano railways to link up the Abuja-Kaduna rail line has commenced. Survey and design for Ibadan-Minna-Abuja is ongoing.

“Construction of the 284 kilometres Nigeria-Maradi (Niger Republic) standard gauge rail line enabling interconnectivity with countries in the West Africa sub region for the promotion of trade and commerce.



“This important contribution by Nigeria would be mutually beneficial by adding to the economic growth of the two countries, Niger and Nigeria.”

Chairman of Senate Committee on Marine Transport, Senator Danjuma Goje, and House Committee Chairman, Mr Pat Asadu, kicked against the marginalisation of other regions of the country in the rail line construction.

Both Chairmen queried the minister why he was not constructing uniform rail lines across the country.

They also asked him to explain the rationale behind the modern standard gauge being proposed for the Kano-Maradi rail line when he was constructing the old narrow gauge in other parts of Nigeria.

The Chairman, Committee on Port, Pat Asadu, who opened the floor after the minister presented the budget to the committee, specifically asked why he was constructing modern rail line in one place and old rail lines in other parts of the country.

He said, “Looking at your key railway projects which you’ve highlighted, I think they are worth the spend.

“We are now looking at the difference between project D which is the construction of 284 kilometers Nigeria-Maradi railway standard world class line against Project C where you talked about the total rehabilitation and reconstruction of Port Harcourt to Maiduguri eastern rail network defined as narrow gauge.

“For a segment of this country that is known for trade and commerce, they need railway as they need air.

“Why is the ministry doing a 287 kilometers of railway track from Kano to Maradi that you will fund with Nigerian money borrowed for Nigerians to be paid by our children to do a world class railway to Maradi.

“I also know the economy of Niger Republic and I believe the economy of the South-East is bigger than that of Maradi. I am not even talking of South-South.


“So what policy guide, what need assessment, what study of federal character integration would make the Ministry of Transportation to put 284 kilometers railway from the end of the North to Maradi and then constructing a narrow gauge in the South-East and South-South.

“This to me is why the integration of this country will always be challenged because things are done with so much impunity. This is our commonwealth.


“So if we approve this budget for you, you will go and do Kano-Maradi standard rail line and do a narrow gauge rehabilitation for the South-East. My heart bleeds.

“Instead of doing the right thing, you are now giving us this one as what will enhance the economy of Niger and Nigeria, while the economy of Nigerians especially those who have the containers and who are always on the road are given a narrow gauge rehabilitation.”

Similarly, Danjuma Goje, said, “I concur with you because we have consistently challenged the minister.

“Why will you give those of us from the eastern part of Nigeria, from South-East, North-Central, North-East the archaic, old modern narrow gauge, then you are now spending a lot of money to do the modern standard gauge to another country.

“Are people from the South-East, North-Central and North-East not Nigerians? Why should there be double standard in this matter?

“That is why we are quarreling. You are telling us you are designing Ibadan to Abuja, you are doing Kaduna to Kano, you are doing Abuja to Itakpe and to Warri.

“What wrong did the South-East, North-Central and North-East, particularly the South-East, Benue, Plateau, Taraba, Bauchi, Gombe, Borno and Adamawa. What is wrong with us?

“Are we not Nigerians? I completely concur with Honourable Pat Asadu, 100 per cent.”

Ameachi, while responding to issue raised by the committee, said the difference between the narrow gauge and standard gauge was speed, adding that the country might not get the money to build standard gauge across the country.

He said that the negotiation for loan for the construction of Kano- Maradi standard gauge line was about to be completed.

He also clarified that his ministry was yet to get money for Kano-Kaduna, Port Harcourt-Maiduguri railway projects.

On the economic justification for constructing the $1.3bn Kano-Maradi rail, Ameachi said the project was not based on sentiments but economic benefits for the country.

https://www.reubenabati.com.ng/index.php/component/k2/national-assembly-tackles-amaechi-over-nigeria-niger-republic-rail-line-others?fbclid=IwAR32sidViwsMMyu68u8GDTDqyfCFt8s7FZOdGMomB5AYhQRLOFqnLMHtMz8

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Congratulations sir
You deserve it GEJ,Our God is truly faithful �% God is good, KUDOS sir
We don't value you when you're in government now we're in blame. Wish you could be a president again sir, cos Nigeria is suffer now in the hands of our leaders

BREAKING : The United Nations has appointed Former President of Nigeria Dr GOODLUCK EBELE JONATHAN GCFR the U.N. Global Crises Envoy. This role similar to that of Tony Blair who on leaving office as United Kingdom Prime Minister was appointed the Middle East envoy for the United Nations, European Union,United States and Russia.
Goodluck Jonathan would be the first African past Head of State to be assigned this high profiled international tasking responsibility.
From lecturer to Deputy Governor, from Deputy Governor to Governor, from Governor to Vice President, from Vice President to Acting President and from Acting President to President. Now, from President to a World Leader! Congratulations sir.

Nigerian Govt are a bunch of idiots. Implication of what ?? Dressing and self determination is not a human right ?? Did EU arrest or kill any UK citizen for dressing or asking for BREXIT ??

Shame on Nigerian Army for leaving terrorist ravaging the entire north and be flexing and dragging an old innocent Nollywood legend just for putting on cloth with colors because there is nothing like Biafra flag since Biafra has never been recognized as a country.
This kind of ill-treatment gave birth to unknown gun men. Nigerian Army always a disgrace.

Shame on Nigerian Army for leaving terrorist ravaging the entire north and be flexing and dragging an old innocent Nollywood legend just for putting on cloth with colors because there is nothing like Biafra flag since Biafra has never been recognized as a country.
This kind of ill-treatment gave birth to unknown gun men. Nigerian Army always a disgrace.

BREAKING!!! Popular Nollywood Actor, Chinewtaluagu Agu Arrested By Nigerian Army, Flogs Him Mercilessly For Wearing Biafran Clothes

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dY9wslS2RBI

Nicklaus619:
President Buhari

President Buhari

Pervert... I hope they make her punishment hard as they would if it was the other way round.... I mean, if it was a male teacher of 31 years having sex with a girl student of 14 years

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After watching this video I have come to a conclusion that this present government is very corrupt and insincere




https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iO2FA4p5Qp8

We are trying to lose weight and you are trying to gain it. This world no balance at all.