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providence338:
Haha! You all are so funny. Bless you @Bro Charles. And you too Bro Nnamdi.

Lol...And you too ma

CharlyG1:
Nnamdi hear ooooooh.. Hear Providence well well ooh. lol


Yes, occultic power is actually higher with the whites (especially in America) over Africans. America for example started a long time with satanism. Their founders struck a strong covenant with Satan and demons. They even display it on their currency, they further developed the demonic bonds (in quest for power and wealth) by making every other continent follow after them in the worship of Satan, whether consciously or unconsciously.


...Hollywood, their music industry, their political sector, the Catholic Church (don't be offended Catholics but it's true), the entry of other foreign cultural heritage and so on. These are all schemes carefully planned out to enslave people and make them worship after Satan in several ways.

Revelation 17 tells a lot about this.


America is a harlot. A spiritual harlot. The harlot talked about in the book of Revelation chapter 17. She is the center piece to the whole puzzle of the kingdom of darkness. More corrupt and satanic than any other government in this world.


Even though African witchcraft started a long time ago, back to the Egyptian era or maybe way before that, it doesn't have a huge network compared to what the whites have.

African witchcraft is done the way it is done to keep Africa as a poor continent. It is done for poverty and slavery to continue (while the whites witchcraft is done to enslave the whole word consciously or unconsciously). Even though slavery was abolished, slavery still goes on in Africa due to the level of poverty here, which is stongly backed up by witchcraft powers.


That is the reason why someone from your village will start attacking you with witchcraft, just because you managed to travel abroad. Or maybe just because you bought a new car or you built a new house or you just got married etc.. The envy and hatred of witches and wizards is already installed against that person, and the witchcraft powers will do their best to pull that person down.


Everything is strategically done to keep poverty intact in Africa or drive it even further.. The killings in the north, the terrorist bombings and killings that displaced so many people and made them homeless, the corrupt political sector that continuously embezzles the nation's wealth, the limitions and difficulties in foreign trade etc.


Everything. Everything points towards 'Poverty', which enslaves the African people in their minds and even has an effect spiritually. smh.


This is the agenda of the satanic kingdom to keep Africans in poverty and misery.

Even when Africans travel abroad, many are not given good jobs even if they are qualified. They are treated with disrespect and disdain. This is what Satan wants and so he puts all his efforts with his demons to keep it that way.


It is the kingdom of darkness that sponsors poverty in Africa. And the whites/America (those in occultism) have to keep it that way, so they remove any body or president that will lead Africa forward and install a person that will keep Africa in stagnancy.



If Nigeria moves forward, the yoke on Africa will be broken. They know this, so Nigeria becomes a primary target in the eyes of the enemy. Because if the enemy don't hold Nigeria down, many stars will rise up in every parts of the world and God will use them to bring terror to the enemy. What is the thing that is so special about Africa that made the whites force them into slavery, the racism, the fear of an average black person oversea etc.

What is that thing? It is the purpose of God that is predistined upon Africa to be used against the kingdom of darkness.


The enemy knows this that's why he used several people like Hitler to wipe out many Africans.
All the hatred and racism towards Africans have their roots in occultism. They can all be traced to a secret society. E.G. KKK, Iluminati, the Brotherhood etc.


Hmmm..

But I know this, no matter what the agenda of Satan is, all his efforts will be put to shame in Jesus Name. Amen. Isaiah 10:27.


Those that follow after Jesus are hidden in Him, and God will save them all from the hands of the enemy in Jesus Name. AMEN.


God bless you Providence and Nnamdi. Nice contributions

Lol...I Don hear oooooo. I've heard oil

kenevision:
Thanks for your kind words dear... I really appreciate them. More Grace to you in all your endeavors.

You're a superb writer. Humor, truth, honesty and openness surround your write ups. I love the way you take off when you heard the siren. Lol...I laugh die. I felt tears swell up my eyes when you were at the church, thinking of how to report Nigerian's enemies to God.
I smiled when you ran back and almost tripped on the kid playing on the floor.

One question I have for you. Think deeply before you reply. Its a school of thought. I need you to confirm it.
Yes I know you had a wonderful travel time. Travelling is education too. You learned a lot etc. I know ...but
When you came back, did u feel sadder and troubled?.

I'll explain. You were in a place with constant light, security, everything worked. Did you feel Berra or worse when you came back to the opposite of the things you enjoyed?

In all, I lived this in diary. Please mention me in any future travel thread you open. I know you'll travel very soon again. Peace.

providence338:
Nnamdi...my brother. Please hear me and hear me well...

White man juju strong pass Black man. Never forget this.

The only difference is they operate in the highest levels of occult magic. While we're dealing with witches gathering at the roundabout, whites have invented Hollywood/media (high witchcraft), Wall Street (high witchcraft), Racism/White Supremacy (high witchcraft), United Nations (high witchcraft), Vatican (witchcraft), IMF/World Bank (high witchcraft), CERN (high witchcraft), Sophisticated Weapons of War (high witchcraft), Georgia Guidestones/Illuminati 10 commandments (high witchcraft), GMOs (high witchcraft), Chemtrails (high witchcraft)...

I can go on and on... There's hierarchy in the dark kingdom. You won't find Africans operating in the upper levels with global influence, only whites do. The principalities in Africa submit to the stronger principalities around it, particularly those in Europe which is the strongest in this end-time dispensation. A glimpse at the behaviors of our sellout freemason African leaders across the continent proves this. For example, Buhari was installed (not elected) by the American gov't. The powers-that-be (which are NEVER African) want to further destabilize the continent for their NWO purposes, and the African witches which are relatively low in satan's hierarchical structure must comply with that plan.

Satan is the god of this world. (2 Cor 4:4). And the world has been given over to the wicked (Job 9:24). Think of satan tempting Jesus in the wilderness, with the kingdoms of the world. Africans did NOT enter into that type of covenant with satan...not at that level. But world history, current events and Biblical prophecy should tell us the people who DID...

I concurs my bro. Only that ours are more wicked.
Thanks for the eBook.

temi4fash:
Thanks Boss.

You get the soft copy...

Make me self read am

No boss. Sorry

kenevision:
Village people power no reach this side oooo. Can a witch even get a visa and pass through immigration?

Emapoooo *hands on my head* this guy no know.o... U never hear of Edo airline...that works only at mid night? I'm sure your an oyibo guy no real black man will ask that o

temi4fash:
My Oga...

can you tell us what the book is about..

Boss. I hail. Long time.
The book is very wonderful. It was written by a white man that God sent to Nigeria. Now, you know that oyibo people don't believe in winch or the supernatural like that? But God exposed black man juju to the man so he could go back and tell his fellow oyibo people that devil is real and powerful.
The white man is even a deliverance pastor. The book just summarizes his dealings with demons, demon possessed people , the gifts of God and miracles. Its worthy of being read.

The only reason why I said it isn't perfect is because most of what he says were told to him but former satanic people who are now Christians. They just told him what they were also told in their kingdom. And as we know...their former father is a liar.

kenevision:
I had barely closed my eyes when I saw myself in my father’s house, surrounded by my whole community. I was telling them a story of a beautiful land where there are no sorrows; a land of immense beauty, with magnificent hills and scenic valleys, a happy nation with happy people, where there is no hunger and deprivation, a land where justice reigns .

As I told them my story, I saw desire in them; desire to be free from all forms of societal ills that have formed part of their daily lives. Well, who wouldn’t be? When you come from a nation where hunger and starvation is the order of the day, where there is no respect for human lives, where unemployment has broken through the roof and aiming for the sky, where justice and rule of law is only read in the books of history, then you will desire above all to be free . I too wanted them to be free.

I opened my father’s old Golf 3 car and ushered them in. By some, perhaps spiritual technology beyond my understanding, my whole community was comfortably seated in a Golf 3 car . I was taking them to the land of freedom, in my father’s car. First we were driving, and later we were flying. I was the pilot, their pilot to freedom.

I could not recall how long we were on air when I opened my eyes, still weakly stretched on my bed. It was 4am in the morning and as usual, the sun was up. I felt so cold. If summer is this cold, I wonder how the winter will be. I knelt down and prayed, thanking GOD for the safe journey he granted me both on land and on air, thanking Him for this travel opportunity that has opened a new dimension of understanding in me. I took a hot shower, dressed up nicely and headed for the dining room for an Austrian breakfast.

It was 7am in the morning. I looked at the breakfast table, smiled to myself and gently loosened my belt. Food is ready!

Shebi na u won use your own hands carry village people come meet you bah? Ok continue. Don't bind and cast that dream.

drestoneokuta:
Good afternoon good people, please who have read the book:. Mysterious secrets of the dark Kingdom the battle for planet earth by JP Simmons? I want an opinion about it. Thank you

I have. Its authentic. Although not completely accurate
(off course only the bible is) Still pray for understanding . God bless

vaca1:
Haaa oohhhh ..me render servic..what kind of services will I render? . I am not worthy oo.
Ok , let me keep observing.

Yes o. U rendering services. No one is worthy. Not even the great G.Os. he calls the unworthy. (For by strength shall no man prevail). Note that it could any service. Children's teacher, teacher in church, counselor, pastor, apostle etc...anything at all. As the days goes on, he will be showing u more and more. Just relax, the puzzle will come into place as time goes on.
Sha don't go and be broadcasting it up and down o. Keep the dreams and the rest to come to yourself. Only tell proven and trusted people.

vaca1:
Na waoo. All these dreams I am dreaming. I am beginning to get scared oo.


CharlyG1 come to my help oo...

I had a dream where I was in the church and I was anointed on the forehead twice. I went for the 1st annointing alone and I went with one of my cousins for the second anointing..

Hahahaa.....e Don set for you. Baba God is in need of your services. Twice means confirmation.
He calls the unqualified and gives them the grace to be faithful.
Congrats

sholay2011:
Hello brethren.

I just slept and had a dream that I saw a former classmate/friend (lost contact with him) I knew then in the University (he used to preach to me then and discuss God's word) and I was so happy to see him. I think he was carrying a bible (not sure). He sat down asking how I am doing. I told him I am doing fine. He started saying some things I couldn't hear properly but I burst into tears telling him the truth that I am not fine.

I literally could feel someone holding my index finger and my leg (slightly lifted up) but couldn't open my eyes (thought it was a trance sef) but it was when I woke up I knew it was a dream and no tears in my eyes. But I wasnt scared.

I wasn't listening very well to my friend in the dream though cos I was pouring out my heart but was very aware I could physically feel someone holding my finger and leg while I am in bed (I am alone in the whole house, not just room).

2nd dream: The next thing I noticed was some people were driving on the road. I think I was also in a car. A woman came into the picture and just dropped something wrapped in black. In the dream, everyone ran for their lives as we all thought it was a bomb. I quickly picked one baby that was walking about to save him but the woman was later laughing and some people with her at we running for our lives and we realized it is not a bomb but something harmless wrapped in the black nylon to scare us.

Are the dreams related?

Cc: CharlyG1, nnamdiosu.

Hi shola. No...I don't think the dreams are related at all.

I only seem to have inspiration for the first dream. I didn't receive any leading for the second.

For your first dream: its a dream of consolation. Whatever you are passing through, God has heard. He will have mercy on you.
When one is drowning and he lifts his hand for help, the the part of you that you stretch out desperately as a last attempt for help is your index finger.
God has laid hold on your index finger and will draw you out. That's what you felt.

He will also lay hands on your leg and pull you out. You will receive help on two sides. Cry no more. Help is on its way. Amen

fineboynl:
how much it would cost me.

thanks

Freely I received, freely I give (knowledge). Won't reply you here again.

fineboynl:
OK, but I'm more consigned about the script code to change the email message to SMS please. can anyone help with the code

Yes. I can. Whatssap. 08164220091

GeeConn:
Thanks nnamdiosu

Finances, This is the main reason. Having left home last year, I saw myself as someone starting life afresh although late. with God helping me, I was able to clear my many debts, I stopped borrowing nd my finances was going up as I was working. I had a lot of plans to start business before end of my service(I was already working before callup came).

Now the problem is still this my family, they seem to have shifted their problems to me and I never realized it early. For instance last year Dec. I 4gave my parents nd sibs a debt of 120k which they took from me but could'nt pay back. Just this June again I paid up 200k for a loan & its intrest my mum took, as I was the guarantor. I have just finished my service this July with no meaningful savings for my plans. I have been so angry about all this that I refused nd have'nt spoken with my Dad since June. It's not that I don't help out in my little way.

I see it as a rippling effect of staying in that house is trying to infect me. I just informed my mum this sunday, that if they don't pack out of that house, they should kindly 4get relating with me. I have 4given them the debts but no more will any thing come 4rm my pocket as long as they are still living there. I encourage my sibs to stay in my place esp when they return 4rm school, I have told all of them my conversation with the last neighbour, if they will listen. I know God will see me through.

STEP 3: Dream life: Since in my new place now, I no longer have nightmares or wake up at night sweating heavily after bad dreams like in that house. As in eeh, the difference is like day nd night. I have good dreams now. For eg: After applying for redeployment from Kebbi to my state just to continue my work, I dreamt my papers were approved nd stamped and it came out so. and so many more.

I must give glory to God nd be thankful to all contributors here. This thread has helped me a lot. since reading this thread. I found out I have been remembering my dreams even with minutiae details and its meanings. All poniting to my spiritual feebleness and ***lusting. I pray God help meoooo.

I don't have sex in dreams but I watch porn in dream and physically, I wet my myself. Like last night, I dreamt were I throwing punch in a fight slowing like a baby, I was very ashamed. I find it very difficult to keep to prayer nd fasting time., my work too no gree me. Through out this July, I have personally decided to fast but always eat before 12pm.

Thank you very very much, am so grateful 4 ur cares.

Baba I'll just congratulate you first. 50% of your issues has been Solved.
Now I'll be frank with you. DONT GIVE ANYONE OF YOUR FAMILY WHO STILL STAYS IN THAT HOUSE ANY THING....DON'T.

ELSE, THEY WILL BE USED AS A POINT OF CONTACT TO AFFLICT YOU.
THE BONDAGE IN THAT HOUSE IS AN EASY ONE. IT BREAKS LOSE ONCE ITS VICTIMS LEAVE THE HOUSE. So now is you're recovery stage. Bit of u keep giving to people I'm that house....

For the dreams , thank God. Its well. You just need to be prayerful. The fasting too will help.
You're very lucky. Some never recovered.
But God helped you.
Its well

Enkaynwa:
Good evening sir. please what does it mean for one to be pouring out saliva(like vomiting) in the dream

Hello sir...
I would need you tell me the whole dream...instead of cutting in into bits. Every part of a dream is necessary to explain it. Also tour first reaction when you woke up. I'll need that too.
Thanks

GeeConn:
I packed out of their house Oct. last year. I slept in my own apartment last night. Thanks, am so grateful for your concern.

Ok. That's step 1... Passed.

Step 2. How is ur finances? Ur life in general?
Are things moving forward ?

Step 3: your dream life. How is it? What do you see? Night mares etc?

Elektra008:
Bro Charles, greetings to you. I just stumbled on this thread and within a few days I have been able to follow op to this 20 something page, my question is dis, is it possible to be a witch and not kno? Wen I was a little girl, I used to sleep with my body pressed against the wall, usually wen d weather is hot n d wall is cool, but my parent took dis to mean I was a witch n took me for deliverance in a semi white garment church,... That was d start of many 'deliverance' sessions. I was a regular child before den but after I became very fearful, lied a lot started stealing etc. I started to make up different stories about being a witch because the so called pastors will not believe me wen I tell Dem I wasn't one, I made up so many lies mostly from watching Nigerian films were dey show witches. All dat is d past now though it was a very traumatic period for me, but sometimes I wonder maybe truly dere was a fire dat caused d smoke. Like was I a witch, ever since I was little, I hate seeing ppl suffering, I always wished I Cld hlp somehow, at the same time I sometimes have terrible dreams... I just pray and forget it though. I am married now, and my second child is 3 yrs old and also like sleeping against d wall, sometimes he even raises his legs on the wall and it does not bother me though I worry outsiders may notice dat and start claiming nonsense about him sha.

Chai. Its well. Abeg leave the child to enjoy his or her sleep. Although its possible for someone to be a witch without knowing it, I feel yours was over exaggerated by your religious superstitious parents and their gullibility was capitalized on by the false profits who saw that as an opportunity to gain money?

Nowadays...real witches don't pit legs on walls. They know we know that old trick. They've upgraded. Indomie generation witches are sophisticated.
Peace

GeeConn:
Good morning Everyone & esp @ CharlyG1

I have been reading this thread for over a week now... Pls I don't know where to start telling. I'm really ashamed of my life right now.

As I can trace, my family trouble began when we packed into this building. Immediately my parents business started crumbling, They sold their 3 shops , closed their factory with 10 workers, sold off their 3 cars nd drivers...Numerous properties too... We began hawking in the town ooo...We the children were delayed. I wasted 6yrs @ home b4 entering Uni all because of finance, My Sister stayed 7yrs nd rest...

When the threat of ejection worsened, as we could'nt keep up with the payment, we subletted one self con room @ the ground floor to a tenant and another self con room to another tenant so as to help with the rent payment.
Now see this, no tenant stays more than a year without packing out in tatters nd debts, we are with the 3rd tenant now. As in eeh, it is stinking. After reading dis thread, I jus gathered courage and called d last tenant yesterday to tell me what he felt about the House. Infact, he proved my fears right. He said that his Prophet told him d house was enchanted, that he should pack out immediately. It was his delay dat nearly brought him to nothing. He told me of many attacks in dream when he was there. He finally said,He ran out of that house without shishi last year but now he can boast of million...Pls I don die abeg.

I seriously think that house is bad, Recalling expericenes now; my siblings always dream of dead relatives nd friends whenever they sleep in d room downstairs. The first time I had sleep paralysis, witch pressing and wetting my boxers was in dat room. Once, I had vomitted out physically when i dreamt someone came through the door nd poked stick into my mouth. It was a mess. A pastor friend pass the night in dat room, only to wake up showing us his swollen head where he recieved 2 hard knocks from unknown things. We stupidly laughed it off.
Earlier when we packed in, little children including my lil sis complained of seeing scary things when it gets dark... Am sobbing ryt now... Am ashamed of my self nd my parents now, I have lost years

Rumour had it, that the last tenant was forcefully ejected for non payment, the prevoius tenant's mum or sis commited suicide in that room.

I just pray things are as easy as u posted. Sorry 4 my long post pls.

@ CharlyG1 nd others, Pls I really need ur help, advice nd prayers.

@ CharlyG1 can u give me ur num... this is mine. 09022659922

I just have one question to ask......presently where r u staying? Did you sleep in that house last night?

drestoneokuta:
Secondly.... I was at a pool, which belongs to me. The pool was without water, dry and Desolate. Then I saw a man in white robe which I believe to be Jesus, he came to the pool and caused it to rain in it, saw him standing on the pool. Filled up the pool with water, the water was so clear and pure, blue in colour.. Then he started spreading tiny green leaves at the end of the pool towards what seems like the entrance to the building were the pool was located. I joined him in spreading the tiny green leaves along side with from the end of the pool towards the gate, walking at the end of the pool to maybe dry land towards the gate. After that I went back to the pool to swim in it, tiny birds in the sky also came to the pool to add beauty to it. I was so happy that the pool was filled with water and I shouted for joy, thanking God for making my Desolate pool beautiful, it was so beautiful I didn't remember how ugly it was and my pain was wiped out. It was the joy that woke me up

U don't need anyone to tell you what this means right?

'He gave beauty for ashes'

You've been highly favoured.
Just begin to thank, worship and praise God.
Its done

iamharkinwaley:
Really ?
What can one do this? I mean I wish I could have more than this, like experience more than this little
I want to be like you guys.... no games o serious bro

Be contented with what you have. God gave each of us different gifts. They ha e theirs. You have yours. Don't desire that which you were not created to carry.
Every flower is beautiful in its own way. Peace

Demogorgon:
The second one;


I saw myself at the bank of a stream in the company of two of my old friends. I can remember how one looked like but the other, i cannot remember how his face looked like now, although, in this very dream i knew both were my old friends.

So, i was just there, the one i remember how his face looked like was taking his bath in the stream.

Suddenly, he was looking for his shirt because he wanted to put it on. He saw it later on, in the inside the water - like the stream was taking it away and he grabbed it.

A call came through his phone and the caller told us to come to another place to pluck coconuts. So my two friends took a bamboo stick and he left there to the place were they called us. I followed them behind as we passed through a bushy path.

After the bushy part, we met a river. We were going to cross over to the other side i.e we are swimming through it.

One of my friend jumped it( the one i knew), he swam to the other part. The second did the same thing - Few sprints on the water, jumped in and swam across. He was fast. It was my turn.

As i was about jumping in, something weird happened. The spot where i stood immediately started going up - like a huge tree sprouted from the Spot. I found myself on top of the tree. It was so high. I have never seen a thing like that. I saw something like a rock beneath the river. I tried to come down from this but i couldn't.

One was urging me to jump down and me was like how'd you expect me to jump down when i could see a rock.

Immediately i was in another scene, i think along that bushy part. It was just me. I remember addressing someone who i didn't get to see the face as "Prince of Peace" . I was praising him i think..

I woke up

Cc CharlyG

Hi brother.
1. Your two dreams are related. They are both joined.

2. They are good dreams. Especially the second very good.

3. It speaks of a blessing (the ripe fruits). A blessing that you will be in a position to bless others too (when you shared them without resentment) Appears you have the gift of generosity and equity....(when you called back he who had more than 2 ). seems God already knows your heart and has decided to bless you so you could be a source of blessing to others in your life (your school).

4. However there will be people who will envy you...(spiritual enemies. that mama)but you will easily overcome them.

5. Somewhere within this blessing in the future....there will be issues. Issues that will arise at the zenith of your blessing and lifting up. But the prince of peace himself (Jesus), will deliver you safely.

I perceive now in my spirit as I'm typing this, you are a good hearted person. Pure at heart. Not perfect, but innocent. Doesn't keep people or things in heart. God loves people like this.
God bless you. Ask God for the physical manifestation.

madprophet:
Good morning my prophet sir,
You have casted me here oo.. Make God help all of us..
My prophet, I greet you sir..

Lol...sorry sir. Just that wen I read the diary, I couldn't hide back the wonderful wisdom and advises in them from others.
How r u sir

citycorecoop:
hello all,

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Message me on on WhatsApp....08164220091

Hi guys. So its being a while I posted. Its well. God has being faithful...despite my weakness and sins.

So last week I stumbled upon a thread by one of us called madprophet . fantastic thread. It revived me. I began to feel revive. It was like I finally saw someone....who I could identify with. Funny enough we go to the same church and I could identify with many of his mode of operation and all. Its well . I advise everyone to follow the thread. https://www.nairaland.com/3724794/diary-mad-prophet

How are we all doing. I know how it is. Many times it seems like God mistakenly deleted us from his list of creations. Or we feel our sins are too big or God is tired of us. Lol.
I came specifically to encourage all of us. God loves us. See, you can't surprise God. He knows you more than you. Your weaknesses all all. Talk to him honestly and tell him how you feel.
Don't be focused on good dreams as a sign of a good standing with God. Truth is, many true children of God have attacks most times in their dreams. Are we aware that the best of soldiers are those who have battle scars. Not those with fresh skin.

Let's not be wary. Let's not be downcasted.
God knows all. He will come and save you. Its well.
Amen

vikono:
God has been faithful in my life
one of my greatest miracles came up when I was in first semester in my final year

I was financially handicapped, as such I wanted to defer the semester,but one of my classmates came to my rescue 2months to our exams.He paid for all my fees and encouraged me to continue.

After doing my late registration, many of my lecturers advised me to just defer the semester because exams is fast approaching, most of my friends advised same

I pray to God dat if it's just pass,he should help me but I shouldn't have any carry over

Lo and behold when our result came out, I was the Best student in my dept,the only student in the highest category (I believe u know what dat means)

I put faith in God, and worked hard, and he surprised me above my expectation
HE IS A
FAITHFUL GOD

This kind of God sef....I just don't understand him.
He will do something that will make one to open his mouth in wonder, and when everyone is amazed and shocked, he will just casually smile and say... I've not Even started sef...this is a warm up.

This kind God..na wa.
Wonderful testimony. God bless you

ForgiveMeSister:
I'm sorry. I don't deserve to live anymore. I'm like a Shepherd who has eaten the lamb entrusted to his care.

I have betrayed my cousin's trust. I'm deeply sorry. I don't even think I have the right to say it was just fingering (I'm very disgusting) when she caught me. I don't think I even deserve for any human to talk to me. I'm deeply sorry. I regret everything.

She is 20 years old, and I'm a shameless 31 years old idiot. This is a girl who calls me "brother" when she woke and saw me touching her in ungodly manner, she regretfully asked me in low tone and in disappointment "Brother what are you doing?, Brother what are you doing?" I couldn't say anything other than "Sorry please forgive me", I could see she sounded looked betrayed. I don't deserve her forgiveness let alone her love
ever again. (I'm the worst cousin anyone can dream of)

She went outside and started crying, she was angry, her anger grew even worse when I approached her and went on my kneel to apologizing, seeing me makes hers furious and she told me to just get out of her sight because the pleading makes her even hate me more and she might do something stupid to me or to herself.

She was furious and I don't know what to do, she was being consumed by anger thinking of what I just deed to her but, I know it wasn't just about what happened to her but "the person that did it", As she was angry I needed her to do whatever that would make anger go away. She said she might do something stupid I was ready to take anything (other than harming herself ) so that she could put the anger somewhere. So I didn't leave her presence, I continued begging her as my presence now disgust her, my hands became filthy, my word became very irritating to her and she started slapping, hitting and pushing me, finally she broke my plastic chair into pieces and started crying.

I'm sorry sister.

She cried and lamented about her situation and how she trusted me, I was silent all through because any words from my mouth make her angry. She now hates me ultimately; it is exactly in the same measure of the love she had for me.

We were best friends/cousins, there is nothing in this life she would do without telling me or seeking my advice, I'm the only person she trusted in our whole family to the extent of feeling very free with me to sleep in the same bed with me. Actually we have been sharing the same bed since she came to my place for an academic program and I have never done a thing of this nature before.

I hate myself now because this singular act of great irresponsibility has already cancelled every good thing I have done for her and yet to do. I don't think there would ever be an ultimate remedy. What really came over me?

I know the gravity of what I have done and I have lost her love and trust forever, I know I had just caused her to hate me passionately, I hate myself. She cried and hit me with anything she could found and I let her because I needed her to put her anger on me or something.

I know I'm not worthy to write this, but please I'm not writing to gain your pity, I don't deserve it. I'm writing to beg you guys/girls to help me, I deserve lashes as I expect a lot of it but, please consider her, for her sake What can I do to make her feel better.

Is there any possibility that she would ever forgive me again? I want it so bad but, I'm ready to let her heal as long as it takes but, I just wish she could just forgive me sincerely because that's the only way she can get over that betrayal of trust.

Bro. Its OK. No need to beat yourself further. The deed has been done and can't be undone.
1. You need to seek forgiveness from God

2. Then you need to forgive yourself. People have made worst mistakes. And they over came.

3. What happened to u wasnt ordinary. You need therapy. So it doesn't repeat itself. You need a change of environment too.

4. For now, leave your cousin. Don't communicate wit her for now. ensure she's fine and well chartered for. Then leave the environment.

5. She might hate you for life. What you did isn't easily forgivable. So don't blame her. And don't blame the devil too.

6. Lastly work on your self. Your thought process. You allowed to many strangers to invade your mind. Get a job, business ,hobby. Anything to engage ur mind OK.

Its.well. just breath.

I'm here if you want to.talk.

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wise quote made by someone many years back. I sat to think about it and discovered that, all my abusing buhari, APC, government , my village people etc, wont bring money to my pockets. No. All i had to do was think.Then act.

MANY OF US GO TO CHURCH.BINDING.CASTING.LOSING.DISTURBING OUR VILLAGE PEOPLE FOR NOTHING
meanwhile we are the architect of our poverty

One day, we wont have the strength to work. What will we do then??
Me, i have a plan. To get an automated vtu portal, that operates by itself.
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FINANCIAL FREEDOM IS A CHOICE , NOT A DREAM. YOU CAN BE FREE

wise quote made by someone many years back. I sat to think about it and discovered that, all my abusing buhari, APC, government , my village people ���� etc, wont bring money to my pockets. No. All i had to do was think.Then act.

MANY OF US GO TO CHURCH.BINDING.CASTING.LOSING.DISTURBING OUR VILLAGE PEOPLE FOR NOTHING
meanwhile we are the architect of our poverty����

One day, we wont have the strength to work. What will we do then??
Me, i have a plan. To get an automated vtu portal, that operates by itself.
AS LONG AS MOBILE PHONES EXIST, AND PEOPLE BUY AIRTIME AND DATA, BY THE GRACE OF GOD I'LL NEVER GO HUNGRY.
think about it

Contact us today on 08164220091 to set up your VTU SITE.You are free to pay installmentally.

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