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papyjaypaul:
The genesis of all your revelation and lamentation. Why

You will learn how to be nice with this encounter. Respect is a good thing in Africa but if the elder does not respect himself, do not let them disrespect you. You are now becoming a MAN but let me correct something boy. Yes I call you boy for this cowardly piece:



This is a cowardly thing to say and think of. So you want to give up like this? Welcome to the world son. Go and watch animal kingdom and see how cowardly that thought is. My son, this life is a life of struggle. We are like hyenas and lions but you must fight for your spot. The weak ones die easy because they cowardly quit fighting.

This experience is an initiation to your manhood. How you handle it will establish your place in society. Your father has lived his life, now it is time to live yours. Go and look into the mirror and ask yourself what your father would have thought if he heard you think that way. He did not give birth to a weak boy, he gave birth to Super onyi. Do not disappoint him.

They cannot retrain you at 22 years old. The past is gone already. what you have herr are bullies trying to take advantage of you because they have information about you. Let me tell you, if you don't stop it now, they will continue to ride you like free Uber. Stand up to them, don't disrespect them. You pay the bills, tell the man to leave. Pass the lighter the way they passed it to you. Why do you think your big cousin sent him to you?I am sure his wife could no longer tolerate him, he had to save his marriage. You are a nice guy but people take advantage of seniority to bully young people. There is nothing wrong in saying you want him out because you pay the bills man. Don't cut off family but let them know who you are. That they cannot try any stunt with you because you be Onyi. Onyi that is generous with kindness and no-nonsense.

For what people say, people will always talk. You are a dangerous person because you don't talk too much. Just put your ears to the ground and talk less. Act more with wise decisions. Keep working on yourself while they keep talking. That one is not your truth. Your truth is who you choose to become in life, not what others are choo choo chooing about you. The choice is yours..

I appreciate the brutal truth, sir. I was just trying to be that loyal brother but I don't know why he keeps judging me when he only met me recently. He was even yelling and insulting me so loud that my neighbors could heard everything. These are people that respect me so much because I've never had any issue with anybody in the neighborhood.

It's not like I'm a weakling or look like a single broom, I'm physically fit yet he kept saying he was gonna beat me up. He also talked about how my big brother who's physically challenged was more sensible than me. What will I gain being more "sensible" than my big brother?

I'm sorry for talking about death but that's being a part of me since I was a kid.

papyjaypaul:
Stay on your lane. Any bus stop wey na agbero full there, no stop dere, keep moving. Find your peace. Some people are family because blood let them, some people are family because they brought peace to you. Find your peace, keep the pieces apart.

Thanks a lot sir.

ForValour:
IF ONLY THIS EPISTLE COULD BE MORE LUCID...

No, it can't... It's more of a diary or journaling than an article.

It's all good... It's being documented here and like I told him (sounds stupid but I was tired), I haven't intentions of living a long life so when I die, he can go ahead and tell people at my funeral everything he just said about me.

I guess it's my fault because I'm involved. It's just a misunderstanding but the fact that he refuses to let go of his sentiments means we might never get to be good friends or brothers. I'm fine with that as long as he's happy.

For now, I'm focused on fulfilling my promise to my father — I told him as he laid lifeless that I will wipe Mom's tears away and stay alive for her sake. I will use the anger to make progress instead of holding grudges against him. I'm on my lane unfazed.

What exactly do humans want? I swear I can tell there are a lot of things him and my bigger cousin talks about me which can be assumptions since I barely talk. But at least, my bigger cousin probably never takes that so serious because he has never been so aggressive to me.

Is it my fault that I'm an introvert just like them? They want me to start telling the world that I suffer from PTSD, depression, anxiety, and etc? Is it because I don't talk about my struggles? What exactly is going on?

He just wants to asserts dominance over me but I wish he would also take care of my responsibilities.

If I take everything he said about me seriously then I would leave my own house for him this night. Imagine telling me the suffering I faced in that Nwaboi apprenticeship was the best for me, losing all of my teenage years... Not getting a penny and accused of theft.

To think that my little brother called me today and told me how his Madam (they're connected to the man I served) was mocking me. What exactly did I do to this people? I have never seen this woman for years or even talked to her. Why the hatred?

Here's my own cousin saying that was the best for me when he couldn't even learn handwork because he felt insulted? C'mon...

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I was literally fuming inside because I know he was gonna push the blame on me as usual and talk about how I've been looking down on him — something I've been avoiding!

Bro kept ranting and didn't hesitate to trashtalk my experience at the Nwaboi apprenticeship and how my boss was probably right. Mind you, my neighbors who knows nothing about my personal life were all listening.

He called me brainless, talked about my late father even after telling him I'm mourning him so why opening old wounds. It's like literally mocking me for not growing up with father, why talking about my father??

He said all manner of things that I don't even want to put down here but I already made it clean to him that since he's refused to let go of his sentiments, I will no longer try to make him change. He was indirectly saying my little brothers would treat me just like I did to him and I said AMEN.

I'm not perfect and it's all being love for him but instead of talking to me like a man, he's literally telling the whole world sh*ts they never knew about me. Talking about how he was gonna beat me up till I bled.... like I was a weakling? Or maybe because I don't like exchanging blows with my own brother?

So, the blood flowing in my veins is fake because I didn't grow up in Igboland but one of the greatest Igbo person was born in Northern Nigeria — Ikemba Ojukwu.

Honestly, I'm trying to figure out what exactly I did wrong to this man even after telling him that no human is perfect? You ignored me and since I knew confronting you was gonna escalate the issue plus I'm an introvert, I decided to play along. I'm tired of being judged by these people who don't know me enough until 2021... This dude literally just met me in 2022 🤦🏿‍♂️.

Recently, he started ignoring me and since I understood his personality, I ignored him too and stopped greeting him since he didn't answer my greetings. He then started to talk to me and it was all good until he didn't answer my greetings for 5 times! Something told me it was because I haven't been fetching the water which he uses "lavishly" despite the fact we live in a ghetto.

He kept ignoring and reported me to my bigger cousin. My bigger cousin called me yesterday on my father's death anniversary and I explained that he ignores me so I decided to keep to myself because I don't want any problems.

Dude just came back today and as usual I had to stay in my lane, he started asking me to come inside the room with a very harsh voice. I was sitting at the entrance of my room where I stayed for some seconds before I reluctantly turned around to face him. He kept yelling that I should come closer and how he was gonna "deal" with him. My neighbors were literally hearing all these...


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Let me make it clear that I'm gonna be 22 tomorrow and this cousin of mine claims to be 28/29. So, he's technically my older brother. I call him "brother" like a typical Nigerian does.

So when my bigger cousin told me he had decided to let him come learn the business but he didn't want him to stay with him and his wife to avoid problem. I already knew where he was heading too, I told him that he can come stay with me even though I knew this dude had crazy sentiments about me.

I was just trying to help my fam. Ever since he started staying with me, I've been the one doing everything so he can feel comfortable. Even when I was so broke, I still paid half of the rent rather than ask anyone for rent. I'd even cook for the two of us and yes, he started replicating too... I even told him he didn't have to...

I was trying to be the loyal brother, I even left the bed for him so he can sleep on a comfy bed. I do the dishes, fetched the water even as I'm currently fasting, sweep... you know what I mean?

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I really want to put this down to serve as a reminder and a sort of a diary, if you got any input, it's all good.

Last year, my bigger cousin called me to inform me his little brother hasn't been doing anything tangible and he doesn't know what to do because the young man has wastes mot of his years. He said the situation is making him overthink, I comforted him and asked him to let come learn his business since the guy (his little brother) stopped learning the handwork they registered for him. His excuse was that his boss always insults him like a kid.

Mind you, before now, I've met this guy months ago before that call, that was wh I was living with my bigger cousin. One of the first things he told me when we met was that he heard that I was "stubborn" and how I left the Nwaboi apprenticeship, he even talked about how he was gonna deal with me. He sounded playful but I knew he had these crazy sentiments about me.

I remember how he became authoritative within a short time of meeting me — this was my first time in my adult life I met my cousins. He started insisting I come to my bigger cousin's shop after working overnight in the bakery I worked. He started ignoring my greetings, I later got to find out (according to him) it was because I didn't answer him when he told me to get him something — hat was when I had just returned from work and trekked a long distance. Funny enough, I didn't even know he ever talked to me...

He yelled and yelled that day, threatening hell... I was surprised because I had just met this guy and he was already saying I know nothing about being a true brother, I was senseless, and etc. Even when I told him I understand him and I wanted to be on my own, he started talking about how I was rejecting my brothers... He said a lot of things so loud so the neighbors would hear and wouldn't let me speak... He wouldn't stop talking about how I didn't grow up in Igboland and blablabla.



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Afam4eva:
it is utterly shameful to be a Nigerian in 2013. I could sense a deep anger and regret for God making that lady a Nigerian. She never asked for it but unfortunately she was placed in a place that have 1diots as leaders. I won't blame her if she burns her Nigerian passport. It's good riddance to bad rubbish.

This comment was made in 2013, this shows that Nigeria has never been better. It just gets worst as time passes.

SuperOnyi:


Day 4


You live forever in my heart, dad ♥️.

(My trashass phone ain't letting me post the pic).

Day 5 I went to get my gallon filled up with water, it's dark already but I'm unstoppable.

Most black people demand ridiculous respect and worshipping from anybody with the same skin color as theirs but it's okay for other "races" to ride on them.

Rest in peace, Ikemba Ojukwu.

Lovelyn451:
they're envious of igbos na, the few naturally fair ones among them gets married to rich men, so the dark ones has to upgrade

Shut your mouth, this is nonsense! I've got Igbo blood flowing in me too but some of y'all on nairaland are trashtalkers. There are millions of dark skinned Igbos, one of the greatest Igbo and African is dark skinned — he is Sir Ikemba Ojukwu!

EreluRoz:
You are aggressive with a raging hormones, when you are chilled then you can mention me.

By the way I'm eating a delicious meal here, I won't share I'm very stingy

EreluRoz:
Not here to please you with my comments. You will act differently in reality

Just shut up and go touch grass, there are a lot of people that are lightskinned but not "good-looking". And you think I'm here to please you with my comments by lying? If you think that because you're lightskinned, it automatically means you're beautiful then you're delusional.

Imagine an African calling another "monkey" because she's "darker" than him , black people!

And by the way, I'm not even darkskinned — just spitting facts.

EreluRoz:
Black don't crack. A bleached skin is very irritating, if you are not naturally lightskin then don't even try to kos it'll definitely destroy your skin,so be comfortable just the way you are.

Though naturally light skinned ladies are more attractive than dark skinned ladies, don't let the hypocritical words of men on the internet deceive you, they do the opposite in reality.

Most of your comments are so irritating! Why generalizing? A beautiful dark skinned lady would move mountains, if it was all about being lightskinned then all Europeans are good-looking.

SuperOnyi:




Day 3


I feel so lazy, I need to get back to writing asap.

Day 4


You live forever in my heart, dad ♥️.

(My trashass phone ain't letting me post the pic).

Thank you, the message is well-received. I'm not materialistic but I need that money as long as I'm able to provide for the fam and help others, I'm good.

Money is just a necessary evil that must be controlled by people (like me) with good intentions, otherwise the world will suffer.

nurd:
They are profitable if you can get the illustration well. It's that part that keeps me from writing them.

I can draw, I was researching today and came across some of these children's book and although, I don't have the equipments these guys have, I feel like I can put my drawing talent to good use. Although, it's been long I drew something... I wanted to head to a bookstore to get these plain white papers and after drawing everything, I will edit them on canva.

nurd:
Profitable topic in the Pic attached.

Amazon.com > new releases > travel guides > united states > Alaska.

Now I've given you fish and also how to fish.

Thanks a lot, boss. I really appreciate, let me get into this immediately before I go into the children's book.

nurd:
Not up to 20k. More like 15k.

For example, I may create a 100 page book and price at 8.99. If it sells well, I'll look at the top two books in the niche. In most cases, they'll be priced at 12.99 and above. If they both have like 150 pages or do, I may bump my to like 120 pages and price at 9.99 or 10.99. This is how I personally do it.

Boss, what do you think of children's book? I plan to illustrate it myself in a 'manual' way.

I miss having a father I can call "daddy"... Man... I wouldn't have become a doctor and dedicate my life to eradicating diabetes but now, I never even got the chance to go to college.

Daddy, I will work my way to the top just like the patriarch of the Rothschild family and eradicate poverty. I love you, man... I wish you were here... It was hard, it is hard...

Ever since you left, it's been hell — I've been a mess, I overstress but still can't progress, and it fvcking hurts. You left me when I was just a kid and I had to shoulder responsibilities that even adults run away from! You left me in the hands of narcissist like Chris Naco who made me question my sanity and contemplated suicide multiple times.

I could have done it but thinking about Mother and my siblings, I had to reconsider and put them first.

Life is hard, it's like I'm on a marathon race with bullet wounds and no water or food. Daddy, do you know how hard it was swallowing the fact that we were literally talking about my 13th birthday that night only to be wake up in the midnight to find out that you ain't breathing?!

Daddy, do you know how these people treated me especially after you left? Daddy, imagine Madam Chris Naco asking 13 year old me "when did that your father die?" 😡. Like, losing my daddy was traumatizing enough! Dad, Chris Naco blamed me for everything wrong — I was just a little boy forced to grow up.

Daddy, do you know I had to lie about my age and act older in order to fit in and get those dirty menial jobs? Do you know that despite that you promised that you were gonna make sure I fulfill college, they manipulated Mother into persuading me into Nwaboi apprenticeship? Do you know I was accused of all manner of evil and didn't get a penny after I decided to leave?

Man, I'm gonna be 22 two days from now and I can't even celebrate it when I can't get over the fact that you died on 26 two days before my birthday! Dad, I wish you were still here but you have become so distant in my memory because it hurts everytime I picture you — daddy, I hate the way I remember you 😢.

I was looking for your picture on my phone I asked sis to send to me last year but honestly, I don't need the picture of my dad, I need the real thing! Now, I can never get to know how that father's love feels like ever again.

I've been trying to make it up to Momma but I've been away from home so long because I was used and dumped after that devilish Nwaboi apprenticeship. I'm scared because I might end up unaliving myself if anything happens to her.

Dad, your boy is getting older. Life has been unfair, I'm trying to give Mom and the fam a better life so I can leave this planet as soon as possible but she hates the fact that I don't fancy "long life". Dad, when I have kids... Dad... my mental health is a mess, it's gotten worst since you left... Dad, I have beards now... Dad, I finished high school and got good grades in waec. Dad, wish you were here... I miss you... I will never get to see you again 😭. Dad... where you at?

Daddy, help me. Daddy...

I miss you 😢.

Sportspredicto:
No testing, just subscription.

@obamartins and other bosses in the house 🙌🏿, I wish I can get just one profitable title from any of you.

SuperOnyi:



Day 2


I'm too poor to afford failure.

Day 3


I feel so lazy, I need to get back to writing asap.

DKM123:
You abba190, The expelled paed0phile ex school teacher Victor Omerigwe aka HellVictorinho6 aka abba190 aka TrustNone aka EbenezerTriumph aka keet13 aka MrsAminaBello (and 40 other monikers) are an unrepentant career sc@mmer. So I am not surprised your mission on earth is to lead young boys to p£nury


See ehn, I will keep coming for you until you cough out every penny you sc@mmed from the p00r widowed mother of 4. She will be your last victim. I assure you.

Abba, is it this true?

sukkot:
MOORS means Black. They were called moors cuz they were black. Moor is old English way of saying BLACK

Maybe one day when a true black nation emerges, we will know out true history but we need to look more at the future so that nation can exist. We are literally powerless and at the bottom, the earlier Nigeria breaks up, the better for the back race but till then, enjoy the crumbs from Europeans and Asians.