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Sulabicontent12:
Who am I?That is the first question I ask myself without waiting for anyone to ask me.I am many things far different from something because I have so many characters and attitudes some of which are good and rewarding and some of which are bad and questionable.one of those bad character I have is my high level of been sexually manic which lead me to become too addicted to masturbation.
Stripping myself naked alone in a room and striking my male organ repeatedly as if I was playing a guitar for a rock and roll music just because I want to get an erotic sexual feeling and sudden ejaculation with utmost pleasure.
What of the times when I had turned my pillow to a sex doll,drag it closer to myself and having carnal knowledge with it and eventually soaking the stuffed fabric with my semen.
Though clinicians consider masturbation as a normal and healthy practice but mine is unhealthy and abnormal because my addiction to masturbation has grown to the level of I been encircled in fetishism,l no longer think of having a sexual partner and my hope of marrying a woman as my bride is already dead.
I don't have a sex doll but yet I have two non-living wives lying on my bed at all times and ready to satisfy me.What are they? That should be no other objects than my pillows.
Even without the pillows I can still enjoy masturbation which I constantly practice by laying or sitting down naked and touching, pressing, rubbing and massaging my penis and scrotum.
I am beginning to feel masturbation as a spiritually detrimental practice because I seems to be under an evil spell which I am eagerly waiting for someone who would pray and give me a spiritually deliverance from this act which l find difficult to abstain from.
I also learnt that there is no casual relationship between masturbation and any form of mental disorder but how am I sure that my phycological health is not damaged or getting into risk,as long as psychology is the study of the mind and how it affects behaviors,Ii believe mine needs aa thorough medical checkup because not only when I am reading or viewing pornography, sexual fantasies or other erotic stimuli content s,even just sighting a woman's smiling face in aa magazine or when browsing through the internet gets. me sexually aroused you and prompt me to engage in this disturbing act called Masturbation.What can I do?
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