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We are the 22th of May. I just marked the 105th day completed. Yes, I passed the 100 days checkpoint. This is major. I have never done this in my entire life. Nonetheless, I want to mention that I happened to watch about six or seven risqué and semi-nude pictures while browsing online for less than a second each. It was accidental and not on a pörn site. It has been 105 days since I have been in any pörn site, or watched a pörn video, or read a pörn comic/manga. I have 260 more days to go! It is exceedingly hard, but we fight. |
Ninety-three days completed. The fight is still hard. I can say ‘fuçk it’ and open a pòrn website. But no! I can’t succumb. I don’t want to succumb. I have higher objectives in life. I have a family to get back to. I have an Africa to build. I have a semester to pass. I have skills to acquire. I have plans to establish. I have a world to explore. I can’t be drowning in lust when I have all these things. I should focus on my work. It is hard, and that is why only strong men can make it. I have three quarters left in this journey. |
I am happy right now. My life is not perfect but I feel like a wholesome human being. Being able to live out of perversion is a blissful experience. I do not even dream about fücking that much. Many of my thoughts are now about my future, my life, and philosophy. Life just feels overall better. I appreciate the trees, the waters, the soils. I appreciate people, I greet them with a smile and wish them well. I am thankful to all the material and immaterial entities that encouraged/facilitated this semen retention journey. Thank you so much. (365 - 81) days left. |
It is easy to be weak. Right now, nothing prevents me from closing the door and the curtails, getting under my couch, and viölating myself while watching questionable strangers having acted intercourse in another country. I can do it. I can 100% do it. My flesh wants me to do it. But my mind doesn’t. I can’t let my flesh rãpe my mind. My will has to be harder than my pénis. It is exceedingly tough. But we resist. If it was easy, it would not be very valuable. Only the strongest survive. I am the strongest. Sixty-three days completed, 302 days left. I simply can’t fail now. I have already endured for so long. I have to keep up. Ten months ahead. Ten months to endure. |
Crossing the two-months bar was not easy. These last two days, I felt strong sexual urges. I truly want to fück…. Even though I do not want a woman. Let me explain. Right now, I am not particularly interested in any woman. There is no woman who I like. There is not woman who I would like to have deep serious conversations with. There is no woman I would like to lead. There is no woman who I would like to have kids with. There is no woman who I would to take care of in the long term. There is no woman I would like to be in a meaningful relationship with. Why do I think about women every day then? It is just because I am hôrny. My body wants to ejaculate. Pòrn and mastürbation are out of the way, for reasons I mentioned before. The only outlet left to quench my thirst is the woman. So, I start to think about the woman. This is all. Women do not have any power over me. I think that women in general do not have any power over men. It is lust that has power over men. That lusts directs them to women, and women exploit it in their advantage. Remove lust from men and watch how powerless women become. A thought crossed my mind as I was resisting sexual urges. What if I could feel this same vibrant lust for something meaningful? What if I had a strong lust for learning languages? What if I had a strong lust for improving my expression (writing, speaking, drawing, graphic design)? What if I had a strong lust for polishing my mathematical abilities? What if I had a strong lust for sculpting my body? What if I had a strong lust for contributing to a better society? What if I had a strong lust for taking my whole family out of poverty? What if I had a strong lust for becoming an expert in many domains? What if I had a strong lust for understanding myself, my past, and my future? What if I had this same strong lust to have a meaningful existence? It is high time I rethought my desires. Three hundred and three more days. I keep going. |
53 days completed. There are only two types of people: people who succumb and those who resist. I choose to be in the second group. I will endure during these 312 days left. I was so pumped up when I wrote: "there are only two types of people: people who succumb and those who resist." That motivated me so hard to keep up retaining and abstaining from sex/pòrn/mastürbation. When I wanted to stroke myself, I thought: "Are you among the ones who succumb? No! Stay in the battlefield!" |
I am on a 41-day streak out of porn and masturbation. This is great! I had never gone this far since I first ejaculated from watching porn. This is a huge victory. I intend on completing 365 continuous days on semen retention. 324 more steps ahead. |
I realized that as a man, I should not care about women in this life. I should take women out of my focus. I should not do things for women. And I should focus on myself, my ancestry, and nature. No, I have not been heartbroken. No, I have not been hurt by any woman. No woman has ever done me anything wrong, really. But I have eyes, and I can see. And what I see is that women are not reliable and a man is better off not trusting women. It was not easy for me to accept that. |
I have been keeping up with the challenge pretty well now. It has been at least 20 days since I masturbated or watched porn. I am happy about this. I feel like a recovering addict. I want to live a live fully free of porn and I am fighting for that. By the way, it does not even feel like a fight anymore. I just don’t watch porn. I just don’t masturbate. I fully acknowledge and accept my sexual urges, but I don’t canalize them toward porn or masturbation. Either I try to put them away because I want to think about other things or I start to fantasize about what I would do and how it would feel to have an available woman next to me. I am getting slightly hard writing this. I also notice that I am more in tune with my sexuality. I understand my body and my mind better. China White’s content certainly has a lot to do with this. Currently I feel much happier, fulfilled, and lively than in my porn addiction days. I don’t want to be a man guided by sex and lust like most men these days. I want to win this challenge. 345 more days to go! |
What do I do then? What do I do about this lust and this pent-up sexual rage? I want to ravage a woman’s insides. I want to make love to her. But, I don’t have a woman. There is most likely zero woman around here that would do it for me. (Even though most of them are just as hôrny, if not more.) So, I am left on my own. I don’t want to watch porn and masturbate for the several aforementioned reasons; and I don’t have a woman to fück with. What am I supposed to do about my body that is raging to fück? This may be seen as a good opportunity to learn to control my mind and caliber my lust. Since I do not have a woman around, it would be opportune to learn to manage my lust without a woman. This way, when I’ll be in a relationship, a woman won’t be able to manipulate me with her vagina. I would already be used to getting none. I would already know how to deal with raging lust. Many women close their legs hoping that this will force their man to bend over and do what they want. This can’t work on a man that has sexual discipline. And right now, I am in a situation where I can (and should) build an unwavering and deep sexual discipline. That would substantially help me in my life, and so in several aspects: with women, with finances, in society, and with myself. I will hardly have a more opportune period in my life to develop and solidify my sexual discipline. Yes, this is how I should look at the situation. It is a challenge. It is a fight. It is a test. And the reward for passing the test, strong and authentic sexual discipline, is well worth the struggle. Let’s fight. |
Doing things for women. Lust is very powerful. I imagine myself fücking all the time. Why is it like that? I imagine myself doing things in front of women so that it can impress them and get their vaginas wet. Thus, making it easier for me to quench my lust on them. I know these thoughts are not good. Here “good” means having a desired effect on my heart and my life. I am thirsty. I am very thirsty as I write this. I can watch pörn and masturbate to quench my thirst. But I refuse to. For many reasons. First, it is highly demeaning. Let’s think about what is truly happening here. A man that watches porn is a man that is looking at another man fücking a woman he wants to fück. Pause for a moment and think about it. This is very disgraceful to your honor and masculinity. How low did you get to the point that you resort to watching another man fück a woman. Suppose the man in question was someone you know. Say, your friend, your coworker, a family member, or a neighbor. Now, would you ever sit down and mastürbate to your friend having intercourse with a woman who you want to fück? Don’t you think that places you below him? Don’t you think that’s humiliating? Second, it is very draining. Porn takes your sexual and spiritual energy. Third, it has science-proven physiological negative effects. Fourth, it can mess up your sexuality. In a pörn movie you are watching the both the woman and the man, both the vagina and the pénis, both the woman’s ass and the man’s ass. You are hearing the moans of the woman as well as those of the man. Fifth, it messes up your interactions with people. You carry that energy with you. Plus, you start to look at people in a strange way. Sixth, it strips you of your potential. Seventh, you don’t want to be addicted to anything in life. Eighth, it just shows that you are weak. It takes real strength to not follow one’s carnal desires. |
I am on my seven day no-fap, no-pörn, no-sex streak. It is very hard to not indulge in lust. I want to fück so bad. I want to take a woman and stroke my pènis into her vagina. But I know deep down that these thoughts are not constructive with respect to my life and my heart. I had finally crossed the one-week bar here. I was extremely hard but harder was the journey ahead. PS: I apologize for being graphic. When I wrote in my journal I did not think of sharing it publicly one day. |
Why do we do what we do? I observe that I do things for attention. Any ambition that I have in mind, I envision myself being seen by people. Especially women. Why am I like that? I need to write it down. |
I want to get out. I try, but fall every time. But I think that writing affirmations like the one I wrote on Nairaland might help. So here is my affirmation: I am *****, grandson of *****, great grandson of *****. I am currently a degenerate porn addict. But I am fighting! It is a fierce battle against myself and the world. And I do not intend to lose it. This world bombards us with lust triggers. From the media becoming pornofied and women becoming porn stars online and offline, everything is being sexualized at an uncontrollable and worrying rate. This makes it exponentially much harder for a man to control his lust and sexual urges. So, as never seen before, the vast majority of them indulge in porn and masturbation. The last barrier against this degeneration of the man (or the human) is his inner self. That is, the fabric and substance of his mind and spirit. So, the man must forge his mind and nurture his spirit to escape the tornado of degeneracy this world is caught into. |
I keep falling Will I ever stand? Is it possible to get out? Please, help me… Help… I wrote this before I started my 170 day streak. I kept relapsing and relapsing and thought I could never break out of the pörn loop. I was in a very sad place in life and was at one of my weakest, if not my weakest, point ever. |
In a tenuous battle against my flesh, I went through 170 days—5 months and a half—without sex, põrn and mastürbation. I was tired of being a degenerate lust-controlled põrn addict and aspired to be greater. For this, I needed to conquer my lust like a warrior on a battlefield. I decided to go 365 days without sex, porn, and masturbation, and from there carry on as a man in control of his life. During the journey, I maintained a small journal in which I reflected on the battle. I decided to share it with you today. All text in Arial font that follows is from the journal. I hope that other warriors can get a thing or two from it. Besides, I would be more than grateful to receive the wisdom and insights from more experienced warriors. |
ProphetJeroboam:Yes many women these days are drawn towards "suspect" men. If you listen to women about what a man should be, you will probably become less and less masculine. |
Humbrown23:How many of his concubines had guys in the shadows doing the do? How many of his concubines were faithful to him? How many had his best interest at heart? If a woman doesn't like you at 0 naira she will never like you at a billion naira. Do not become rich expecting that women will like you. The "high value" message is a scam. |
She is always in men's faces She gets too excited around other men She has male bestie She goes to girls' nights, parties, etc |
theophorus:Simple. |
MrsTwrite:Thank you for pointing this out. |
meobizy:Your comment caught my attention. Why do you think there hasn't been any growth? |
NamelessOGBENI:I remember I made a post about it before going monk: https://www.nairaland.com/7465815/make-money-women-come |
Honey.denz:Men, this is why bitter women must be avoided at all costs. A woman who is still sprung on their past lover must not be dealt with, not even for sex. |
Ojukwu007:Or she just has a high sexual drive |
Vinnie2000:If that was his daughter he would feel she has been used, because she has indeed been used. She gave her essence and her time away for material things that are probably not here anymore. The guy can always make money. She can't get back her body. |
Yes, he used her. |
budaatum:In 2023, you don't need to sleep with a sperm donor to get pregnant with his seed. He can just masturbate in the other room and you manually his sperm into your genitals, no need for physical contact, no need for you to see him. Besides, there are so many technologies that can have you impregnated without having to touch or even see the sperm donor. |
Smartb0y:If all you got from these posts is that thewe women are just "lazy fat asses who don' t know how to dress and love to complain", then you are in a sad position. Hopefully you grow from it. |
Kipaji:Thinking about it most girls have treated me so well, admired me, and liked me, treated me like a king... even though I am a nerd (and proudly so). So all that redpill rhetoric about nerds not getting girls, getting friendzoned, getting "beta-buxed" is BS. There are women who LOVE and LUST after nerds. Guys get beta-buxes not because they are nerds but because they are fake, weak, and ignorant. Be yourself. If yourself is nerdy then be happy and proud in your nerdiness. You may lose some women, but you won't lose yourself. The redpill pushes men to loose themselves in the hope of getting women. |
When I went through this forum I thought about all the times gir's have shown me attraction in school and in the neighborhood. Girls lusted after me, wanted to spend time with me, wanted to hug me, be physically close/intimate. But I was too cold. Many times, I rejected them without even realizing it. Did they also went home and cried? I don't know, but I wish them the very best. I hope they brush these experiences off their mind, and move on. I hope they find a man they will respect and who will love them. |
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