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And you have some guys who still want to play with old man emotion. I read he has gone offline - and is being hidden in house in Karen. The family need to protect the old man otherwise they are playing with emotions before they shout - Chebukati stop the count

NTSA:
Let me repost this again ;

Itumbi is excellent in his work because the first thing a propagandist need is CREDIBILITY.
Without credibility - you're just online hornbill.
He is finished doing the numbers.
He will soon go live and will present facts.
I am waiting to hear him.

Now Azimio is run by idiots like Alai and Mutai

Wuoche:
Tell him to check if Itumbi is breathing.
UDA propagandists declared Aisha Jumwa the winner at midnight but what's happening now is surprising them.

Their results were fakery - from IEBC data. Charles Hornsby http://www.charleshornsby.com/kenya-blog -
Right now I see entire Azimio brigade are pushing the same nonsense.

Again real data should have turnout nearly or about 15m - turnout is 68% or about

Shma2022:
You're forgetting one thing: system interference.
In 2017, we hijacked the system and formulated the 54/44 algorithm. MDVD and his team were so certain about the win- until midnight when the system was confiscated from IEBC.

This year, things are different. Election integrity was IEBC's top priority.

This a recap of 2017 when Raila folks cooked data and presented as official results; They made maDVD read it.

The DEAD GIVE AWAY - Turnout. That 12.6M was turnout as 4pm - by devices that were online and reporting - with one 1hour to go.

This rubbish I have seen Azimio pushing on twitter. The entire Azimio is run by bunch of morons who cannot add or substract...

The real turnout is around 15m...this based on projecting based on ACTUAL RESULTS

Shma2022:
I'm very meticulous in my research. I don't drop guesswork.
98% of form 34A puts a clean win for Azimio.
Ruto should prepare his way to sugoi.

On the other hand, my Mp, Korir is going home. That is the only UDA supporter I was vouching for.

Baba the 5th.

Agreed. Lot of fake news. Very good that UDA folks are conceding defeat. This something strange in Raila and his camp.

StivoH2022:
Seem you rely on social media that it's full of fake news

Itumbi is about to go live. I have heard from Chirchir folks saying it about 57.5%. Azimio have called for presser.

Wuoche:
If it's so then why are UDA minions crying about Nyanza votes not streaming in as first as the ones from Rift Valley and Central? Even Itumbi has gotten some fear and that's why he has stopped updating results in his timeline.

I have run projection - based few results released - I am projecting 15 million voted -
Ruto will win 8.3M - 55%
Raila will get 6.7M - 44%
Waja & Mwaura - 1%

You're watching Macharia's Citizen trying to delay the inevitable - hoping the deep state can figure out something.Meanwhile the deep state are trying to figure out how to escape with their money abroad. Once Mt Kenya broke for Ruto at 80 percent - and then Ruto is doing well in Western, Ukambani and Coast...then it's over for Raila.

This wont be close.

Wuoche:
You are far much behind. Both candidates are at 49% each. Remember Ruto strongholds leads in submitting their results compared to Raila's. If you look at the top five counties that has submitted their presidential results, four are from Rift Valley and one from Nyeri.

Once Raila make a concession speech - our politics will end - and we can start fixing the country

gallivant:
Elections are over with. Life must get back to normal.

Hope springs eternal. Ruto and KK have swept the board. It not close. The mainstream media owned by Moi, Kenyatta and Macharia are shocked - as of now we have 87% polling station form 34A - tallying should be in 10 millions.

StivoH2022:
The race is too tight 50/50

Aly-Khan Satchu
@alykhansatchu
Looks like Kenya has the most useless Pollsters in the World


I told folks here...only trust me

Azimio idiots who were saying they have only met 5 kalenjin in Nairobi - here is sixth and 7th you should met.
Generali Korir retain Karen seat and Sakaja move from senate to Governorship
And Ruto become PORK.

And all of them are young - because post-Moi kalenjin decided to go for young and educated leadership.

And below is my rural Mp - childhood friend - who just got re-elected for his second term.

DUMP ODINGA MEDIOCRITY LIKE WE DID MOI - and embrace new leadership.

Elect young and educated leaders with passion for public service

UDA's Ruto party set to have at least 5 women governors and almost entire young leadership. Sakaja who is younger than me - who was Nairobi Senator - just won the Nairobi Governorship.

It impossible for Ruto to lose if you know Kenya politics. Mt kenya (Kikuyu & it cousins are largest tribe in kenya) is elephant in the room. Add Kalenjin - you're already in 40 percent plus. At that point Ruto is simply looking for top up votes.

You didnt know Ruto - I have watched Ruto closely since 2001.

He is gifted. He is briliant. He is a complete politician. Smart, decisive, ambitious, go-getter and for Uhuru-Moi - very brutal. The guys who are suppose to rig Raila now - are busy packing their bags now - and will fly out tomorrow or this week. For once Ruto become President - he will make their life hell on earth. Kenyattas are going to lose their land and wealth shortly as 1st business is to form a State Capture Commission of Inquiry

Rigging now is hard - because in kenya polling station results are final - you'd have to deploy so many people in so many areas to corrupt the process - and you have no time.

Then for Raila how does he even govern when Ruto look set to have 230 mp - enough to impeach him on day one.

68816419:
Even if Ruto losses, the margin won't be that much, plus, Ruto surprised everyone

It marks the end of politics in kenya - as a lion has finally emerged - and end of Odinga/kenyatta/moi dynasties
Well IEBC tried this time - the result forms are - at 82% at this point - just what six hours after it started streaming - with close of counting. We just need a few to stream in - and we are done.
Azimio folks have gone AWOL
Will Raila concede defeat?
https://forms.iebc.or.ke/#/

68816419:
I must confess that, Ruto is indeed a movement, we all waiting for the final Form34A

Kenya Election Update: From Ruto team - it's 54% versus 45% - with 1% shared by others.
I had predicted 55.5% versus 43.5% - and 1%.

The rest of seats - news trickling in Ruto is sweeping parliament, senate and county gov (governors)

Everytime I say something you dont like - you should ask for rebuttal - everytime. Keep it remittance = check the trend

vankelvin:
Everytime Kenya has a country to overtake.

Kenya will overtake Ghana in this
Kenya will overtake South Africa in that
Kenya will overtake Nigeria, Morocco in this
Very soon you will tell us |Kenya will overtake USA in something|
You're begining to sound like a broken record already

Emmanuel talam works for Ruto media team.

@EmmanuelTalam
The guys of night meetings mjipange....the letter to the ICC is tight with location, time and video/audio details.

Uhuru attempted to pull 1992 MO1 tribal clashes card this week has failed. The Chiefs and Ass Chiefs plan is falling apart.

No what? Let see what else they can pull in 72 hours shutdown electricity? internet? hacking into IEBC or kidnap returning officers?


---> Seem like Kinoti has raided Director of Public Prosecutor Office - as he has refused to part of the paln

Junet's video and audio saga!

DPP Noordin Haji directed the IG Hillary Mutyambai to open a probe into a manipulated video clip that suggested ethnic incitement by Deputy President William Ruto during his rally in Eldoret.#tukonews

Not everything gov tries succeed. Uhuru and his gang definitely did attempt to initiate tribal clashes in the hope that kikuyus will reject Ruto.

Their plan was foiled because Ruto has intelligence on them.

Which tribes do these guy belong to - I think Kalenjin was CyberCafe attendant.

9 Moi University students charged over Uasin Gishu threat leaflets
They were granted a bond of Sh1 million or cash bail of Sh500,000.
In Summary
•The suspects included Ronald Odhiambo, Martin Rodgers, Josphat Chacha, Ian Muibanda, Brian Kipkorir, Denis Wakhanya, Beatrice Wanhari, Samwel Juma, and Ann Aoko.

StivoH2022:
With the kind of unemployment we have, q politician a easily trigger war ...you can't he has tried and fail, it's either he didn't try do it

Yet Sakaja a kalenjin is going to become Nairobi governor and we have Kalenjin Mp in Nairobi. You need to update yourself. Kalenjin are everywhere - just not that many in slums yet. If you go to any university - they are the majority.

StivoH2022:
The Kenyan Bantus don't like war maybe because they're more civilised most live in urban centres and have interacted with each other....
The Kalenjins are still stuck in old way of life and thinking....you can easily spot them out in Nairobi and they're not more than 2k

When was Raila in the system . Ruto is the SYSTEM - he was in Moi's kitchen cabinet, run Uhuru first term, and even now has intelligence and counter-intelligence. This is how you win election - by foiling gov rigging plans. Raila has failed before because he was blind to gov activities. Ruto has invested in parrallel intelligence that knows everything that Uhuru ate for lunch and will have for supper. Once you do that...you can beat gov..and opposition combined...like Ruto has done for 5yrs. Just 72 hours to go.

StivoH2022:
Ruto is still learning...the only thing he have is "big mouth" ....Raila understand the systems a hundred times better than Ruto

Thankfully they have. This week desperate Uhuru tried to incite tribal clashes - by you can imagine - writting leaflets warning his own kikuyu people - to vote for Ruto or be attacked - then they deployed paramilitary police on the kalenjin-kikuyu "hotspots" - and their plan was to burn a few kikuyu and kalenjin homes - to spark tribal clashes - so they wont vote for Ruto.

This akin to Moi in 1992 - because Moi wanted to evict a million of immigrants from Rift valley so they wont vote. So what do you do - spark tribal clashes - have a million people killed, raped, injured, properties burnt - and they are displaced. Coming voting day - you have reduced the opponent voting block.

This was one of Uhuru card - apart from many others.

US gov issued advisory saying Kisumu(Raila home) was likely place for violence not rift valley - and that killed their hate propaganda and attempt to incite violence.

What has helped is that Kikuyu community have refused to be pawns of Uhuru Kenyatta and have totally rejected him. The message for Uhuru and his elite has been simple....if there is any war you want....take your kids to the frontline.

This is why I think we will have peace.

So far so good - they failed. I have just seen kenya top security official talking like rained on cats. I hope they called out rest of their rigging and sabotage plans.

Elections if they are free and fair - Kenya will be very very okay. If gov interferes brazenly - then we get a civil war.

Just40:
Politicians never learn from anything... Citizens are the ones who create the atmosphere for politicians to learn.

Ghanian Justice Akilano Molade Akiwumi. was appointed to probe 1992 tribal clashes. Apparently no lessons were learnt. 2007 happened - another commission Waki - and then International Criminal Court - and now in 2022 - we are trudging along to civil war because the GOV of Kenya is irresponsibly playing with election against a community that are like Somalis - and will fight you.

All I do is provide people with early warning so they are aware of the upheavals.

Just40:
Thank you....

I can't believe, people are openly advocating for violence over an election..

Personally I dont want war. In 2007 - I spent all the time escaping and hidding from being conscripted to fight in that violence. They were people moving house to house checking to see if anybody had remained at home who should be out fighting - if you ageset was active warrior group. Eventually I was evacuated by my employer after they charted a flight. Learn from 2007 and never allow yourself to be caught on the offside.

Again you need to understand Kalenjin are not folks who fear war with anybody. Not even the police. In 2007 all prov adminstration were destroyed - some DOS and Chief killed - policemen too.

So you're right Kalenjin, Somalis and Maasai have the same mentality - they are warlike - meaning they see war or fighting as normal activity - in fact before arrival of Brits - a kalenjin man did nothing except fight, go raid for cattle - and all that - when they were active warrior group - so taking war to them is just going back to way things were before the British civilization.

Maasai have Morans, Kalenjin Murenik, Somalis Mooryan. The same word. This specialization of having a standing military ageset.

I suggest you familiraize yourselves with 1992 - Kalenjin attacked Luo, kikuyus, Gusii and Luhyas simultaneously. Luos are very smart of all tribes - they normally the first to raise white flag and havent been massacred in any number. They know the ferocity of kalenjin and will never allow a war with kalenjin to last a day.

In 1992..I was young - I use to listen to BBC radio then - there was nothing on KBC then - it would be "Kabila la ndogo la Moi versus other tribes".

StivoH2022:
Seems like you want war or something � �
Most Kalenjins are just like Kenyan Somalis who pretend that they are against terrorism while they enjoy inside them...this is one of the reasons while Ruto should/will not be the president until he matures

Most Kalenjins have nothing to lose since almost all of them are in their native place...but the question is who are you going to attack if not Kikuyus

2007 you had a backup of Luos and almost all other tribes that's even the police took sides...this time don't dare

Kenya opinion polls have never gotten any election or referendum right. That you can ask anyone or Mr Google. They have very bad reputation.

Ruto is head and shoulder above Raila - not only because of age - but pretty much everything else - brains, energy, managerial skills, oratory skills, leadership skills.

Moi was my tribes man and I didnt support him even a single day. Ruto was supporting Moi and our political paths met in 2005 when Kibaki had disappointed me - and we supported Raila in 2007.

I personally started noticing Ruto in 2001 - and I remember telling my college friend - this guy will become president - and I am not surprised that he just hours from becoming one. Ruto is gifted salesman or propagandist. I notice him because he was able to sell dirty very dirty Moi and convinced you....and then he sold Uhuru kenyatta..unkempty 38yr old drunkard...entire opposition had to unite otherwise KANU & Moi would still be on it.

Ruto of course has gone on to sell many things - the most outstanding was selling their join ticket while both were under trial at ICC for crimes against humanity. The Western countries are still dazed. They gave up on influencing kenya politics that day unable to countanance how people can elect indicted suspect out of bail in most serious criminal court facing trial on charges similar to genocide. Ruto just turned the narrative 360 degrees.

Now this election - he has started a class war essentially btw the poor - and rich political families - although he himself is very rich. That Hustler Revolution long caught fire - and is carrying him to statehouse.

Raila has absolutely no chance against Ruto - who is a political beast at his prime. Ruto will nick at his 1st try aged 55yrs against combined mighty of gov and opposition because he works incredibly hard and smart.

obaaderemi:
It might just happen if the opinion polls are anything to go by, and from what I read here. If you are above 70, you have no business running a country.

Bush jnr became president in his 50s when he came in in 2000. I remember how fiery he was. Same for Obama.

A nation like America may risk putting a dinosaur like Biden in office, they got all the right institutions running well. But Africa? That's a different kettle of fish. I wish your people would understand. But then, tribalism has always been a compliment to Africans. Probably you are also supporting Ruto because he is from your tribe.

I have no such powers or influence. It upon the main actors with influence or power to understand that free and fair election is critical for peace in Kenya - and this month of august - can either buy us time as we deal with serious ethnic divisions or send us Ethiopia way.

chrisooblog:
Rafiki I know this election season can be tense and emotional, but you and your fellow Kenyan compatriots should tone down the threats and tribal rhetoric.

Kenya will outlive Ruto and Odinga. Don't let selfish politicians instigate people into crisis that will take generations to undo.

Kalenjin produce most surplus food and produces in kenya. The rest can barely satisfy their own consumption needs. End of story.

StivoH2022:
Most are inherited land of which they're not utilised....or the kalenjin rent it out to Kikuyus and that's one of the reasons why Kalenjin are always bitter with Kikuyus,just jealousy.
You'll find a kalenjin owning a 30acre but goes to buy vegetables to a kikuyu who owns a 50/100 plot...
And check the kind of houses there...those are slums in the village ...that's poverty.

I know Uasin Gishu and Tranzoia produce allot of maize, but it's not profitable

Even so called Kibaki in kenya was an epic failure because he was too old and senile. I supported Kibaki in 1990s - and he was still okay. The kibaki of 70s and 80s was very brilliant. The one that became president gave us the worst violence - because he was not in charge. He got into bad road accident then survived two strokes - and just became an idiot who was making incoherent speeches in public. The people around him took over and made a huge mess. He got his own people - about 0.5M of them in IDP camps - send Kenya to ICC - and had to share power - and really economic growth we saw was default because Moi another old kleptomaniac had taken it to rock bottom.

Now Raila is just a disaster - he can barely stay awake - he is another Buhari - his wife Aisha and other cabals run things while he is mostly sick - and same would happen in Kenya if Raila was to win. It would be an epic disaster. In fact Uhuru and cabals think he wont last long enough - so they are backing him knowing he might even die Yardua style.

Good thing it wont happen.

obaaderemi:
I'm telling you this because we've been there. We threw out a president Jonathan who grew Nigeria's economy, kept petroleum products prices down and ensured food was cheap. We brought in an aged Buhari in the name of anti- corruption. Now the economy has taken a tailspin the kind of which we have never experienced even in the worst of military rule.

This old people don't understand the new realities when it comes to modern economy. And by nature they're stubborn and inflexible, thinking they know more than everyone else.
They're old and lazy and often do not understand the role of fiery nationalism in modern natiion building.

Maybe you're half pokot or tugen. Otherwise where I come from - we have always been one richest kenyan tribes. Kipsigis, Nandis and Keiyo definitely feed kenya.

StivoH2022:
I'm half Kalenjin half kikuyu and I can see anything to be proud of in being a Kalenjin.
The Kalenjin is next to Maasai and turkana when it comes to civilisation.
Despite being one of the largest tribes 98% of them have never been out of their five counties.

There's no reason to support Ruto apart from tribalism

I assume you're asking me this.
There are a big distinction btw reality and intent;
The reality of our politics is ethnic; and it was always violent; even before the British arrived.
I think you're shifting the blame from politicians to someone like me who is an analyst.
It's upon you to protect yourselves from violence - like I have done - I warned guys months ago to get their passports ready to evacuate.
Dont be caught nabbing again.
I know the actors - and I know what they are capable of.
Forget about what happened in the past - focus on the future.
The immediate future is Kenya is going through a very political risk period - because of the actors - Ruto and Kalenjin will not accept a rig process without a lot of bloodshed.
I am also aware that Ruto has the backing of Uganda and South Sudan - and if he decided to real go hard - we can get a civil war.
There is nothing special about kenya - Uganda, Ethiopia, Somalia, name them - mismanage your politics - and you have war.

You should count yourself fortunate because I know the beast and I can help you understand it.

Now if you want my help to understand the geneis of violence in RV - I can help you.
1992 was Moi instigated violence - very similar to what Uhuru was trying this week - except he failed because he is a drunkard.
Moi knew the kalenjin self defense mechanism - all he needed in 1992 was to trigger violence - by burning Kalenjin houses along the borders
from Molo to Mt elgon.
Kalenjin once a war cry is sounded - respond within an hour - once they establish that indeed kalenjin have been attacked - the rules of engagement changes - it war mode.

In 1992 - I was in upper primary - I was still uncut innocent boy- one afternoon we hear this wierd wailin or cry - attack molo attack molo attack molo- that suddenly stop and is picked in the next ridge - it goes like that that - attack molo - 3 or 4 times - the first woman in a village repeat - and it stops. The next village first woman - the cry went I am told to as far as transmara - in one hour - it had covered almost 300kms - attack molo attack molo!

Immediatetly our school bell rung - we were told that school was closed until further notice - male students to walk on the right to home - female to walk on the left. Now school was half boarding - half day. I was boarding. We took like an hour to pack our stuff.

By time we are get out - the school was teeming with maybe 1,000 warriors all armed - all silent - as we waited for transport - there number had increased to cover entire school field - 10,000 men . The entire kipsigis land had mobilized thousands of warriors in an hour - all assembled at nearest village assembly point...schools then...village joint next village..next school.The they began treking through Mau forest to get to Nakuru...as we heading home. That was longest file of people I had ever seen in my life all armed to the teeth - all dressed now in shukas.

The rest of people who are not in warrior class - cook food and leave on the road. Nobody speaks or say anything. It total silences - as war is on. The following morning - there was thousands of cows, bicycles, name it - out of the forest - I can imagine destruction visited on Molo that day was huge.

You need to understand kalenjin war infrastructure is unlike anything you've seen. It the total mobilization of all warrior class - 15yrs each - 15-35yrs old - in shortest possible time - you dont want to wake that monster or worse arm it.

Rarely have kalenjin been united - many subtribes - rarely are threat seen as that huge. Ruto and Moi were first to unite them.Ruto has united them in a cause - and I am afraid Ruto is so ambitious he could do the worse - which to arm kalenjin with guns.

That will be the END OF KENYA as we know.

Ruto has a huge leverage because he knows at sound of his cry - a million in my estimate warriors will be available for war - in all corners of kalenjin land. Now it depends on him - if he arms them - kenya is gone!

Dont be found nabbing - dont buy into propaganda that Kalenjin were assisted by Moi or police or planned or trained. Kalenjin have incredible traditional war infrastructure like no one in East Africa. This exist by default - and is watered every year - by training of new warriors - in peace or war - and sit there just waiting for a war cry. Ruto hold all the cards now.

Biggest advantage is the numbers that can be raised in shortest possible time....other communities will struggle to convince people to join war...kalenjin at sound of war cry saying ATTACK XYZ - will all respond - and descend on XYZ immediately - questions asked later.

kikuyu1:
Mzee, I've been reading for the past 2 days trying to clarify where exactly you're coming from.
I'm seeing what appears like straight out declarations of intent; threats and/or celebrations of violence inflicted on fellow Kenyans.
Every Kenyan here and IRL over the age of 15 knows of the terrible events that happened in the former Rift Valley. We know as far back as 1981Nandis attacked Luhyas- IIRC over 30 died in a month before things calmed down.
One of the first Molo victims in Nakuru county in 91 was actually a Kao lady, Mary Kamene, then 60. What was it all about? Why did Kenyans, Kikuyus, Kisiis, Luhyas and Luos have to suffer violence?
Especially when the multinational tea companies whose directors are directly descended from those who mass murdered the original Kipsigis and Nandis late 1890s still own over 200k acres?
Pls just make it make sense.
Thanks.

We got 72hrs to election - and then Kalenjin once again sit on your for 10yrs - min - but 25yrs - like Moi did - is very possible as demographics are changing- and most of you are yet to recover. Luo influence who? Most of you guys are farm hands in our farms Almost every household where I come from - there is Luo, Gusii and Luhya we have employed to pluck our tea, till our land and do such menial jobs.

If not working hard manual labour - you're living in Nairobi, Mombasa and name every slum in Kenya.Do you see our people in slums influencing slums culture - of course not. Do you even want to compare yourselves to kalenjin who produce most of the food in kenya - if we stopped growing maize, wheat, tea, beef, sheeps, dairy, name - kenya will be on it's knees.

Only Kikuyus can speak to us - and I think after 2007 beating - they have accepted a power deal that will see power rotate btw Kalenjin and Kikuyu - and Uhuru is having lose bowel movements - as we speak because kikuyus are committed to the power deal.

Remove Kikuyus and Kalenjin from kenya - and you've nothing left - just bunch of tribes with half an acre of land at best, unable to feed themselves, filling up slums, and working hard menial labour for most of their lives. This is why Kalenjin and Kikuyu sat down - and realised why fight - they have done 60yrs - they can do another 60yrs together. Uhuru has tried for personal interest to undo the power pact but his people have said NO. This what this election really boils down to.

The rigging schemes, the attempted violence, so far have been nipped in the bud, and the usual suspect have booked the exit flight out of kenya. Kenya might just be lucky to escape a civil war.

Come wednesday - Ruto will begin the most painful purge on dynasties ever undertaken in kenya - Miguna Miguna will probably lead it. By then most of the cowards will be running to exile.

Then you'll once again know - like you did in Moi era - Kenya has only few men - the rest are sissies like you.

Worse case scenario - I will be watching from Europe as you get butchered.

Obiano13:
Kalepithecus violence would be a localized blob with zero impact on the rest of the country, nothing close to 207 when all corners of the country erupted. The govt was unprepared, no reinforcements as happens now. Since then they know anything can happen hence the massive deployment of security forces in kalejinga territory. Your people live in one tiny manyatta that can be contained with little effort. 92' Moi your fellow kalepithecus was in power I wonder what you were fighting. If you are as bad as advertised you wouldn't be so dispossesed by fellow Kenyans from all walks of life. Kikuyu people are literally overrunning your landmass despite your best efforts to route them out. 2007 you literally run mad trying to kick them out and the takeover has only accellerated. You rely too heavily on outdated prehistoric survival tactics of bows and arrows when the modern world requires brainpower. God gave you thin running legs and played hardball on IQ. Thats why culturally you influence no one in Kenya, aside from the Pokots, who have even refused to be associated with you in this election. Luos influence everyone n the western part of the country and even nationally. Kikuyus influence everyone. What about you? NO ONE!!! People just laugh at you. The best thing for you and fellow sheeple is to keep the peace and hope your thief can play his cards right going forward. The polls are being fair to him, the real gap is even worse. I keep reminding bots like you that Raila has had his votes stolen since 2007. Thats why pollsters cant get any election right. This will be the first election where his true numbers will be allowed to show. David Murathe confirmed as much same with Moses Kuria. Raila is the owner of numbers. Everybody else is a pretender. Not even Uhuru can marshall the numbers he boasts. The shock that awaits Ulliam is massive! Dont also put Uhuruto votes in the bag because they arent one n the same. Premium tears loading. By wednesday you will be on the verge of suicide.