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Drizzle007:
Having a serious problem getting a Job because of my nature. Most people I know, which is quite a few got theirs through networking and referrals. I have no one. I've only been contact three times for interviews all in distant locations and I don't even bother going because of that. Introversion is worse when you're done with school, NYSC and anything that forces you to be in crowded places. When you are alone being a job seeker or even trying venturing in a business. It just get you at the neck. Never thought the ripple effect of being an introvert would come hard on me like this.

I'm sorry about what you going through.
I'm a core introvert but it has never gotten In the way of my communication or proved an hindrance when situations arises that requires me to speak up.
I'm quite fluent and speaking in public, or answering questions have never been an issue.

A good prayer culture helps too . If you can talk to God, you can talk to anyone.

Good luck.

Shot on the RN7 stock camera app. Prefer it over gcam.

Drizzle007:
I can relate to this. I stay away from relationships for two reasons.
I don't have the finance to back it up currently.
It takes away my solitude due to women being too demanding for attention and all that.
I sometimes like to go days without reaching out to anyone.
When you're in a relationship, try that and it's war.
Man!!

Honestly, it's work!

To all the singles out there... Enjoy your peace. You're not missing out on anything.

I have an amazing girlfriend. We've been dating for two months now.

But right now, there's nothing I want more in life than being single again.

Saw on twitter

Why is the RN7 more expensive than the RN8?

I don't understand; isn't the Note 8 supposed to be an upgraded version of the Note 7?

You downloaded your GTA from playstore?

flawless911:
U're using 32GB fone and u have 17GB worth of Just Apps.. Yet here u are, wondering whatever may be wrong with your phone and still looking for 10GB free space.. What a Wow.. Even we wey get 64GB never use up to that amount on apps upon 3 Heavy games, my brother fear God

Your GTA...
Is it from Playstore and does it require data for gameplay?

Just saw on the official Facebook Xiaomi page... REdmi Note 8 is 58k ... 3+32gb variant.

Seriously... Why these guys nor wait. I never even enjoy my Note7 finish!

Welcome to the sect.

Sethzenon:
Lol, this is weird cos you perfectly described me...

and as for the all black? A friend (girl) had to buy different colours of shirts for me just so I could wear a different colour...

I never wore them.

When people be like "I don't understand you" I am always like "I don't even understand me"

MissSweet:
Vibesking, don't let your physical outlook define you. Majority at that age have that esteem of not been good enough.

Portray who you have always wanted to be both in your character and choice of word. Trust me, with time you will overcome it.

Just remember people will try bring down either by their words or actions against you; just see it as another way of being a better version of yourself.

You will be amazed as to how you will overcome such pragmatism

Thanks

Hey folks....

What app would you honestly say has made your mobile experience much more interesting?

Drop your recommendations.

BoleAndFish:
Your comment made me try this gesture out just now. It's somehow but I like it. People will just be wondering.... Which kain phone be this?

Downside: can't use button shortcut.

Modified: Quickball got me covered

Tried gesture when I got my N7 newly but didn't initially like it. Saw your comment and decided to try gesture+quickball.... I'm blown!

For so long I've craved for approval. I just wanted to make people happy. I convinced myself that I went the extra mile for others out of sheer goodwill.

But recently, I got real with myself. And realised that all my efforts was just to make people like me; cause I didn't really like myself.

Selfish? Maybe. But you ain't gon deny that there's a part of you that craves acceptance. I guess you're just as messed up.

That aside.

Prior to this epiphany...

I noticed that people really do not care about what you do for them. People only care about themselves.

If screwing you up serves their interest, it doesn't matter how much you've sacrificed for them, they'd run you over a thousand times!

I also noticed that people only like who they wanna like. Can't explain the concept behind this. But it's natural.

So I tell myself, stop trying too hard. Stop caring.

I've tried too hard in the past to be a likable person, but these people do not even send me a text on my birthday.

I tell myself I don't care. But that's a lie. Deep inside, I know that these things get to me.

A part of me wanna tell the world... Fuqq you! Another part wanna get a thumbs up.

So I'm left confused. The real me wanna unleash itself, but the real me lacks courage to be itself.

So I go about daily... Wearing a mask. Faking my smiles, hiding my anger.

I'm not depressed. I'm just tryna find myself.

babtoundey:
And I am wearing black.
I wore it yesterday and day before.
Never thought how that came to be.
It's simply weird!

I wear black every freaking everyday!
I basically dress the same way daily.

Black shirt...black cap... Black trousers... Black wristband and watches... Black shoe.

Some had the decency to ask if I was mourning.. and others just presumed I was a cultist.

I've thoughts about painting my room black a couple of times... Buh nah... That'll ruin the lightings in my room. Plus that'll be next level weird shii.

elguaje:
Introversion is the best thing that ever happenend to me but mood swing is the enemy, if only I can fight it off...I would be so much better

You could listen to music.
Rap that speak about life is therapy for me.

Ajoboss:
bro..is there any way we could talk

Are u on WhatsApp?

Yeah.
Drop your contact. I'll beep you.

Ajoboss:
wow bro
This is so me..

Good to know.
It often feels you're the only one going through this stuff.

October 1st and I found myself engrossed in a series of deep thinking.

wasn't thinking about Nigeria. Stopped that stuff a long time ago.

For all I care, this hogwash called a country can end up in a hell whole and I ain't gon flinch!

My mind was focused on something entirely different. Something that has been bothering me.

7 months ago, I saw a psychologist. No one knew.

The therapist, whom I presume should be in her mid thirties, was surprised to see me...

She didn't hesitate to jump in "we usually don't get a lot of Nigerian patients"

Yeah, the session was online. A friend of mine from SA whom I met via Facebook recommended a website where you can book a session with a therapist and y'all can talk via Skype.

Cool stuff. Lil expensive though.

For the first time, I did the talking and someone listened. It's usually the reverse since most of the time, I just hate talking. and I allow the other person talk while I completely zone out.

Sometimes, I'm Like... Can the world just shut the f up for some sec?

So basically, I have issues. I knew I had issues. Just didn't know how to deal. Needed someone to talk to.

The last therapist I met in Nigeria was a complete hogwash! Dude gave me a bunch of religious bullcraps and asked me to trust heaven !

Dude wtffff?

Like, if I needed some guy to give me advice on connecting with heaven, I'd go to a church. And I wouldn't have to pay for it.

Well, that aside.

After seeing this current pychologist, I felt good. A bit. She listened and didn't judge or try to solve my problems.

She just listened and allowed my mouth voice out the thoughts of my complex mind.

We spoke about everything... or at least I wish we did. But poor internet connection and time limitations proved to be a spoiler!

But we managed to talk about some stuff. Like....

How terrified I am to fall in love cause I'm horrified by the thoughts of being vulnerable.

How I push everyone that tries to get close cause I've got too many insecurities that I don't want people to know about.

How messed up my mind can be. I can take a thought and ruminate on it for hours. Wondering why I'm so different. Why does being alone feels so good? Why do I withdraw from attention? Why do I hate the colour white and basically resent conventional wisdom and disagree to widely accepted philosophy.

My days are filled with series of thinking. I fantasize about disappearing to somewhere devoid of people. Just me, a book, and some nice music.

I'm weird. I know. Depressed? maybe. But I've been like this for as long as I can remember.

What kills me the most is being fake. I preach realism but I consider myself fake as hell.

I'm angry inside but I fake a smile... I pass compliment to a young lady even when I feel she's as ugly as a pig's ass!

I just don't wanna hurt people. But it kills me... That I can't just express my raw opinions. But people love this version of me. The one who's outwardly lively but dead inside.

I tell myself I don't care about what people think about me, but is that really true?

I had a tiny disagreement with a colleague and I spent the entire night hoping she doesn't spread malicious talks about me that might make people hate me (cause everyone thinks I'm a great guy).

I just wanna be free and tell everyone to go fuq themselves...

Will I ever find this version of me?
The one who can comfortably wear my insecurities without a mask?

I'm currently searching..


Happy independence Day... whatever the fff that means to you.

Messed up, I know.
Reckless, I know.
I've got a lot of shii inside been dealing on my own.

I'm my own enemy. Looking in the mirror wondering why I'm so different. Why don't I fit in? Sometimes I stare at the earth and think to my self... This is not the place I was birth.

I'm a wreck. I'm quiet but I'm wild inside. That's a part of me people don't see. They think I'm a great guy but I stare at the mirror and I can't even stand myself. I hate life but I don't wanna die cause I don't think you can do that twice.

My best times come when I'm alone. While it gives me joy, it also brings me pain. Thinking about the past... Thinking about what I said .. thinking about how I should have handled a given situation differently.

I'm just tryna be me... But when I look within myself and I don't like what I see. I'm my own enemy. I know. But even the devil loves himself but I don't love me.

I'm not depressed. I'm just tryna understand life.

I'm the kinda guy that'll rather take a bullet than come out in front of the class to "say a little about myself."

For many years I tried to deny who I really am. I'm an introvert. I hate crowd. I detest small talks. I just wanna be on my own.

I question everything. I question life. I question God. I question reality. I question myself. My mind runs wild and I tend to overthink things.

I'm a typical misfit. You can't associate me with a group. I'm a one man army pointing my own gun to my own head.

I feel people don't understand me, but I can't blame them. I don't even fully understand myself.

I'm an outcast. I like strange things. My favourite colour is black and I put it on everyday.

‌To me, black is not just a colour, its an expression. It represents what I feel inside–void. formless. empty. Lost. Calm. Peace. Chaos.

seanwilliam:
shut up! except the phone is water/splash proof or u sun dry it. xiaomi is tecno SENIOR brother

From miles away even someone with half a brain can tell that you're an inflated slowpoke who knows nothing about phones.

Emmyk:
So the phone should work fine after dropping into water?

Xiaomi devices does

kingxsamz:
Redmi note 7...
Don't buy A20, and don't buy S4 neither.

Take this guy's advice.
A20 is a total rip-off and S4 won't stand the test of time.
Add a bit of extra dough to get the RN7. If you have a limited budget, you can go for the Redmi 7.

noble2faith:
WHICH ONE GET PEN AMONG THE THREE?

Weitin you wan use pen do?

Enskynelson:
I plan to dish out my infinix Note 5 for Redmi Note 7. Abeg, how much you get the Redmi Note 7?

It comes in different variants. My 4GB/64GB ROM came in for N66.9k . Its functionality far exceeds the price.

usmanktg2:
Sorry Infinix, I've now moved on to Xiaomi Redmi Note 7.

You made good phones, and I have used each of your Notes from Hot Note till Note 5. Now, your race is over.


Welcome to the Redmi world

Never again shall we return to Infinix. Never again!
RN7 all the way