Please this is a long write up so please pardon me

I choosed not to used an alternative moniker because I want my dad to see this, I introduced him to Nairaland and he's a frequent front page reader so I hope he sees this. I hope my fans in the literature section know why I get depressed always.

Tonight's event has proven to me that I mean little or nothing to him. I won't say I did nothing wrong but sometimes you do something without much thoughts but he feeds on it like a leech and finds everything wrong.

Agreed, I'm the black sheep of the family but how that started remains a mystery to me. Right from even before I knew my name I was severely beaten like an animal for every offence you could think of, peeing on the bed, playing outside, looking under my mom's wrapper (who taught me this at that age remains a mystery). I was treated like an outcast like I just jumped out of my mom's womb. He even told me that if my mom was not a Christian he would have questioned my parentage.

Where did I go wrong as a child to deserve all manner of punishments, from collecting 42 strokes naked with my eyes and genitals ridden with fresh pepper to getting locked in my room from dawn till dusk without food nor water to getting flogged for even getting home from school ten minutes late to getting disgraced in front of my friends because of trival issues up to the point that I barely allow my friends to know my house because I hated embarrassing questions.

Even though I am demonic who should be blamed? God for allowing me out like that or myself for getting stubborn while still a baby.

He claims I have done nothing good in this life despite all my efforts, despite killing all my dreams because of his quest and desire to make me a medical doctor which I'm not even fucking close to been presently.


I have always been treated unfairly like a slave, even if he says I have never done anything good I can freshly remember how I tried my little best to send my elder sis dozens of airtime and some cash when she started University even though I never saw anything when I got into higher institution or when I saved up to 25k with my mum and tried to borrow a little for a need that arosed and was barraged with the "what have you payed for in this house" taunt till that money entered one chance. You might say that's a tad sum but I was just 15 then and I was getting paid a miserly N350 a day which I fed and transported from.

Maybe because he runs a military regime in the house and his decisions whether good or bad is final. I became a black sheep because I try to counter some of his decisions, he called me a bastard for trying to follow my dreams, I'm called an animal because I choosed to do things contrary to his desire despite knowing that I am right sometimes.

Most times I come home frustrated, tired and down in spirit but they expect me to suddenly answer every calls with a wide smile, sometimes I'm called from my room while my younger ones are seated with them to go pick something just a few yards away because they believe I'm busy pressing phone inside and that's idleness.

I have lost a movie contract, a book and even a blog sponsorship because I know that telling him about it would lead to more harm than good, I had to give out the movie script free because I could not make an all expensed paid journey. Not even a Christian seminar in Abuja just 2 hours journey away from my location could convince him to let me go because he saw it as a useless waste of money(my own money) , so how can I be that good child he wants, by sitting at home all day maybe. Everyday I try to put up a smiling face in public despite the turmoil in my heart.

Tonight's saga broke my heart, just because I was going out to buy detergent and been asked by my mother I answered but she did not hear me, I was made to kneel down and hear his rants on how I was every degoratory insult he could think off.

What broke my heart was he telling me that he wishes I die like the Kogi state governor and join the man in hell since I had determined to go there.

Tonight I shed tears in my heart because I can't fathom them out of my dry eyes anymore. This days coming back home is like coming to hell, I'm really tired and depressed seriously, I'm not sure I had reached a week without getting reprimanded for minor issues others do and go free.

Please Nairalanders come to my rescue before I go completely psycho, and please don't say moving out of the house or talking to him is an option, because it's like you trying to talk to a soldier man that wields a loaded weapon, any thing you say becomes a challenge to his authority.

Sorry for the long epistle, I'm broken and seriously need advice, I hope he gets to see this and then kills me afterwards.


Cc. Ishilove Lalasticlala Sean RoyalRoy

Na wa o

Pele. Dunno what to say. I'll say a little prayer for u and the broken hearted alluva the world. Beht rock555 you need to leave that house, depression is gon kill u.

Hmm!! Most times, the blessing and curses of our parents affects our lives positively or negatively and yours is constantly and won't stop till you become broken.
This can lead to child rebellion against his parents, an over clouded judgement which it's result can be disastrous.
I suggest that you leave that house now while your sanity is still intact to avoid landing in prisons soon due to lose of control and the devil took over. You must have relations or friends in case your dad asks your relations to throw u out. Find a way yo stay away from him and pursue your career and get your life together even if you have to suffer through physical hardship but I bet it's better than staying at home and been bounded by curses and bad luck. Remember you are a man, if you continue absorbing this, you may end up like him to your children tomorrow and eventually they will never be a blessing to u.
So fight hard and trust God, with all pure heart, you will be a blessing to your family if not now, then later. Sorry for what you are passing through.

really sorry abt DAT rocky.. I really am speechless

Hmm. This is deep.


Lemme share a true life story.

I was in church one day, and the pastor admonishing us is actually the state youth coordinator. Also for SW zone.
He's influential and also an erudite.
But the problem that he has to him is that his son doesn't listen to him.

He tried every thing he could, Prayers, Scolding and the likes. It even got to a point he said he had to burn all his clothes that he doesn't like and other stuff like that.
But this didn't change the guy.

And then he tried something he hasn't done. He decided to leave him alone and simply show him more love. And continually pray for him.

Today, the guy doesn't oppose him, he isn't strong headed. And he even goes to church willingly as opposed to previous time.



The essence of this is that parents shouldn't fight fire to fire when they feel their children aren't doing their will.
Let him/her see things in your way in a loving manner.
There are different ways to kill a rat.

Fighting it fire for fire will only spur the fire and make it bigger.
Why don't you try fighting the fire with water and things will work well.


TheRock555, just take it easy. And don't go Psycho please.

Try and see if you too can make compromise for him.

Haa, this is heavy.

You really need to ask your mom some serious questions. Cos there are things that can make a man behave like that to a child. Please Question your mom.
1... How he met your dad
2... Were you given birth to out of wedlock
3... Sorry for this buh ask ask all the same. Is that man really your dad?
4... Think on more question to ask her. Her replies will give you a bit hint to get a solution.

Pls ask Wisely.

And also please pray very well. You can even get to consult any counselor for counsel or a PASTOR.

I hope ur dad will read this...
Dad, beating and hatred can't change a Child. If he/she becomes great later, you might not be recognized and you don lose be dat. Why don't you treat with Love and care. And pray also for your children.


God bless you!

jaymejate:
Haa, this is heavy.

You really need to ask your mom some serious questions. Cos there are things that can make a man behave like that to a child. Please Question your mom.
1... How he met your dad
2... Were you given birth to out of wedlock
3... Sorry for this buh ask ask all the same. Is that man really your dad?
4... Think on more question to ask her. Her replies will give you a bit hint to get a solution.

Pls ask Wisely. God bless you!

My parents married legally in church and I'm the second child and first male


I have doubted my parentage lots of times because I was the only child among my siblings given birth to in the village, maybe I was exchange by some faggort nurses because I don't behave one bit like any body else in the house

The cower in fear while he speaks, I oppose him when he speaks uncorted lies.

BTW he's a preacher so nothing seems wrong to him. If I begin to spill everything, I might run out of pages

Therock5555
first...your father is a wizard... forget the fact dah you think he's a preacher or whoever... now,being a wizard does not necessarily mean one must fly at night or do stuff like dah...for someone esp a man you call your father to wish you same fate that befell kogi Guber candidate, then I'm sorry to term him a 'wizard'...

now I'm not asking you to kill him because of that, buh trust me,those negative words he constantly speaks into your life definitely have effects on you,if you don't see those effects now, then you sure would see 'em in the near future..and you definitely can't leave the house now since you said you are already in the higher institution, you sure need someone to pay your bills and all...

the question is 'what can you do?'

-first,you need Jesus in your life,you gas embrace Him,only Him can give you peace in that house...

-you need to pray more, always use your dad as a point of contact, and whenever he speaks any negativity into your life,do not hesitate to reject it(in your heart of course) to avoid aggravating him(he's still your father and your elder)

-try to make yourself invisible in that house,even when he blows the biggest lies in the world, do not challenge him or try to show him you stand for the truth,that would make him feel you're trying to rub shoulders with him,he's still the head of the family and of course, there can't be two captains on a ship, instead, channel that energy into your educational career...

-I can't type much,buh I hope you find peace.

Therock5555:


My parents married legally in church and I'm the second child and first male


I have doubted my parentage lots of times because I was the only child among my siblings given birth to in the village, maybe I was exchange by some faggort nurses because I don't behave one bit like any body else in the house

The cower in fear while he speaks, I oppose him when he speaks uncorted lies.

BTW he's a preacher so nothing seems wrong to him. If I begin to spill everything, I might run out of pages

Okay, but seriously you can overcome him.
Why don't you try to move even more closer to him. Behave good.
I remember when i was growing up. My dad beat he out of me but as i begin de grow... I started behaving like a man as in i moved close to him. Anything he wants to do i help him to do it immediately. Im in skul now, and he is missing, same thing with my brothers.

You just have to know that even if he carry Fire for head, you can quench it. Be a man bro and don't think that NURSE miscarry u o.

End time Dad

Ishilove:

Oh dear...I'm speechless...

So u quote the whole post to write dis small tin....?

Receive sense!

The poster above me also need to "Receive sense"!

@OP....move out of that house, no matter what it takes cos if you don't, due to your depressed state you may even begin to consider taking you life.

No excuses, move out of that house and stay as far as you can from your dad or you would lose you sanity or even worse, commit suicide.

This one is strong

Its not easy been a preachers child because they want you to be a PERFECT example to others out there. I can relate to this but your own strong sha... just put him in prayers. Proverbs 21:1 The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD, as the rivers of water: he turneth it whithersoever he will.


Develop yourself positively, and when you finally leave home for school, try to make them proud. All these will pass, that is one thing I'm sure of.

ModiKen:

So u quote the whole post to write dis small tin....?
Recieve sense!

lol. And it's "receive" not "recieve". oh! you're welcome

Therock5555:


My parents married legally in church and I'm the second child and first male


I have doubted my parentage lots of times because I was the only child among my siblings given birth to in the village, maybe I was exchange by some faggort nurses because I don't behave one bit like any body else in the house

The cower in fear while he speaks, I oppose him when he speaks uncorted lies.

BTW he's a preacher so nothing seems wrong to him. If I begin to spill everything, I might run out of pages

I guess the bold is the root of the issues. You must have been too curious and challenging since a toddler. He probably see it as a deviant behavior and in a bid to straighten you, he adopted the"negative " approach which many parents do adopt.

Get to the library, buy him a book on child developmental psychology. He needs to learn some stuff.

Meanwhile, you need to learn how to pass across your opinion without him seeing you as rude and disobedient.

"Made to kneel down"... Bruv, how old are you?

I would suggest you moving out of your parents house. That'll do you a lot more good

Men usually suffer from this kind of domestic torture for long.The best you can do is to endure him for sometime till you get to an age when you can peacefully leave the house.

Sometimes walahi our parents can say very demeaning things to us, not knowing such words finds a very dark place in our heart to settle.
Seriously, I really do not take such words from anybody, not even my parents. There should be a limitation to the kind of insulting words that should be used on a child, else that child will in the long run have terrible low esteem.

evegran:



lol.
And it's "receive" not "recieve".
oh! you're welcome

Thanks. No mind me. Typo.

BTW, na u dey ur profile pic

lasisi69
end time


my Broda you are a man oooo, forget military man ooo e fit still rugged ooo Buh yu no go gree.
just keep on praying ooooo,cos your fada his gonna be a hard nut to crack.

whenever you have a seminar/event please Go ooooo, because you attend or not this man will still hunt you.. definitely you are the one loosing and you keep on be spank

if you also no any of your fada bestie in the military my Broda run too that man and explain things oo, trust me your fada would listen unto

don't ever dream of living the house oooo
#WHATDOESNOKILLYOUMAKEYOUSTRONGER
#BEMEEK
#PRAYER
#KEEPWORKING




OR


TAKE KNIFE GO AND MEET MUM IN HER ROOM THREATEN HER that you will kill your Self
LET HER TELL YOU WHO YOUR REAL FATHER HIS,MAKE SURE YOU DOING ALL THIS WITH PASSION