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Romance › Re: I might die before I clock 30 by ChildOfDoom(op): 10:19am On Oct 17, 2020

I wonder why I only feel relaxed after I lose what I have. These days, youths are no longer guaranteed of living long as our forefathers of old. So many exuberances that could lead to our waterloo. There is internet fraud, mistaken identity, stray bullet from sporadic shots, rituals, strange illnesses, impersonation, wrong accusations, temptation to rape, date or sleep with pedophiles, lynching because of public stealing, violence, drug addiction, gambling, abortion etc.

My realistic prayer is to make it to 30 years before something takes my life. I will resume church service again by tomorrow to seek God's intervention

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Romance › Re: I might die before I clock 30 by ChildOfDoom(op): 10:09am On Oct 17, 2020

This life I have chosen or which I am addicted to, might take my life sooner than later. I have seen people lose their life's savings, lose their properties, get arrested or lose their life in the process. I am 28 and will clock 29 in January. With the way I am going, only God knows. I already have kidney problems due to too many sugary junk food I patronize any time I am down. I also have partially blurred vision and back pains resulting from chronic masturbation after I lose all I have. I'm scared I am towing the former life again that made me flee benin to warri in order not to be killed by some cult guys for gambling with their leader's phone.

Hmm. Maybe what I need is living under a mentor who can help me reconstruct my life. Or maybe gamblers like me need to be avoided as we could cause more harm to those that show us love.

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Romance › Re: I might die before I clock 30 by ChildOfDoom(op): 9:59am On Oct 17, 2020

Currently in the midst of lowlives like me in a bet9ja shop, talking about our misfortunes and laughing to our misfortunes. If bet9ja was to give awards to the most miserable youths via their platform, I would be in top 10 on the list. Don't pity me again. Some of us are lost while others are making a way for themselves. Maybe I should stop working and block any means of seeing money till I restore my mental sanity. Hmm. But my mum is at a breaking point. She wouldn't feed me regularly or provide my needs. What other option do I have?

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Romance › I might die before I clock 30 by ChildOfDoom(op): 9:51am On Oct 17, 2020

Back from a bet9ja shop after playing bet9ja virtual. I lost 4500 naira I convinced the ss 3 students in the school i work to save with me. I just couldn't stand thinking of my pending debts with no way to settle them. The money I was keeping for them was the only way I could think of solving the pertubing problems I had. I owe the woman that sells close to my school about 7000 naira. My director's remaining debt is 28,500. I was tired of working without pay. I needed a way out. Until a good job or breakthrough comes, I may never change. This is my fate. I am doomed for life. For now, my addiction to bet9ja virtual is stronger than my will to stop it. I was foolish not to have played a bet slip of about 500 and save the rest for the students or for upkeep.

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Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:24am On Oct 11, 2020

Uzomacharles:
I guess bet9ja or Betking....

Enjoy

Just 3800??

U should have people there how much they brought to the place

bet9ja virtual. The amount is not what i am worried about. The disappointment is that i have betrayed the promise I made to myself to stop. If you read my past threads, you will see that I 'used to be' a chronic gambler

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:29pm On Oct 10, 2020

uniqueboi1:
Virtual dae wreck people. Desist from it. Na village you go go ooooooo

hmm very valid statement. Some fled home because of this. Some from landlord to tenant, some sell their shops, some get into problems with daredevils and law enforcement agencies. I'm alive is a miracle. I hope to pull out for good and live to tell the story

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 1:48pm On Oct 10, 2020

Xoly:
[color=#000000]But I don't understand ooo, how can betting be so addictive to people like this?
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it's beyond comprehension. Gambling cripples one's ambition and rational thinking, irrespective of class, age or gender

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:29am On Oct 10, 2020

emeijeh:
Guy, use the 800 nails chewk yourself

I corrected it. It was an error from my phone that changed 'naira' to 'nails'

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 8:07pm On Oct 09, 2020

motionarena:
sent

thank you sir. You have brightened my mood and made me forget the hurt of yesterday. God bless you

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 4:42pm On Oct 09, 2020

motionarena:
droo ur account number

okay sir. I dropped it earlier. It is zenith bank, name - miracle okobia. Account no - 2375193046

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 2:02pm On Oct 09, 2020

Madibah:
You didn't do something stupid
You're just stupid

hmm.. Deep down, there is a good man behind my ugly character. My stupidity is partly caused by my mum who would always pamper me when being scolded by my dad for a wrong action. I am still trying to learn the hard way, to reconstruct my life. I used to have the entitlement ego that anything I want I get. If only I had self-control and was disciplined from the start

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 9:50pm On Oct 08, 2020

benzene00:
drop your account no.

quote me with this post so I can see your message earlier

kk. Zenith bank 2375193046 miracle okobia.

Kind-hearted nairalanders, please intervene to upgrade my status. That way, I will stop being desperate to gamble

Romance › Re: Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 9:47pm On Oct 08, 2020

BopZaddy:
Drop your account number let me wire you back the 3k

Thank you sir. It will help brighten my mood. That way I continue my rehabilitation. I have lost sleep thinking as in the past (deja vu).

Zenith bank 2375193046 miracle okobia

Romance › Oh God! I Just Did Something Stupid by ChildOfDoom(op): 3:26pm On Oct 08, 2020

I thought I had changed. Hmm. I feel worthless and empty again. I went to the bet shop with 800 naira. My intention was just to go there and charge my phone. There has been an epileptic power supply in my area.

Unfortunately, I played virtual with the 800 naira while trying my luck. This sent a big shock into my body. I had to look for ways to 'recover' my money. I ran home and begged one of my neighbours to buy the fancy music player I had for 3000 naira. This is something I bought with over 13k. To cut the long story short, I am just back from the bet shop. I lost the money too.

I feel distraught and ashamed of myself. My rehabilitation has collapsed. You are free to pour in your insults

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Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 11:58pm On Oct 07, 2020

novice22:
tow which path......

betting is the highest scam as long as am concerned and i have decided to follow the step of hardlife.

congratulation though for staying off it for 90 days.....

I strongly believe anything mastered can be unlearn.

yes o brotherly. I thought you were yet to quit from your regular complains of betting. That was why I said you are not ready to tow my path. Glad you are trying to change like me too

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:31pm On Oct 07, 2020

kaynacy:
life has given u another chance...try make the right choices from now on
u go dey okay bro

okay sir. I pray I can withstand the slow and steady rebirth I will undergo, and be able to shun all vices

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:16am On Oct 07, 2020

JIMMY1393:
The covid-19 relief fund is a loan which you would still pay back so if you've squandered it on nothing meaningful then oyo

hmmm... The repercussion scares me. I am preparing my mind for the consequences now. That way I don't get into more trouble. I noticed that trying to gamble my way of a situation, puts me in more trouble

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 8:19pm On Oct 06, 2020

CAPSLOCKED:
HOW FAR?
I GET SURE CORRECT SCORES FOR YOU.
YOU FIT SELL YOUR PHONE STAKE AM, E GO COME.

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:17am On Oct 05, 2020

Sapiosexuality:
Keep it up, bro. I love the spirit. The topic got me scared but the content calmed me. Please, keep it up. Three months is good but forever is better.

okay boss. I will keep striving to make the nairaland family proud of me too. It's been bumpy

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:52pm On Oct 04, 2020

Freestainworld:
Gambling is a very strong addiction, somehow I was able to deal with it in a very positive manner, just stay away from gambler's

happy for you. You are right, I have changed my clique of friends to sanitise my thoughts

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 12:38pm On Oct 04, 2020

Akamariner:
First thing first.

Forgive yourself and concentrate on being happy with the little things that comes your way.

Hmm. I try to stay placated now by immersing myself in my job and getting a stronger addiction (junk food and porn). Because if I get idle, I get sober and hate myself

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:50am On Oct 04, 2020

Disturb:
come give me the jazz wey you take de win this giveaways..

⅛ of that and my life don change

giveaways are very hard o. It requires lots of begging, vigilance (data on 24/7) and activeness on different celebrities pages. Only 1 out of 10 works out. Since then I am yet to win again sad

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 11:37pm On Oct 03, 2020

JOACHINpedro:
Posting it on this section means you're not serious

hmm.. This was the section I started from

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 3:38pm On Oct 03, 2020

Zzor:
You are not over it until you forgive yourself,dust everything off and start over again,don't condemn yourself when God hasn't.Some experience are needed for a better tomorrow,your strength now is you not going back to it, my prayers are with you.You shall be great,also find something meaningful and engage in it so as to take most of your time.You are only weak when you submit to your weakness and allow it overwhelm you.Get up and do the needful.May God guide you right

yes o. I don't wanna go back to that life again. I will rather gift the little I have to someone than gamble with it and be under the spell of betting again. Thanks for your concern

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 12:01pm On Oct 03, 2020

Madibah:
Bet kills faster than Corona
I Know I'm a gangster right from the hood
But bet isn't in my agenda
Bet is crazy
Bet has more addiction than caffeine

very addictive. One can do whatever it takes (both genuine and dubious means) to make money to gamble. Only masturbation comes close

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:44am On Oct 03, 2020

chatinent:
I never gamble because I see no reason to begin anticipating to win millions with few hundreds.

Don't be sad, bro.

Just move on.

'move one' is something i should have done since I lost my first 15,000 to betting. I was adviced then. Had I listened........

By the way, happy to know you are contented. You have no idea what desperation has done to me and many youths

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 2:44am On Oct 03, 2020

Disturb:
Novice.22

he is unwilling to tow my path.

Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:37pm On Oct 02, 2020*

I am 28 years old but betting has pushed my life back to when I was just 16 years with nothing. That was when i just finished secondary school. No babe, no investment, no house of my own, no proper qualification, no decent clothing, nothing. When ever I go out, I live in regret of what my life would have been if I had spent all I amassed in 6 years well. I am a low-life now. At times, I eat Eba and egusi at local restaurants. It hardly exceeeds 250 naira due to my budget. At times, after eating, I would imagine the kind of food I would have eaten if I saved all the money I made. When I wear torn or patched clothes out, and I see my mates well-dressed and glowing, I imagine the kind of designers clothes I could have been able to get with the money I raised overtime. When I visit people who have attractive interiors/houses, I begin to imagine how I would have had a house of mine with a sound system and flat screen T.V. All my dreams are dashed now till God knows when. I use an obsolete TECNO f2 whose 2000mhz battery has become so weak. I could have easily bought the new infinix zero8 if I had planned well. I remain downcast in sober reflection. Everything I see reminds me of my mistakes.

If i had graduated with my mates in 2015, maybe I would have got a good job by now and saved a lot for marriage, if not for the 'demonic bet9ja virtual' i was introduced to that year. Imagine if I had bought a firman generator with that money as well as dstv for comfort at home with mama. Mama would have been proud. I wouldn't have to pay 50 naira to watch football outside. I feel less human and like one unable to think for himself. Maybe staying humbled will help me overcome.

Well... I hope to update you guys again by the beginning of November on my progress. I set a target of 6 months without gambling for my renaissance.

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Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:22pm On Oct 02, 2020

I could have been arrested or beaten up if not for my employer who stood for me. My past assiduousess was why he liked me. Not only did I squander all the money I made in the first six months of the year, I also gambled with some of my candidates enrollment money in my desperation. By March 2020, I had gambled off about 101,500 naira that wasn't mine. I had to open up to my mum to join me and beg my director to cover up for me till I paid back. It has not been easy. I have been living in penury, having only a morsel of food to cope with and negative thoughts. I hit my body on something at times in disgust. It was my penance for my foolishness.

Till the end of this year, I will work as a slave for my boss for nothing, till I pay up. My brothers and sisters, this is money I did not eat o. Now paying the price. Throughout the WASSCE, I worked my ass out engaging in WASSCE runs. All I made was used to service the debt. The long time out of work also did not help matters in paying back the money on time. Sometimes, I feel like running away to another state to start working afresh in order to be paid. But I will stay and protect my integrity. Not like before i fled benin.

Even the 3 months Moratorium from government before I get to pay back the relief loan is off. I wonder what their next action would be. If only we could undo the past. The lust of the flesh has led me to my waterloo

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Romance › Re: I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:01pm On Oct 02, 2020

Just from January to June this year alone, I raised nothing less than 600,000 naira. This same period people were crying of no funds. I raised such huge amount and squandered it. I got the funds from:

1) I made 150000 naira alone convincing students to write WASSCE at my work place. There was the usual commission for bringing candidates. I inflated the enrollment figures to get more. I made a lot from a lady in Germany who wanted to write the exam in absentia.
2) I was among the lucky citizens that got the covid-19 relief money from the federal government. A whooping 250,000 naira was given to me
3) I got 50,000 naira from don jazzy during his lockdown giveaway
4) I made 50000 from January to March engaging tirelessly in teaching WASSCE and UTME classes.
5) I luckily got 50,000 naira from Cubana chief priest on live video in Instagram
6) I got 10,000 naira from helen paul after getting her trivia question.

Hmm. The aforementioned and many more was lost to bet9ja virtual. All my sweat and time squandered at betshops. I could have used those funds to kickstart my life. With betting, we are slaves to our addiction. Now all source of making good money is dried up. They took my labour and joy

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Romance › I Will Never Forgive Myself by ChildOfDoom(op): 5:55pm On Oct 02, 2020

It's been 3 months without gambling. From july to september ending. Miraculous! I should be happy for my progress, but I am not. 6 years of bet9ja addiction, has already destroyed me beyond repair. If you see me now, i look unkempt. I hardly take care of my body and health. My body deserves to suffer for my years of foolishness. I am always distraught and disillusioned. I will let you in on reasons why I will never forgive myself....

Romance › Re: Many Of Us Are Fools by ChildOfDoom(op): 12:59pm On Sep 07, 2020

austine4real:

It is well with you my brother

amen. Thanks for your concern. I will keep striving

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