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I think this is inevitable now. A parent of another student sent in 65000 naira today for enrolment. I blew it on Bet9ja virtual. Despite not gambling for 19 days, I broke my vow and went back. Hmmm. A Leopard never changes his spot I guess. The money I owe now totals 265000 naira.

There is no way i can pay back now before April. The more I try to fix the problem, the more I go deep into problems.

I will confess before Easter and await my arrest. Maybe suffering for once could reset my brain.

Though the thought of being locked up with hardened criminals is scary.

Please nairalanders, is there any job I can do to raise this money in record time. I don't mind even turning gay to please any rich gay here.

Restless, hopeless and sleepless at the moment as I search for solutions

Stephenmoka4:
I don't know if it's attention or stories but, if it's true; try to repay in batches e.g. 40k, 40k, 30k, 40k, 50k. If you want to wait till the 200k complete, you might end up spending part of it.

hmm. only a miracle will help me pay back. for now, I will only be able to pay back 45k in all, within three months before my secret is leaked.

I earn 20k monthly. I plan eating 6k monthly (200 per day). then 4k monthly rent. that means 10k is gone and 10k left for rent. then I do extra-lessons from 5pm to 7pm. from there I can raise 5k monthly. that means 15k per month to settle debt. only 45k can be raised by April.

I'm so bleeped. but no matter the pressure, I won't gamble again (by God's grace)

realman42:
Yeah...life can be saddening.we all need something to calm us.real babe for beta Sha

I can't afford a real babe. I'm broke and indebted. I also can not patronise prostitutes as they can not provide the maximum satisfaction I need at a low rate

thesicilian:
Your body will tell you when to stop.

hmm. I know the side effect like weak erection and kidney problem, but I can't help it. if I don't hold on to carbonated drinks and masturbation, I may fall back to gambling out of desperation. And you know that is more disastrous to me

I try as much as possible now to work extra-hard in order to get my mind off negative things. as a result, I get home 7pm each day, as opposed to the official closing time of 4pm.

but when I get home, my troubles stare me in the face. I have barely three months to generate close to 200k of my boss I squandered early January. This makes me lose sleep and get disillusioned

the only thing that uplifts my mood now and help me sleep is, masturbation and Pepsi consumption to 'sweeten my life' a little. then I pass out. this will be my routine

Good to note that since last week Monday, I have not visited a betnaija shop for any reason. Roughly ten days now. I have also worked on some of my unhealthy habits as well as some tendencies for paedophilia.

But I can't just give up all my addictions. The world will just be too sad and bitter for me to live in. I will stick to my addictions to Pepsi and masturbation to see me through

tosan245:
What I can tell you is this, If you truly make the decision to change and save your life (because you are dying slowly) you would be a beam of light and hope to alot of people who are going through what you are going through presently.
Make that decision today, look for someone to that would be willing to take the walk of change with you, someone who would be patient with you and not judge you even when you fall. Change bro and when you do, there are a multitudeof people who would see your story as Hope to save theirs.

oh i see. I will try. So far, 6 days without bet9ja. I also went to church after a while. For a start

ReligionofPiss:
you dey learn work.
My 30 year old friend is a university dropout, his uncle gave him 900k to go get a shuttle bus and use it to make a meaning for his life but dude used the money on virtual at bet9ja and lost all the amount.
Today he's still addicted and I couldn't let him stay with me again

hmm. We (Bet9ja virtual addicts) have something in common - misery. Since 2015 I started, I have lost over five million naira. Money I would not have made ordinarily if I were honest. Bet9ja addicts make money through whatever means (including dubious means) to feed their addiction

dumahi:
This post has again revealed how WICKED most Nigerians are. Someone had the gut to expose himself so much because he is in dire need of help but not a single compassion from many commenters here.

As for you OP, my first advise to you is to STOP cursing yourself. For instance, your moniker alone is self-curse. Again, the title of this thread is self-curse.

I understand you are a very HONEST person due to your Catholic (I bet) background. It makes you to have very honest attitude but you are now honest TO A FAULT if it now leads you to a negative self-image which is very clear from your post.

Know this: Negative self-image is not a virtue. For instance, it's not genuine humility. It is the function of subconscious ingratitude towards your Creator who made you so fearfully and wonderfully! It doesn't lead to repentance rather, it reinforces bad habits SINCE YOU THINK YOU ARE WORTHLESS ("after all, worthless things should be treated dishonorably" is how your subconscious puts it to you CONSTANTLY.

So, what should you do about this situation?
1. Start NOW to change your self-communication from negative to positive. See how: In your privacy, always tell yourself "I am a handiwork of the Most High. Therefore, I am great. I am honorable. I am grateful to my Maker for making me so great" and more like this. As you are doing this, DON'T STRUGGLE WITH YOUR BAD HABITS. Instead, they will go away by themselves. Think of what happens to a drowning person: if he struggles with the water, he gets drowned finally. But if he lets go and relaxes, he gets saved. So, don't struggle with your bad habits. For instance, if that girl comes and you find yourself sucking her as usual, don't worry about it. BUT DON'T BE OBSESSING ON SUCH THOUGHTS. Instead, spend your thoughts on being grateful for how great you are (which is NOT EVEN A LIE, judging from your writing ability). As your self-honor increases, YOU WILL NATURALLY STOP THOSE BAD HABITS. But, be warned: they are going to ease off on their own as you continuously impregnate yourself with POSITIVE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS.
2. Don't listen to Devil's voices telling you how useless you are via other people (like your boss or colleagues or Nairalanders or Facebookers talking down on you.
3. I will introduce you to an audio that will help you to IMMEDIATELY start transforming your finances by transforming your mindset. You will see that EVERYTHING about you actually depends on your mindset. Let me get the link (I'll be right back).

thanks. Please don't be discouraged by those tagging you. The have no idea how addictions break one down. I appreciate your support. I will keep fighting to overcome

agbangam:
He needs somebody that will help him pay off his debts.
He needs someone that will constantly visit him and encourage him to go to church.
He needs a good girl with good lubido in his life.
Finally he needs to talk to himself to put a stop to his unholy ways.
Someone should first of all assist him to clear all his debts.

exactly. You must be a psychiatrist. The thoughts of how I will pay back the money I owe, drives me into more gambling 'to recover'. Someone please save me and help me pay my debts (or parts of it). I promise to be good henceforth. 'a clear conscience knows no wrong.'

My thoughts keeps pushing me to stake more. At times, I am woken up at nights by scary dreams of the people I owe, hunting me down.

Randy100:
Diary of an indiscipline man. You are not going to die. Brace up, cos you will pay all that you owe.

wow. Thank you for the belief. Though it's a huge mountain to climb, considering my meagre pay, but I will try to surmount it.

unhygienic behaviour

in a bid to impress, I do thoughtless things. three days ago I caught up with an old friend. in order to seduce her, I sucked her vagina. she hadn't taken her bath and was sweaty when we met. I even rubbed petroleum jelly cream on her boobs and sucked it off intermittently. naive and naughty me! I currently have issues with my larynx, abi windpipe. probably a growth.i can't breath well.

I also expose food and plates, despite knowing there are rodents and cockroaches in my room. sometimes I don't wash the plates before I use. I do not wash hands from the toilet before feasting. Lost passion for etiquette. I do eat roadside food regularly, exposed to flies (na Dem cheap pass). the list is endless. gamblers hardly pay attention to their health or well-being. I feel bad though that all Mama's advice and admonishment while growing up failed to reflect in my life.

I will stop here for now

risky practice

I wonder why evil tend to appease the mind more than good. I used to be very pious, chaste and responsible when growing up. THINGS FALL APART.

My 12 years of teaching (started early), I never for once had paedophilia tendencies. I was diligent and one of the best wherever I worked. These days of 'mad' exposure, I Begin to fantasize about trying teacher-student fun. I am currently close to the females in the secondary section. we do have hot chats on social media but I never pushed it further than that. I do see what happens to paedophiles. some lynched, some publicly humiliated or jailed. human rights activities are on rape/child abuse cases every now and then. I hope I don't get messed up by my obnoxious and indiscriminate thoughts soon, as I know some girls are just waiting for me to 'make the move' and spend.

Secondly, I mingle too much with the wrong people. I noticed a place in Hausa Quarters where Android phones are sold at a very cheap rate. I patronise them as I can't save up to buy a new one. Though I know these phones could be stolen, I can't help it. The phone I use currently is from there. A strong , latest version 4G phone for 12k. I formatted the phone and switched off the location. This will be the fourth phone I am buying from there. when I get tired of using any one, I re-sell and buy another one. people have advised me to stop as I could still be traced with the IMEI code. A keke-napep rider (tricycle rider) who picked me up after I bought the current one I am using, try to dissuade me from the trade. he told me of how a neighbour of his was tracked and tortured after buying from an unverified source. He said the man was arrested and made to pay through his nose. now I am palpitating, but I need this Android phone to browse. so I will take my chances

superfluous habits

There is this tendency to always abuse any habit I undergo. At times, to the detriment of my health. my frustrations, idleness and daring nature makes me engage in extreme masturbation. I have been on it since 2011. at the start, I would masturbate for just five minutes, cum and relax. but now I hardly let my dick rest. I developed a habit of delaying cum. and when I cum, I rest a little and stimulate myself again with my thoughts, porn or sex chat. I now use roughly 7 hours for a session. my cock is now frail and veiny. as I write this, I have done it twice today And will continue tonight. I can't stop despite it giving me back pain, veins pain and blurred vision.

any time I finish and get so weak, I take loads of sugary stuff to gain energy. then sleep a little before I continue. that has been the way I clear my head after a huge loss and cure depression. I have so far taken three carbonated drinks today alone (malt, coke and Pepsi). thanks to Mama Blessing who sells close to my office. she allows me buy on credit till I am paid salary. my addiction to sugary junk food and Pepsi dates back to 2010 when I entered campus. I currently have pains at my lower abdomen. when I bend or sneeze, I feel pain. I know my kidney is finished by now. despite seeing how sugary things affected and killed Danjuma's daughter, I can't stop

BETTING

The biggest of my problems since 2015. Thank God I didn't place a curse on myself to die if I gambled again. I would have really died. I am just from a Bet9ja shop. Someone in my compound paid 1500 to me in order to join our WASSCE lesson by Monday. I couldn't hold back when I went to a bet shop to charge my phone. I vowed not to play Bet9ja virtual again. so I decided to try my luck with live bet. I lost it all in just two attempts. I have a stupid mentality of 'risk it all for the highest return'. This has been my story early this year already. I am given money in trust based on my position at the office, and then I stake most of it. without mincing words, I owe about 175,000 naira from a total of 350,000 I have collected so far. one mind is telling me to own up so I am reprimanded and no further money is paid to me. but on the other hand, I am scared of the Director's reaction. so I want to hide my shaddy deals for the umpteen time. last year, it took my mum pleading and an undertaken, to be let off the hook. I had to pay back the 90,000 naira with about 6 months salary. Now I owe double. I am doomed. By April, when WASSCE comes up, I will face the music.

Every parent(s) wish to see their children live long and prosper. There's a popular saying that: 'children should be the ones burying their parents and not the other way round'. I doubt if I will cross 30 years. I am currently 29 years and living a mischievous life of a carefree, recalcitrant and frivolous brat. it has become an uncontrollable habit now that I only derive joy in evil things. many of which will soon terminate my life. let me let you in on some repulsive lifestyle of mine.......

Molahnelson:
very simple just contact that guy name Chil.dofDoom him co help you

thanks me later

bro, bet9ja virtual is the strongest kind of addiction i ever knew. No way out. I've been miserable for five years now

novice22:
Am convinced without any reasonable doubt that devil is not the cause of my affliction but rather i am the devil in my life, there is a being that keeps whispering to me that Do i know what it means to win millions with N100. from there the circle continues.

exactly. I wonder why i only buckle up when in trouble. Sheer waywardness, Desperation and unwillingness to let go is what is killing me. I want to try a new method of no more going to a bet9ja shop, for whatever reason. Evil company corrupts good manners

Kriss216:
Lol

You never ready to save yourself.

08114440848. Please link me up with booking number odds. Since I can't stop betting, I will try switching to real games

EzegeNdiigbo:
drop your number lemme tell u how to make money through betting!!

08114440848

Stephenmoka4:
Sounds like another made-up stories, don't you get tired.

you have no idea what bet9ja virtual does to a person. I pray some one close to you does not swindle you to gamble before you believe addictions are real

ibechris:
Any body giving u a solution might just be wasting their time on u...we have offered u doses of it last year and if that can't work,just do as u wish.

Time shall tell whether na curse dey ur head abi na wetin ur papa do dey worry u.

it's one of the things I will find out when I travel to Ughelli. It might be a curse. During my father's gambling days, he duped a lot of people, some widows. Some placed a cursed that it will not be better for his family. Maybe that is what is following. The herbalist will reveal it to me

ShackWes:
guy go die

guys pls read my signature

i don't want to die

Kriss216:
Try and find 5K, I get sure free 20 Odds for you.

hmm. You may be right. People keep telling me to leave virtual matches (as they are programmed) and focus on real matches. I don't listen. Greed for quick money keeps destroying me. How do I get your games sir?

As principal in my school (new position due to my diligence), I received 80000 naira alert this morning. It is meant for the second candidate enrolment. I can't explain what happened. I just played it all. That makes it 150,000 naira I owe my director now. And it's just January.

I am sitting distraught at a bet9ja shop now. Confused on what to do. I have made up my mind to travel to Ughelli, with the aid of a friend. I want to meet a native doctor to place a curse on myself that 'if I gamble again, I should die'. Many people are trying to talk my mind out of it. They are saying I will just die for nothing. But I feel it's the only way out.

Some are suggesting having friends around or a girlfriend, because I am always alone with my thoughts (an introvert).

EzegeNdiigbo:
Is like you're bet addict(Virtual precisely ) ??

yes sir

I am not losing hope on myself yet. I am tired of writing of my issues. I am only going to write on my progress (by God's grace). For a start, I am setting a target of 100 days without visiting a betshop (whether for charging or watching football).

I started on Sunday. I have survived two days so far. 98 days to go. I will update you all steadily

Molahnelson:
why do you keep paying bet9ja

when you would have used that money to buy Bitcoin and watch the money grow
or used it to play crypto dice

bro's you dey Bleep up oh

Hmm. a friend I know lost all he had to cryptocurrency. He said something like he was locked out of his account due to some issues. Heard South Africa code is what people use in logging in. Is Nigeria recognised? I may be wrong though

It's just January 9th, yet I have lost out on 55,000 naira at a Bet9ja shop already. It's money meant for WAEC enrolment of a candidate of mine for this year. Now I am down. I need to think of an excuse to tell my Director in order for him to allow me pay back installmentally.
I know the year is just young and every one is having a target for the year. Mine is going down the drain already, like previous years.

That's what addictions make people do. Pour out your frustrations too. It could be the spirit of masturbation, womanising, gambling, drugs etc killing your dreams. SHARE

He's probably weighed down by the burden of marriage and wants out

yomi007k:

You deserve a black christmas and not pity.

Have a gloomy Christmas.

hmm

JoyIsSweet:
If person say make e help you now, wetin be the assurance say you no go end am for bet9ja shop again?

hmm. I have learnt my lesson