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Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:46pm On Jul 11, 2020

Ejusni:
I think you're a con artist. I think you are pretending. Your motive is what I don't know, with the way you write... I'm very sure you are well educated.
Maybe you are using nairaland to hone your skills as a writer? I seriously doubt you're a nobody.

hmm.. you are right to say I am educated. i am a spill-over student awaiting my result. Things were going well for me till i lost focus in my final year due to bet9ja. I currently teach English in a substandard/low-paying school, with my SSCE result. So i worked on my diction over time. Gambling addiction and its effect is not a respecter of class. I have seen a lecturer get wrecked due to gambling

Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 11:44am On Jul 11, 2020

offset67:
Op

hmmm. k. I just hope I won't say one thing and go back to the opposite later

Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:40am On Jul 11, 2020

Michael820:
I wish I can say I know you feel, but I think I have at glimpse of what hopelessness is..but thank God for your case you are already making actionable steps to have a turn around and I must commend your honesty and "little step" approach to solving your problem.

It's not going to be easy, but I will advice you to find a goal, a plan, or a passion something that makes the work(of getting) worth doing and much pleasurable..it could be as simple as the joy of your mother, proving everyone wrong or even been financially stable .. picture it and hold on to it.

I wish you all the best my brother. Thanks for sharing

Those three things highlighted will be my motivation henceforth. Thanks for the tips

Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 8:38pm On Jul 10, 2020

emillysmigael:
I do not know what to say as I don't want to say something that will sound wrong... But pls, if you can... Stop gambling. Peoplè that were worse than you think you are, are now living responsibly.
Maybe someday, I will be able to share my story to encourage you.

okay

. I really hope i am done with bet9ja for good. I will try not to be moved by the comfort (steady light, dstv and 'friends') there

Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 4:54pm On Jul 10, 2020

niceguy555:
The best way to solve a problem is to admit and fight it. I believe that you can stop it since you have taken that decision and you must fight now. It is never late to improve your way of living

okay sir. I will try. My short-term target is at least one month without gambling. So far, since beginning of july, i have not gambled

Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 1:17pm On Jul 10, 2020

Blacklifematter:
It's sad I don't know what to do either looking for ways to end my life as I think this is how it will keep going am just fed up. Looking for a painless death

hmm.. My brother. It's a feeling that only those in our shoes can relate to. The song 'pray for me' by Dare Art Alade is what i use to soothe my mood as i seek redemption/breakthrough

Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 9:18am On Jul 10, 2020

3) LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS

I tremble when I think of what it would be like when one is snuffed of life. Where does he go to? What happens to his aspirations? Is there an after life or bodies just decay in the ground? Lots of palpitating thoughts keep me going. Just once I went to jail, it wasn't funny at all. Knowing you are caged somewhere with no way out. I might be foolish, I might be miserable, I might be useless, I might be a bad egg and so on. But it is a lot better than being dead. So, I will not kill myself.

If one goes to the hospital and see how people battle to survive, one has reasons to be grateful. I have been seriously ill before, so I know what I am saying. The rich, no matter their wealth, die from some incurable ailments.

Ever wondered what sustains the mad people on the streets. Don't be surprised that wayward people like me will keep surviving while some well-to-do or good people die. That's life for you. So never wish bad for another

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Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 8:58am On Jul 10, 2020*

2) USE ME AS AN EXAMPLE

I will not use sniper as some do or anything else. Just allow me live and share my lamentations once in a while. The unfortunate, live amongst the blessed, to serve as an example on how to live life in order not to be miserable. When your younger ones or male children try to tow the line of gambling, show them all my posts to make them desist from it. I am not happy running from one state to another to avoid those who hunt me. I am not happy gambling with my parent's or loved ones money or properties. I am not also happy making myself suffer or making others cry. It is what it is. That's what gambling addiction does to people. I know there are also other addictions your children should try to avoid. i have seen men get wrecked from coupon (pool) in the past. Never knew it will be my turn if i don't act pragmatically.

Do you know I have only 4 trousers and 8 shirts in a manageable condition. Most of which where handed to me by my younger brother after he bought new ones (we use almost the same size of clothes). I hardly think of buying new clothes. My hair is rough and body unkempt. Two out of the five boxers i wear were formerly for my younger brother.

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Romance › Re: I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 8:34am On Jul 10, 2020

1) I WILL KEEP STRIVING

I believe successful people today had some ugly past which they fought to overcome. Some die in their addictions or get everlasting 'scar'. But some pull through, after trying and trying to stop. It won't be easy but I will try. To give my soul peace and make my mum proud. I will start by trying to regulate the act. Addictions don't just die down. Just like I have made masturbation and taking of carbonated drinks thrice a week instead of everyday, I will regulate gambling. Instead of bet9ja, I will visit merrybet henceforth. That way I will overcome the spirit of virtual. There I can still charge my phone. It's almost impossible not to gamble as a football lover or an ambitious man. Considering there is no other job out there. So I will try to make it just 100 naira betslip a day or cumulative amount of 500 naira a week when I have money.

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Romance › I Have 3 Things To Say To Those That Want Me To Commit Suicide by ChildOfDoom(op): 8:32am On Jul 10, 2020*

I have seen over the years how people here have asked me to end my life and stop disturbing with my waywardness. It's true that people in a similar case as mine, would have long committed suicide.

I read a news of a guy who committed suicide after using 150,000 naira of his boss to play bet9ja. Hian! Considering the gravity of my betting addiction, I should have wasted my life, according to some people.

Only this year alone, I have gambled off 600,000 naira. You might think it's impossible considering I am a poor lowlife in a dormant city (Warri). Also, no money in this lockdown. For gambling, you work extra hard to make money or dupe people, just to foolishly gamble.

I have the brains to make money and live normal but my addictions get the best of me. I've resigned to fate of being unfortunate and doomed. You won't believe I have over 101,000 naira debt to pay my employer after using some WASSCE money to gamble (I will be his 'slave' when school resumes till I pay off). I made lots of money begging online during the lockdown. Don Jazzy gave me 50,000 naira. Helen Paul gave me 10,000 etc. The most traumatic experience was when I gambled off 250,000 naira central bank collateral-free loan given to ease the effect of the lockdown. Now, hunger has set in.

I am like a walking corpse. I am always sober, frustrated and depressed. I talk to myself. Always have nightmares due to my thoughts. At times, I scream or sob when I think of what I have done to myself. I blow the wall out of regrets. Unfortunately, we can't undo the past. Despite all these, I have 3 things to say to those who want me dead...

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Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 4:46pm On Jun 23, 2020

OscarJaden:
alright.... thanks bro...
incase of anything please let me know

i heard n-power for both graduates and non-graduates begins on Friday

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Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 7:14am On Jun 23, 2020

Meedon:
How I wish you can concentrate on learning a sweet skill

hmm. Which skill still pays in this lockdown? I need it

Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 12:25am On Jun 23, 2020*

suxkill:
Op l feel your pain cuz l was once in your shoe but thank God for delivering me from visual.

Some folks here might not believe you cuz they don't know what it means to be addicted to visual betting. l once sold my 6 months old Belgium Car Vectra 1.8 because of visual.
I'll advice you to pray first, secondly convince your self that someone out there wants you to be useless that's why you can't stop playing visual.

Honestly that was what worked for me, l don't know if it might work for you.

Finally, someone who sees things from my angle. The spirit of gambling is really terrible. Before one can recover himself, everything is gone within the twinkle of an eye.

I once sold my TV, DVD, iron, big foam, chair, sweater, umbrella, laptop, bucket etc., All in one day. To a guy that buys fairly used things (at a cheap rate). I lied I was a final year student, so he doesn't pity me. All to what purpose, gambling (bet9ja Virtual).

I hope to be totally free like you and not relapse again by going there. One thing I will never do, is commit suicide. I will keep striving. Even if it means working for 15 months without pay to clear my debts. I literally run from any bet9ja shop close by now. I have (am) suffered enough.

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Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:37am On Jun 20, 2020

Preshieben:
Can you please start by changing your moniker from childOf.Doom to something else
Then you pm me or you check my profile
My number is there
We can be best friends
If you story is really true
I can be of help to you

On the contrary, you should be scared of me. I am a bad influence

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Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 11:11am On Jun 19, 2020

OscarJaden:
any Link on how to apply for this central bank loan scheme?

it's late now. I tried applying for my mum earlier today. It shows 'maximum amount of persons found already'

Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:42am On Jun 19, 2020

Richardstallion:
How did you apply for the nirsal loan

nmfb.com.ng/covid-19-support/

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Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 10:07pm On Jun 18, 2020

JOACHINpedro:
You no mention the amount

250k. In this lockdown where money is hard to come by. I must be the dumbest person that ever liveth.

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Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 9:23pm On Jun 18, 2020

xxxtedyxxx:
Fake story.

You are a good writer. Use your talent for writing short stories you can easily sell.

my addiction story is real. I know it sounds weird talking about my miserable life. It's the way i'm wired. I've gotten a bloodied nose before for a shaddy deal i took part in to bet. I've sold my household items before (for a meagre amount) to gamble. I've seen youths beat up a young boy for stealing money to gamble. The list is endless. Once a person gets into a bad habit, the talent of such person is hidden

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Romance › Re: The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:05pm On Jun 18, 2020

FuckTheWorld:
The world is tired of people like you.
Please spare us of your miseries
And
Deal with your predicament!
You're a real childofdoom.

hmm.. The hard truth. Who knows, recounting my addiction could be a sort of warning or lesson to youths out there

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Romance › The Amount I Gambled Off Will Shock You by ChildOfDoom(op): 3:08pm On Jun 18, 2020*

During the lockdown, I applied for the Central Bank relief fund via NIRSAL microfinance bank. I never took it seriously. To my greatest surprise, the loan was approved without much documentation.

At that moment, I thought I had changed for the better. I was bent on making every one proud. I went to Robinson plaza to inquire about the new itel p36 Pro Lite launched. I was told to check back later. On my way out, I got a Bluetooth MP player for 12k.

I made the mistake of taking the device to a bet9ja shop to charge before going home. That was how the spirit of virtual lured me. Within the space of 30 minutes, I had made transfers over 15 times to the owner of the shop to play the game. Hmm.. Shame will not let me even mention how much the money was. It's an amount that would have changed my life.

I'm only left with 2000 naira now and the Bluetooth speaker which I now use to play sorrowful music. I will surely go into depression for a long time. The amount involved is over 6 digits. And one of the clause was to pay back within a year. So awestruck and distraught.

I'm a doomed child. Every open door is misused by me. I was a fool not to have just thought of buying a generator instead to charge at home.

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Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 6:55pm On May 25, 2020

fattprince:
I wanna have 4 from 4 women. And 6 if I go international. I'm the champion.

problems ahead you know

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 12:25pm On May 25, 2020

BusterG:

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 2:13am On May 25, 2020

rosy1992:
You should have the number of children you can train. I am OK with 1 or 2.

okay. Include God's intervention, proper care and strict monitoring. Some acts of children these days, can give parents hypertension

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 5:04pm On May 24, 2020

Benqozenero:
The problem is not the children. It's parental failure.

Parents are not the only agent of socialisation. There is the mass media, peer pressure etc. But i get you somehow. If parents could discipline their children well or give them their basic needs, they won't be so desperate to make it through different means

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Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 1:45pm On May 24, 2020

Lostz:
I want only 1 too. I can't spend my own life caring for them

That sh*t is scary. Being responsible for raising another. Nowadays, children still lean on their parents. Even in their thirties. I'm just a walking bomb

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Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 11:46am On May 24, 2020

Naija246:
it depends how you raise them op.
Environment too plays a huge role.

The internet,Tv, Socialmedia, School, Friends all play a major role in shaping a child.

Expose them to these things in a highly controlled manner.
Etc

hmm. One point. What of when they go to a boarding school or stay on campus in a higher institution. Different influences will still come in

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 8:02am On May 24, 2020

gregyboy:
Children are only cute when they are young, when the grow up they become your night mare....
I still wanna have just two fulfil all righteousness

hmm.. Maybe my opinion might change if i meet a saviour. For now, i don't even trust myself. Not to talk of trusting any one

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 9:42pm On May 23, 2020

tripplephi:
You are not a CHILD OF DOOM... you are just WEAK.

If you had STRONG GODLY INTENSE PARENTING... you would be far better by now.

Are we not both in the same generation? Yet we are very different, so pls if you need help, let us know because I refuse to believe that your life is finished and this is the best of you... NEVER... I believe you are only growing through a phase, you can be far better than your past if you are ready to try again the right way.

thank you for your kind words. I will keep picking up the pieces of my life

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 5:01pm On May 23, 2020

Ezennwa:
hmm!
You are entitled to your opinion.

okay then. Maybe i'm myopic

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 5:01pm On May 23, 2020

Ezennwa:
hmm!
You are entitled to your opinion.

okay then. Maybe i'm myopic

Romance › Re: Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 3:07pm On May 23, 2020

There is a lot of truancy, gambling, mischievousness, promiscuity, pilfering, masturbation, lack of self-control etc amongst teenagers and growing adults. Only about 2 percent of children grow up to be successful.

I know what i have made my mum pass through, despite wanting to see her smile. She has really suffered for us her children. Addictions control right thinking. The western world has finished us

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Romance › Children Are No Longer A Blessing From God by ChildOfDoom(op): 3:02pm On May 23, 2020*

Don't be lured into getting married and having children. Children of this generation are nothing to write home about. If you must get married, don't make babies.

After suffering to train them at their tender age: pack their excreta, rush to hospital when sick, feed to adulthood, pay school fees and so on. They grow up to taunt you

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