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HellVictorinho6:
I wonder where i will not be worried almost 24/7. The worry itself is useless. At the end , i can only wonder. I must say i am not celebrating myself. However, the drive to keep trying to survive keeps disturbing me. Unfortunately death only seals it. I still wonder if u should say a person must have a child before death. I will not intentionally pass problems unto another person. I am checking my situation. I have to confess. I expect nobody to ever think of marriage or anything similar with me. I am being realistic. At least,if u are single ,u can always ask if i have anything to keep u around. If u are not single, i wont say u must leave anyone 4 me. Distress,confusion, lack of where to rest, addiction, etc say hi.

Marriage and kids are not an achievement. In fact they are liabilities that will add to the burden you already carry. Breaking news: we are all dying alone.

Arenunltd:
Pls which remote job is recommended, man don tire

If you have a bachelor's degree, then apply for remote jobs that correlate with your course of study. If you don't have any experience yet, apply for entry-level jobs.

Powersurge:
Remote work is not as easy too.

Nothing good comes easy.

I'd rather remain unemployed than work for a Nigerian firm.

Aside from the peanuts paid as salary, they still want you to tolerate their bs.

With remote work I can work in any company from the comfort of my home, while earning in dolls without being subjected to any kind of ill-treatment.

Getting the remote job isn't easy tho. Prepare to get rejected hundreds of times. Remember, all you need is 1 YES.

Don't give up!

Mortgage in Nigeria?

PaigeTaylor:
Hello people. Straight to the point. I met a guy in my 400level. 14 years ago. We connected emotionally, but he never asked me out. He had a serious girlfriend and never hid it. The night he came to my room, I persuaded him to sleep over. I was sooooo into him sexually, the feeling was/is too strong. He grabbed my thighs and sucked my pussy thoroughly. Something I had never experienced with any man. Heck I was still a virgin at the time. I left this world temporarily. The feeling was too overwhelming. Immediately he finished, he asked me, " do you know why I did this?" I answered "no". He said "I did this so that you will never forget me". People, till date, I find it hard to really forget him. Although I refused allowing him have penetrative sex with me that night because he refused to formally ask me out, and I believed I was just a fling to him. So I refused sex with him. Since then, the degree of hatred he felt for me is just too strong. He hated me soooo much and even banged his burglary against my fingers another day that I went to his house, allowed him to do all sorts of things on my body, but still refused sex with him. My fingers even bled. He even said he would kill me here and nothing would happen. He really wanted so bad to sleep with me but I would have loved to be respected enough to be dated by him first, something he wasn't willing to consider because he had a girl. I begged and begged but he refused. At a point, I was considering giving up my body to him, I cried alot because he repeatedly rejected me. I yearned so much for his body, he smelled so nice and he's so big and strong that he carries me like a baby. Till date I chat him up on WhatsApp but he ignores me totally.
Now we're both married to other people, but I can't forget him. I envy the woman he is married to. My husband disvirgined me on my wedding night yeah, but he doesn't carry me the way this guy did, even though I have a small stature, he detests sucking a woman's private part. I don't even connect with him emotionally as I should. I try but I just don't feel it. I feel guilty. If I'm in an enclosed space with this other guy, honestly I won't be able to resist him. I totally yearn to see him again, but I don't want a broken home. But why is it difficult to forget this particular guy? Why does he hate me so much?

You are lusting after a narcissist.

Worst, a narcissist that is physically attractive that you can't help but fantasize.

The more he ignores you, the more obsessed you become.

It's a very dark manipulation, especially when he blows hot and cold all the time.

This person is not good for your mental health.

Try to understand your attraction.

Is it his face, body build, walking style, his voice, his prominent bulges, intelligence, fashion?

Whichever it is, know that there guys much better looking than him out there.

Stop worshipping him. Occupy your time with things that wouldn't remind you of him.

Try to go on dates with your husband, as this can help you build bonds.

Your husband must be feeling so unloved because you are obsessed with another man.

Jakumo:
Damn right, alcohol leads to multiple deadly illnesses notably liver cirrhosis, while alcohol can kill from a single overdose, in addition to being the direct cause of numerous car crashes that claim lives by the thousand worldwide. Alcohol is the most widely available, legally sold poison in existence. My rate of beer consumption is maybe one small can every six months, if at all. I HATE drunks with a passion for they are loud, clumsy, aggressive, and relentlessly idiotic. They remind me of overgrown babies especially when they wet their pants in public while intoxicated.

I never liked filling my stomach with excess fluids. So it was very easy to stay away. When I discover the damages alcohol causes, I thank myself for not including it in my vices. Just give me a blunt let's talk about the nature of our existence on this rock floating through space.

No day has passed without a ponder on my existence.

Growing up, I was indoctrinated into Christianity since my parents were Catholics.

Then, I believed in the creation story, gave my life to Christ, and even taking a baptism in a river.

I considered myself an evangelist and a music minister, and every Sunday as a lead the choir, I speak in tongues and develop goosebumps which I believed to be the Holy Spirit.

When I started questioning the nature of my existence, and why I am on a planet that's floating through space.

Religion could not answer my questions, and this led me to the deepest rabbit hole.

I discovered that we are but atoms, the very thing that made the universe.

And not only are we the universe, we have the capacity to control them.

Edit. Having issues with the editor. Will continue this later. Anyone having the same issues creating a post?

Continuation:

I saw religion for what it is, a tool for power and control, and I left the church.

After many years of crusade and winning souls for the kingdom, I quit.

As a worker my absence caused a big downturn, and I was offered money compensation which I turned down.

Music is very important in this ministry, and I was a very powerful music minister.

When I lead worship and praises, people fall, most prophecy, some speak in tongue, while others simply cry.

It was no wonder that they wanted to keep me by all means necessary, but I knew I would be living a lie, going by what I know.

3 months after leaving the church, I delved into the Occult, the world of the hidden, and I worked with a very powerful coven in India.

Not as anything, but as a mere student.

My taste and hunger for knowledge compelled me, and during my time, I had the opportunity to visit libraries in the astral plane.

As a ferocious reader, I devoured as many as I could. I discovered that the human body has a root command.

After learning about the chakras, and how I could balance and align it, my world changed.

At this stage, the ultimate goal was to raise my kundalini, as that will give me full access to my body.

It took me 8 years to raise my Kundalini. I suffered in the mountains.

Trying to subdue my body through power meditations, yoga and mudras.

After 8 years it was raised, and I felt like God. I can remember vividly that day.

Deep inside meditation, my consciousness left, and my body stayed without food for 28 days.

I was exploring dimensions of existence, and didn't even feel like returning to my body.

What brought me back was the thought of leaving my family, an attachment I found very hard to let go.

One day during my walk in the forest, I found a mushroom, and I knew this was a gift from the universe.

I recognised it almost instantly, and when I took it I was immediately teleported to what I believe to be another plane of existence.

I also met strange entities who shared their wisdom with me. Which can be easily lost if you fail to document.

During my trip, I realized that attachment is a human attribute, but my goal was to become a God, and Gods have no attachment.

Upon this realisation, my spine awoke, and it was the most painful thing ever.

When I went back to my masters, they threw a party for me, and they told me my journey is just beginning.

It was during this period of my life that an exclusive group reached out to me, the one percent of the one person, which many believe to be the Illuminati.

I had no money, but everything was paid for me. I had access to experiences, and they were ready to fund my study into witchcraft.

I have always wanted to learn spells, to work with entities, and control the matter around me.

Spells are game changers. With spells I can automate my life, and live a more balanced life.

And mastering spells was going to take me decades of study. After 12 years, I was invited to a female-only coven in Los Angeles.

A very powerful coven made of powerful witches who no longer need eyes to see.

They were all blind, and yet they could see better than me.

It was this coven that refined my skill, and after learning about spells my world changed.

There is a grimoire in the astral plane, a book which contains spells of all kinds, including necromancy.

I have been tempted to use necromancy to raise my late mother.

But the price is too heavy. I would have to kill someone, so my mother could possess the body.

I can't do it. Sometimes I wonder how Yahweh was able to kill billions.

Until I realized that he was a malevolent God who uses fear to control his followers into worship.

When I left the church he even came to me in a trance while I was deep into mediation.

He was so angry, and he promised me heaven and earth.

I told him I was God, and a God doesn't worship another God.

Unlike what most people believe Yahweh doesn't know everything.

That was why his creation was a massive failure, a project of suffering and pain.

He draws power when there is more suffering and pain in the world, because the energies they emanate can be very powerful.

Earth is actually an energy-harvesting project, but that will be a thread for another day.

However, I want you to know that right now, the ultimate goal for me as a human is to finally face the grim reaper – death.

There is a meditation to remain aware upon your time of death so that when you pass into the afterlife, you are able to experience it consciously.

How would you know when your time of death is?

Years of meditation and knowing oneself to a masterful degree such as some monks that have dedicated their lives to live in peace, on their quest to enlightenment.

There is a story of a monk who realised his time was due, he explained this to his pupils who all proceeded to laugh, they thought he was joking.

So the Monk asked “what position do you want me to die in?”, one of his disciples jokingly shouts “on your head!”,

“Ok” he says. He assumes an upside-down lotus position, balancing himself on his head and proceeds to let himself slip into the afterlife.

Facing death is frightening. It's the ultimate goal as human, and I hope to first live a hundred years before transitioning into the afterlife.

The afterlife is where I truly become a God, as I will no longer need a physical body filled with limitations.

It's the reason I astral project a lot, cause our astral form is limitless and all-powerful.

I can travel round the observable universe with the speed of consciousness, and could watch as the Universe stretches into the darkness.

After death, I hope to create, and to experience my creation.

Will I make the same mistakes that Yahweh made?

We shall see.

I often don't talk about my experiences, because the average mind can't understand it.

It's like something straight out of a movie.

If you resonate with my story, it means you are awakening, and there is massive awakening happening around the world.

People are realising that we live in a matrix, a prison planet, and the controllers are losing control of the system.

In my next thread I am going to share the different mudras and how they work.

This is my gift to you, dear reader.

With mudra you can perform magic.

You can heal, attract, create effortlessly.

The last thing you will have to worry about is money, because it will come in abundance.

Till then, feel free to drop your monika so I will mention you in my next thread.

Cc: 9182736455O1999 Geovanni412

crows2ravens:
You guys better stay away from drugs.
What is the usefulness of the alternative reality you experience for a short time? The more time you spend there, the more your reasoning here becomes distorted. But it's unfortunate that most drug (including weed) users don't know they're actually slipping off from the real world.
In fact, psychologically and emotionally, you will not mature beyond the age you started using regular drugs.
Pure weed gives this blissful euphoria, but long term "regular" use will hurt your mind.
Caffeine and alcohol should be sufficient for any human being.

Alcohol? Now you are capping. Alcohol is the real killer, and it's easily accessible. Just that it will take time to slowly kill everything you love, before it finally kills you. My advice is, whatever you take, never become addicted to the extent where if you havent taken it in a day, your day haven't started. Addiction is what kills, not the drugs.

SpecialAdviser:
Stop being a fuul. Run from evil. You will regret

There is no regret. Better wise up

Kobojunkie:
The year is almost half gone and you still reason like one with screws loose in his head? please endeavor to get a book on logical/critical reasoning/thinking so you can grow your mind and as such become able to logically analyze your decisions, and the world around you, including your relationships for yourself. I recommend the book being logical but any other text that you are more comfortable with will work too. the key is to put into regular(continuous) practice what you learn so you become a more logical being than you are today.

I think you should take your advice.

SpecialAdviser:
Most times it's difficult to explain vanity upon vanity to young generations. They think you are discouraging them.

When you are powerfully rich, you only eat limited food and sleep in one bed per night. If you made money doing evil, you will regret the greed. This has nothing to do with Davido. So don't misquote me.

Just to use this situation as example.

What's evil? When a lion devours an antelope, do you think it's evil? Life is survival of the fittest. The weak can never survive.

SUPERPACK:
E pain am wella

Pain me say you be data seller? What a joke

kingthreat:
The dude feels he is god from his moniker

I thought you are a believer.

We are all gods.

SUPERPACK:
Go get a life.

Data frustration is killing you

SUPERPACK:
Focus on your drug induced virtual reality.

I am back to reality.

But unfortunately you are stuck with data business for life

Hardcore11:
Oga go and seat one place you are they type of guy that make mouth with smokers. I have been smoking Colorado for 2 years now. One thing most of you guys don't know about Colorado is that you think it's been sip like loud or ordinary weed. It an high drug with no discription you are to see once and drop it. You don't smoke Colorado like normal smoke. I have encountered all this nonsense at first but not as worse as yours. I can never stop taking Colorado because it's the best weed among all for now. You don't need to be smoking forest like SK before you get high. Colorado gives you super appetite, good erection. Please leave the drug for those who knows how to take it and stop typing nonsense here mummy's boy.

You don't need to call me names to make a point. Like I said, I unknowingly took it. I was not prepared for the experience in any way.

SUPERPACK:
Rants of an ant.

Focus on your data business oga.

placeofallure:
You don turn am to fight because I don't share your opinion...

That's it! A further prove that you're nothing but a cold, heartless, inconsiderate and a thoughtless fool!
People plan their lives but things head southwards, not because they're not careful planners but because God above all. If things are good for you be thankful, don't see others as idiots. The race is not to the swift, time and chance happen to them all; remember that always.

As for me, I've kissed poverty goodbye. I'm good and so is my boo. Our kids are good. You should pity your kids who will be unfortunate to have an imbecilic nincompoop as a father. Radarada!

Try again

willi926:
For u to recollect wat was happening to u after taking colos it means ur head is still strong. Some no dey recollect. U get strong head. Try take another puff, like 3 drags before u know it, u go dey finish 1wrap

I believe I am missing a lot of details, but I could recall some parts and it was terrifying. If I had prepared myself I would have handled it better. I thought it was ordinarily weed.

Kingray10:
When you felt you died, guy, you truly died.
Welcome back from the multiverse of madness.

I believe you. Right now I feel I am living a second life. The old one is dead. The experience has made me re-evaluate my life.

placeofallure:
I doubt.

An insensitive, unfeeling robot!

Because I'm against breeding kids without adequately caring for them?

I only pity the kids you will bring into poverty.

Mrs. Sensitive

shortgun:
Weed in its unadulterated form is good for d body and soul.
Once you start mixing with synthetic chemicals and experimenting with substances that are unnatural your mind, spirit and soul will be corrupted.

Indeed. I wouldn't even advise my enemy to try the adulterated version. It was a terrible experience.

SUPERPACK:
We sincerely apologize to the general public for this very act of nuisance. The poster is one of our psychiatric patients who escaped last night. We urge the public to go about with your various businesses as everything is under control.
Thanks for your understanding

We all know that you don't have the brain cells to make a coherent sentence. So when you copy and paste, please credit the original writer.

I am a stoner.

I believe that weed is but a plant that connects us to source.

In that state of high frequency, we can access source materials and sometimes help us pierce through the matrix.

But 3 days ago, I unknowingly took a synthetic version, known as Colorado or spice.

Immediately I took 2 puffs, reality melted before me. Everything started looking cartoonish.

I saw myself detach from my body, and I was in utter state of confusion.

I lost all my memories. Sense of self. I lost my identity.

I thought I had died. No one would have convinced me at this point that I wasn't dead.

I felt sad, cause I could feel the pain of my dependants, especially my family.

I start wondering how I died. Was I hit? I could see people receiving news of my death, and their reactions.

Before I know it, i was stuck in what looked like an infinite loop.

i was reliving a moment over and over again, for what felt like eternity.

It was utter suffering.

When I started regaining consciousness I found myself being poured water by my friends.

I felt like a robot that was just installed with a consciousness.

I felt so disconnected with my body. It felt strange, and I couldn't even move a muscle.

When I began gaining control, the only thing on my mind was to run home.

And my friends were chasing after me and I never looked back.

I didn't care about my phone or my earpod.

I was exhausted and the only thing I needed at that moment was this physical reality.

Although I will never try Colorado in life again, the experience further proved that I am more than my body.

I am but a spiritual being in this water spacesuit called body.

When my physical body dies, the real me will live on, no longer bound to this body, and free to explore the multiverse.

placeofallure:
I think a robot typed this; definitely not human!

What an intelligent robot.

Fame1309:
Are you a kid?all your comments are just childish, don't worry when you get older you will understand life better.

That's life.

Look at this retired

Aurelius1:
You no get single sense for your head. That you are living a comfortable life today is not by your own effort. It's by the grace of God. Try and be humble, else, nature will humble you.

I don't want to call you mumu, but you behave like one.

DownTime44:
my parents didn't send any child to school. I was responsible for my university education not my parents.

We hawk so we could survive. What would you have suggested we do? Do you expect my mum to be fighting her husband every day because he couldn't provide for the family?

We aren't happy we found ourselves in such conditions.

I am not blaming you, rather your parents. It's your parents responsibility to make sure you get the best life has to offer.

Your mother shouldn't have even married your father in the first place if he was incapable of taking care of his kids.

Like I said, it's their fault and not yours. I am sure if given a choice you wouldn't have allowed them to birth you.

That's life.

RTID:
I see people say women don't know how to handle rejection.

I've seen women say men don't know how to.

But I'm here to tell you that as a heterosexual man, homosexual men don't know how to handle rejection from straight people.

So, this guy in my inbox who has been pestering my life to come see him in Onitsha.

He has promised me heaven and Earth.

One time he even sent me 50k to buy lunch, with the transfer narration reading;

"There's more where that came from."

The pestering became too much, as I couldn't understand why nwoke ibe m would ask me to travel all the way to Onitsha to spend the weekend with him.

So, I had to ask him in plain English;

"What do you want?"

And that was where the horror began.

He told me several things, but kept emphasising on how he wanted my 9 inches to drill his bubble butt.

I politely declined and told him I was not interested.

Mr Alex didn't agree. As a matter of fact, he told me to name my price.

Chai! I have always said I was an ashawo, but not to the male gender nah.

Anyway, I stopped replying his message.

Then, one day he goes ahead to send me one last message before blocking me.

"Keep pretending. You and I know you're a full blooded homosexual who disguises with his 9 inches so that Facebook women won't think you're one of us. You can keep deceiving Facebook girls with that stupid 9 inches of yours. But the heart knows what it wants. Ashawo Homo Night Mile!"

Tell me you enjoyed the attention you narcissist

duduade:
You are so heartless ehhh

How?