Hello iClef, I read that publish drive distributes to over 400+ online bookstores and they have link to Amazon program too .
Why do you upload on Amazon instead of publish drive?
Is Amazon more profitable?

Dear @queenice7, first of all welcome to the world of Friendship with Benefits (FWB) where people want to enjoy sexual intimacy without getting emotional committed.
There is something your fuckmate understands about FWB which you don't understand. FWB partners are just in it for the sex and nothing more.
If you desire anything more, discuss it with your fuckmate and don't be too proud to let your ego down. It's for your sanity. You are hurting already which is one of the disadvantages of FWB relationship.
It is rare that you have sexual intimacy with someone without one developing emotional connection with the other person. The rule of FWB is that both parties suppress every form of emotions and just enjoy the sexual benefits.
It is obvious you are not configured to endure this type of relationship. You have the option to severe ties with him and stop every sexual connection. Stay away from him for at least for 2 weeks and you will begin to forget him.
Be warned that if by chance you reconnect again, the feelings will be reignited.
Good luck.

Eyeness:
so wh does the husband want her disrespectful ass back. Granted we should hear his story. but for a woman to call a marriage hell. it must have been hell.

but for a woman to call a marriage hell. it must have been hell
This is exactly my point. What reasons could she give to support the idea of a reunion?

It would be necessary to hear your husband's side of the story too. But the two of you share the blame equally.

For a marriage to work, both partners must contribute to its success with mutual respect, understanding, sacrifice and patience.

Perhaps, these were lacking in your marriage at some point.
Madam, the truth is that you disrespect your husband and he felt less of a man. The easiest way to reduce a man to rag is to disrespect him. No man can stand a disrespectful wife.

You described your husband as a man with a large heart. How was it like for both of you at the onset of your marriage? That means that there is something making him act the way he does at home or most likely, you don't know or understand the man you got married to.

He started beating you with the hope it will get you to accord him his due respect.
If you are not ready to respect him, forget the idea of going back.

Ask yourself, what exactly would be the reasons why you want to go back. Have the factors that drove you apart been addressed conclusively?
Answer these questions sincerely and decide if it's worth another chance.

Forget pastors abeg. What is God telling you? Pay attention to His voice...
Peace be with you

Your story is truly touching. Thank God that you both are still standing strong.

The rich man decided to torment you because he could not seduce your wife with material gifts. Such a woman is rare to come by.

Additionally, a praying wife is an asset, guard and protect her. Cherish her all the days of your life.

Finally, never leave the Eucharistic Jesus. I can testify that He is the strong pillars of my being and secret of my success.
Shalom

Time to move on son. Never look back...
Just focus on your studies and develop your skills.
You don't have a girlfriend. Both of them are birds of a feather.

MOnkeyBabe:
his mom attends SACReD HEART CATHOLIC CHURCH ,Queens NY. I would most likely go there one of these days . Too many things going on in the noRtheast now. Thanks for your POSitive contribution

You are most welcome.
Ensure that before you move around that it's quite safe for you. I have read that NY is the most affected City in US by Covid - 19.

MOnkeyBabe:
I know you are a STRanGer. But Please foRGive me and beg God to forGive me for what I am about to tell you. It's going to Get CReepy.
I have actually been hiding an Igbo boy's daughter for almost 5 years now. He was the first man I had a baby for. I just came to my senses few months ago. I have deleted his number from my contacts. I never wanted a black man to father any of my ChilDRen. I'm so sorry for my PAST. DeePly SoRRy.
Maybe I'm paying for my sins. Can't even find his address. His name is OSiTA, from n'imo in AnamBRa State. I Confessed this to elochukwu. I BeG everyday for him to forGive me.
But how come I caRed so much about the inDiGenuous People of BiAfRa, then hated blacks so much and worshipped whites?. I think the church moulded who I am. I am into EuRopean & IGBO CultURe due to large following they have among such GRouP of PeOPle.
RiGht now I have been able to ACknowleDGe all RACes & tRiBeS are eQUal.

Sounds good that you have come to this realization.
The Holy Book tells us that God does not discriminate (Cf: Acts 15: 9). If we are creatures of His image and likeness, then we ought to behave like Him; emulate Him and love as He loves.

MOnkeyBabe:
I've disturbed you so much. GooDniGht

Not quite. It's afternoon here so I am very much awake.
Anyway, you need to get some sleep now. Have a good night rest.

MOnkeyBabe:
I know you are a STRanGer. But Please foRGive me and beg God to forGive me for what I am about to tell you. It's going to Get CReepy.
I have actually been hiding an Igbo boy's daughter for almost 5 years now. He was the first man I had a baby for. I just came to my senses few months ago. I have deleted his number from my contacts. I never wanted a black man to father any of my ChilDRen. I'm so sorry for my PAST. DeePly SoRRy.
Maybe I'm paying for my sins. Can't even find his address. His name is OSiTA, from n'imo in AnamBRa State. I Confessed this to elochukwu. I BeG everyday for him to forGive me.

Like you pointed out initially, God is a very merciful Father. He forgives and forgets our sins the moment we repent and confess to Him sincerely.
Now that you have realized your mistakes, the right thing for you to do is to reconnect Osita with his daughter. You cannot hide her forever from her father unless he does not want to be in the child's life and upbringing. But if he has always wanted to be there for his daughter, then, try all you can to find him.
Check out for him on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter. If these approaches does not work, you may create a thread here on Nairaland to put out the notice. Perhaps, Osy or someone who knows Osy might stumble on it and get across to you.

MOnkeyBabe:
ChimDinaGha/CHiNAGHa/ is his 2nd name. PAGans may just call it OJimnAGha- their names don't signify ChRiSt's pReSence .
Of CouRSe, I say the ROsary everyday in Igbo - maRia Ndi ASo ju putere GRACias. Sorry if I get Anything wROnG. One of my Daughters 4 yeaRs, understood Igbo before she went to live with a Relative.
Think his parents were prejudiced against AfRiCan AmeRiCans. The more they hated them. The more he DRew Closer to them.
I'm mixed with nsobo. That makes some of my family prejudiced against igbos. But despite the hate , that has made me draw closer. Mine is even better because my Aunts, GRAnDma & CouSins are Igbo.
He has no BlaCkAmeRiCan Relative. I wonder what's the compelling force.

Jisi ike Nwanyi oma. Onwero ife mee gi. Idi very much ok.
I wish you the very best in life and keep spreading the love of God.
Shalom Lekah

MOnkeyBabe:
I keep begging God to have meRCy on us, POOR Sinners. O ChineKe, GBAGHARRA. N'ebere nna Onyenweanyi, BiKO. Njo Nile mere ChineKe mo GBAGHARRA. TeaRs of joy flow down my Cheeks for we have been ReDeemed. Onye Oma onyeoma ChineCHeRem ewo. I just see him as my SOn oR ChilD. honestly want the BeSt for him.
If not for my CAthOlic faith and iGBo COmmunity choir, I may have killed myself by now. Each time I feel like pulling the tRiGGer, I hear their voices sinGing to God in heaven. Giving PRAise in all Situations.
The boy I'm talking about is from a Small VillaGe in imO State. He Came here as a kid. What made him love and appreciate AfRiCan AmeRiCans as his own despite the hate we give them? This is not BeTRayal. He still maintains his NiGeRian iDentity. He treats everyone eQually with DiGnity and ReSPeCt.
In this life, the best thing is to go for your heaRt after seeking God's GUiDAnCe.

Very lovely songs you 've got here. You have lived in the US all your life, yet you sing Igbo songs and write in Igbo too. This is interesting. You must be a wonderful person.
I think that you are just a very unique being. Your spiritual gifts are simply outstanding.
Stick very close to God. He is ever merciful and loving.
Let me assume that you have grown past your crises years. A bright future is ahead of you. You have got so many beautiful reasons to live for.
Are you close to Our Dear Mother Mary?
Sounds interesting to know that Elo has kept his identity (African and Nigerian).

MOnkeyBabe:
marriage is every woman's dream, but if it doesn't happen with him. Fine, I move on and we remain friends as usual. I ADmiRe Guys with Qualities but I can't bring myself to DatinG anyone that's not him, PeRiOD. I have found my matCh/missing PieCe. MaDe in heaven. When I think of him, I hear the voices of AnGels.

It sounds awesome to read your description of him.
Let me hope that he too does same for you in the same manner. This way, you both would be operating on the same frequency.

I am still wondering how you got to the level of fiancée with a woman who treats you like a nobody.
Bros, tarry a bit, you may have to look somewhere else.
Marriage is too long a time for you to live with a disrespectful and unruly wife.
She has little or no feelings for you. She doesn't care about you. She does not love you.
A woman who respects and cares about you will always be on your matter every now and then. If she misses your call, she will get back to you the moment she is available to call.

It is very wrong and foolish of you to be troubled about your colleague's better performance.
It only shoes that you are always studying to outclass and impress. Study to learn and improve yourself.
Never ever think of competing against colleagues. Just be yourself and do the much you can.

MOnkeyBabe:
Lee ATURu ko n'OBe.
guy, I may look small and be 24 but I'm not a baby. I have an ACC DeGree from new York City. Got into college at 16. Took Classes all year ROunD,GRADuated at 19. I have 3DauGhteRs from EuROPean men. Dated all RACes. I've been Round the world and mixed with various CUltuRes. "Seen it all". I also think it's wrong to scaRe Children away from RShiPs. They just have to be caReful, that's it. They are meant to develop StaBle friendships with Guys who aren't family members. It's from here maRRiage will Stem. We need PARtners to progress through life. Things should go Smoothly and when the ChiPs ARe DOwn, they should be able to fall back on each other. If una like encourage the female members of your family to stick with you, so that when they need help tomorrow, you would start calling their name up and down in village meeting. Giving them name of Dependent sister. Isn't it better to be a liability to a husband than to take Shits from Relative. I never escape DOneStic VIOlence. I'd Rather my DeaD BoDy be brought than for me to leave my husband's house to a RelAtive or family house. So your brothers would be there to insult you? Why I keep picking on brothers is because they feel like they should be the only men in your life to protect you. They Chase other eligible. I have 3 brothers and I'm GOnna fucking SCRew their neck when I get the chance. Now they JaCk when shit goes wrong but had been POSSessive of me. If they knew they couldn't take caRe of me in future, why didn't they let me develop solid Relationships with men who would take me to the altar. I know these Days men complain of wives doing nothing. But that's not as DiSGRaCeful as Nieces or nephews hearing about you being a DePendant Aunt. KABiSh. ImA Do a numBeR on them .
When I talk about this guy I know what I mean. There is time for a woman to settle, RiGht after her teens. Been in too many headless and tailess RelationShips of these Days. Imagine someone Dating aimlessly till they are almost 40
It's either him or no other man. I've made my choice. This isn't the past when I was into the world and had PeRSOnality CRiSes. If he doesn't succumb, fine, I'll Remain SinGle but be his friend. I'm COntent with that.

'Lee Nwa Aturu koru n'elu one...' You must be a staunch Catholic.
Good to know you have three lovely daughters. It may not be easy raising them all by yourself. How do you cope? Perhaps, you get support from their fathers.
You are equally learned and you could achieve more. Well, it all depends on what you want in life. At 24, you still have great opportunities ahead of you. But most importantly, you have a great task of raising up your daughters.
As for your brothers, reciprocate with love. You don't have any other brothers apart from them and they want the best for you.
How come you have made up your mind to be with this guy or no other man? Does he see you as a potential life partner? Has he ever mentioned settling down with you? His body language and attitude towards you should tell you if he will commit to you for a life time or not. You are still very young. I mean, you can still reconsider your decision.

MOnkeyBabe:
I'm not asking for nothing at this point. I had even told him to mute my messages and said him he doesn't have to respond, but read whenever he feels like. Just wanna be there somewhere, somehow you know? No matter how insignificant. I'm not DeSPeRate or RetaRDed. Just a good person and want to be seen as that. Mean no haRm. Don't care if he has someone in his life or would cheat on me after, I'm not territorial or expecting much. Really want the flow to be easy. My Bible tells me that the humble would be exalted and the meek would inheRit the earth. Even if I was to gain nothing for being Good? There's no ReaSOn for me to be PROuD. Always send interesting uplifting stuff, pictures , videos and stories. Basically about God, my timeline, and what I'm actively engaged. I've sent the link to my ClOUD & Google. Never as a means of control, just so there's me there subtly affecting his life in a POSitive- this I do for God's gloRy & CReDit, not mine. He's not DeaDBeat but cares somewhat. Reason he has not blocked me.
It's not like I was ACtively looking for love or expected anything. He just came to me and started Chatting me up.
When he told me he was Igbo, I almost fell on my knees with heart in hand shedding tears of joy. I Remember the SOnG we sing at StatiOns of the CROSS.
Chukwu n'OGige Gethsemane'

'Ngarube nke obe' at the bolded words. I am trying to recollect this song you mentioned but it seems like I have not heard it before.
Anyway, focus on building and developing yourself.
Apart from school studies, read and acquire skills, expand your knowledge, try and be loaded. Look out for ways to earn money from what you can do.

It's obvious that you do not know what you want.
Since you are not sexually attracted to her, the best thing is to let her go.
Open up to her and end it peacefully.

But then, truth is, she will add weight certainly during pregnancy and after her first child. Perhaps, the curves and the desirable features you crave would become very noticeable at that point.

MOnkeyBabe:
it's extremely Painful. Folks act like I have a mental illness, I'm being clingy or in need of sex. We have human limitations, but if that was the underlying factor, I may have called him a bum nigga and left AGes tho.
Something keeps drawing me back. Should be the voice of the hOlySPiRit, begging me BiKO in our native Dialect. Because it's neither male or female. Softest voice I've heard, calming my senses down. I have battled with anger all my life few days to meeting this boy.

I think you may have a special thing for this guy which he obviously does not appreciate nor reciprocate.
It's not easy to extricate yourself from someone you love genuinely.
Where do you see your relationship with him in the next 2 years? Marriage or just fun? What do you really want for yourself?
Is he the type of guy you want to stick to through thick and thin?

MOnkeyBabe:
Thanks

You are most welcome.

MOnkeyBabe:
ChRiStianity says we are meant to live GoD's puRPOSe. Don't know if this mines. Connecting a father and his son. Because this boy has done some annoying things to me, I can't think of ShaDOwinG him. He BaSiCally shits on me everytime but I'm still here. Not after marriage or anything. If it comes, I will accept. Just want to be there as a friend in case he is ever down. Want to be there to UPlift his spirit. I Believe it's Jesus ChRist the son of God working through me.

O well, you already have an idea of what you need to do in his life.
Pray for God's guidance and direction.
Good luck.

MOnkeyBabe:
yes. But he thinks I may be Playing Games

You have done your bit.
Let him continue doubting. There must be a reason why his father is sending that signal to him.

MOnkeyBabe:
he may be late. About raising his son as a strict Catholic. I'm very Godly but still into the world. I felt Guilty BeCause I know I had SexteD his son.

You see!
Just like I knew he wanted you to help out with something.
The thing he requested of you is very dear to his heart and he needed some help with it.
Did you tell the son about the dreams?

MOnkeyBabe:
me too. People think I'm nuts. There's this boy I met, I keep seeing his DaD

What does the man say to you each time you see him?
He might be trying to pass a message to you.
What do you think?

If you are not ready for drama and stress, forget it.
It is not a game for feeble minded people.

Sure. It had been tested and re-tested. It takes conscious efforts and high level of discipline to stay faithful and committed to each other.

Bros, examine that her love very well. A girl who truly loves you will gladly accept to be your wife.
If she doesn't want to be your wife, let her go so other suitable candidates can take her place as soon as possible.

Nice piece.
Keep it flowing...

Why not advice yourself?
How can't you see just remembered you in this critical period so you can be her cash cow?
I am sure that you are still a kid and you barely have experience with girls.
Which responsible girl will bill you back to back at this time when you are not married to her?
Does she care to know how you survive?
Why not borrow some brain from your friend and be sensible for once.

Guard and protect that gift jealously.
Your type is rare to come by...

Looks quite big.
Enjoyment galore.